applejack ana 🌟🪽❤️‍🩹

i have individual allowances for breakfast, lunch, and dinner, instead of each day. it helps so much to space everything out, and food noise goes away so much easier when you know exactly how long you need to wait.

every time i have a breakdown trying to choose an outfit, and on that note, every time i get mogged by a girl who looks cute just bc she’s skinny

rush is in under two months and i will not be fat because even just at orientation, i felt so uncomfortable around the pretty social girls just because of my weight especially since everybody was in the tiniest clothes on earth

the last girl my boyfriend talked to/kinda was with before we got tg was so skinny and confirmed had an ed as well but like.. successfully. and she was actually so gorgeous manic pixie dream girl but was also evil and i know he chose me but i also know she is so much prettier than i am and it drives me insane knowing he saw her and kissed her and looked at her and touched her and i actually can’t think about it because it makes me want to throw up. ON THAT BY THE WAY, I WAS IN LOVE WITH HIM FOR A YEAR BEFORE WE GOT TOGETHER. AND I WAS HIS BEST FRIEND WHILE HE WAS TALKING TO HER AND DEALING WITH HER CONSTANT BS THAT HE KEPT FALLING FOR AND I HAD TO HEAR ABOUT HER ALL. THE TIME. gmfu.

back to fitting in, i’m lowkey just terrified to go off to college and i think my life will be so much better and i will be so much happier and more confident if im not a fat chud

being able to post cute with my friends and not be the slightly bigger friend in most groups

i need to make the evil people from my past jealous. all of them just need to see me be gorgeous and carefree and winning

i’m just so tired of having curved lines like i need sharper lines sharper jawline sharper shoulders hips knees wrists all of it i just need to be sharper and more streamlined

no more chunky legs idgaf ab thick thighs save lives why do i actually have thick knees its evil its so bad i hate it

MINI SHORTS 😛😛😛

being able to be weird and people think it’s cute and funny instead of chud behavior

eliminating chances of guys making fun of me in their groups or messing with me (lwk has never happened to me but i’m so scared imma get played bc im chopped and don’t know it)