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“It felt like a memory that never happened. Her hand was warm. Everything else wasn't.”

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the first is happenstance. it's temporary. it feels like floating, but only for an uncertain moment.

the second is intentional. it's permanent. there is this certainty, that whatever was in the first time could be recreated, could be recovered, could be relived forever until eternity lies in what was once a temporary high.

the third is empty.

I keep seeing people say how crazy Mizi is and how innocent Sua was in comparison, but that’s just not true. I adore both Mizi and Sua, by the way. This isn’t criticism of either of them. But you can’t ignore what Sua does here if you want an accurate portrayal of their relationship in this world.

When Mizi becomes an idol, she’s manufactured into a sex symbol, crafted into something that can appeal to the male gaze despite how we KNOW she’s a lesbian. Specifically, we can see how Mizi’s breasts are often framed promiscuously to further her objectification:

So this shot where Sua finds Mizi, tied up and helpless, incoherent, and the first thing she does is frame an unaware Mizi’s breasts as if in a photoshoot—bitterly, ironically, before relief takes over—it goes to show something major about Mizisua’s relationship in both the ALNST and ZOMST verse.

In ALNST, Sua enables Mizi’s infantilization (something often levied against women in a misogynistic context) of herself by keeping Mizi “in the dark” (although Mizi is more aware than either of them want to acknowledge). People rightfully criticize Till for his innocent vision of Mizi to comfort himself with, but Sua has a version of Mizi in her head that she uses to comfort herself, too. She and Till aren’t incredibly different in this regard.

In ZOMST, this translates not to infantilization, but to objectification. Sua is bitter over Mizi’s decision to let the industry use her in this way, she’s disgusted by it, but then she wields it herself when Mizi is finally helpless and incapable of pushing Sua away again by miming taking a photo of Mizi’s breasts.

And Sua my precious precious girl, she literally has not done anything wrong in this eps (that I’ve seen yet) and she gets treated so badly. She doesn’t get to debut which was also her dream. She has to watch HER GIRLFRIEND be close with men and be sexualized knowing how uncomfortable it makes her. She’s watching her love spiral and when she tries to step in she’s hit. Physically abused (I don’t blame Mizi but seriously 2 for 2 atp, stop hitting her) never getting her dream then having her love her turned into a zombie. So she decides to also become one because Sua cannot live without Mizi and she will always die for her. So she becomes a zombie gets abused and exploited and then dies for her love as she gets chopped up to be sold.

Wether it’s all of her or just her arm is unclear, eternal means it goes on for ever so maybe it’s just her arm and they’ll have her still preform, like how it’s implied Mizi lost her eyes (they were sold) but she still preforms, we will probably have to wait and see. Or if they chop everything up and once again Sua dies for Mizi. But in this universe Mizi doesn’t seem sad at first but I think she just isn’t able to express it because of the audience. Once she finished her sign song it seems her face drops or maybe not.

Sua my girl you have done nothing wrong and yet you are always the victim. Mizi my girl you are never treated right and you will always be villainized for having reactions to your trauma because you are a woman.

I BETTER NOT see ANY lesbian Mizi deniers because of those few frames when it’s about how she is getting EXPLOITED AND SEXUALIZED

The contrast of the music and the visuals, how even the visuals contrast with each other. The switch to the black in white towards the end. Everything was done so well, I really enjoyed it some parts made me uncomfortable but that’s the point. YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE BECAUSE IT IS A DIRECT CRITIQUE AND CRITICISM OF THE IDOL AND MODEL INDUSTRY AND THE PARASOCIAL AND CREEPY RELATIONSHIPS PEOPLE HAVE WITH IDOLS.