aria

1. borrowing misery from future

2. carrying grief of the past

please remember us when talking about neurodiversity. ocd, dyslexia, dyscaculia, personality disorders, tourettes, intellectual disabilities, schizo-spec disorders, etc. all fall under neurodiversity.

please stop saying neurodivergent when you mean "autism and adhd."

Gaz wouldn't say he has control issues, because that implies his need to control things isn't good. Sure, whenever gaz is in a relationship he wants to pre-pick the date options and the housing arrangements and the schedule. But that's not because he has issues.

Gaz is just realistic. He's seen couples going about their day suddenly stopped dead in the middle of their lives by a bullet, or a bomb, or whatever fucked up thing they didn't expect to happen in such a normal and public space. Gaz likes to think he has the advantage, that he knows what could really happen, and having control over the variables keeps him and his partner safe.

...people don't seem to share that sentiment, as he's learned.

He expects you to be the same. To grimace when he tells you to grab a different pair of shoes, or to argue about his choice of restaurant. Gaz expects the same argument, the same hasty break-off.

Except...you don't? You don't get upset with kyle despite him choosing when you shower or when you go to the movies. You just smile, offer him a "sure thing, kyle." And amble on to do whatever he instructed.

It's weird. Unique. Dangerous if he doesn't understand the intentions.

Only, when gaz asks you why the hell you put up with it, you shrug and say "I'm comfortable, aren't i? You handle all the stressful decisions, and I sit here and enjoy things and look nice. What's not to love?"

"independence?" Gaz offers, sure there must be something you don't like.

"babe, c'mon." You snort, looking down at your cozy pajamas and the game console in your hands "if I had independence I'd be choosing to do the exact same things I do now. You're not trying to make me miserable, so I don't see the harm."

Gaz settles into it, after that. He really lets his tendrils spread, takes over the things you prefer not to deal with happily.

Others might think he's pampering you, or that he's keeping you trapped. If anything it's the other way around. Gaz has never been happier in a relationship, and he's not sure he'd be willing to part with you after growing so attached.

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Ghost: Metallica and Pantera as previously discussed, slipknot, asking Alexandria, alpha wolf, disturbed, avenged sevenfold, megadeth- you get the idea. His guilty pleasure song would be fancy.

Soap: linkin park, the cranberries, buzzcocks, specifically lonely day by SOAD. Guilty pleasure song would be when did you get hot.

Gaz: Arctic monkeys, Fleetwood Mac, radiohead, the neighbourhood, måneskin. Guilty pleasure song would be ex’s best friend.