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“just let me be can” - yeah, sure do whatever you wanna do

all it does is just make me mad, just saying sorry everytime but still just doing what you want in the end

you always say i have a say in the decisions you make, but even when i dont want you to go down a specific road, im forced to go down it anyway.

must be so hard for you that you have to try to get with it, when im the one always doing it

so tired that i dont even wanna fight this. like ok still continue feeling shitty, unheard, like a pushover all just for you

wtv right as long as you dont hv to feel this way because clearly i prioritize u not feeling this way over myself

i give in at home to please my family

i eventually give in to all that you want to please you

hating how i look, feeling insecure and shitty

doubting, second-guessing if what you’re telling me is the truth or if you’re hiding certain things from me when you’re away from me

thinking abt work and everything piling up

its so tiring and idw to think and feel and feel my chest tighten and not being able to breathe

i know its hard to apologise but i still do it because i know i need to own up thatx im wrong but why is it that i always have to dig it out of u why cant u apologise for the things you’re at fault at how is that fair

when i self reflect you can continue to say me then ok its done but u dont hv anything to say for what you’ve done unless i ask for it - how does that work

sometimes i just wanna be riled up and not give a shit like u but i know that we will get nowhere so i try and try to understand and get u to talk but its so hard sometimes begging for communication begging for smth

i get that its hard for some ppl, its hard for u but hv u ever thought that its hard for me too? but i do it cause i care and actually want to get to the root? do u think i want to fight? i got shit to work on my own im flawed af too but this shit takes two and i need u to meet me halfway on your own i cant drag u everytime to meet me there

but its hard when you’ve been bitten more than once, to not fear or to trust

i dont know maybe it is overthinking maybe its just trust issues but im not going to be treated like an idiot

im not even asking for anything big..why do u need to try..is it that hard, that big of an ask..

the doubt creeps in and makes me so anxious..i wanna fking trust u w everything but everytime u lie my trust gets depleted

why would u follow back the acc/look at it again when it caused trust to break down betw us

you know what i can and cant take so whyyyy