its hard to find someone to hold your hand

kinda like the bew therapist bc hse always makes jr clear i dont need to talk ab smt if im not comrortable w it. and she said next time we can color in books she has. and fond smt to talk AB bc she respecting im a very. private closed iff person dor personal thngs

this new therapist basically js called me lonely 500 times 🥀

lwk think i got doagnosed. this sunmer

wanna go on a walk but eowww haeadach :((

my mom has rold me to tell her if i odnt like a food she maeks but like im alredy the reason she routinely makes like 4 distinct meals and repeats food a lot and id feelbad telling her i dont like burgers, im starting to get sick of pasta, nad bacon tastes kinda disguting now 😓

wait watching mcu in cheonological order meeans all the post credit scenes r fucked up bc then u get a post credit scrne for the wrobg movie like i js finished cap america and like the post credit scene for that was for avengers but the bext movie is cap marcel then iron man etc ljke avengers wont even exist in the next movie

captain america movie is not moreintetesting than i remembere (its kinda mid boring idk whays jappeneh i dint pay attention for liek the first third)

earier my omom told me how As mom has told my mom that A is bad at planning but like ik my mom has said that before and tehres a difference between being bad at organizing plans/inititaing and saying "yeah that sounds good" to my suggestions or even just "ok" like theres a difference one makes sense bc it reuqires effort (planning) but the other literally is no effort bc im setting everything up and dont put the responsibility on u (agreeing to plans)

not alowed to go on more than 3 walks per week now and all have to be under 30 mins. like bro im trying to go outside im trying to spend less time online im tryna do smt for myself that i enjoy for once like just lemme have this ☹️😭🙏

earlier i was telling my mom ab how E never is first to respond when i yry making plans but responss the secodn A texts and my mom said E is probs js like netvous or anxious to reply an thats whta i thought too but liek. its still annoying to wait like an hour or more gor someone to reply to ur hangout tyenpts but to see them engage no probelm once sum1 else texts

y mom said i shld try to invite ither ppl out like she suggested P/O/MV and id also add on F so i might ask them to see moana liv action next wek idk kinda shy tho

yay my therapist let me leave and have her js talk to my patents so i basically get to skip half the appt 🥹