HUMAN

      ❛ Logan is dead. ❜      The words are spoken with little to no emotion, the brunette determined to handle the part berserker’s death in a clinical manner. She can’t deal with the sadness that constricts her heart every time she thinks about him, for a boy she never even met once. Maybe it has something to with weird berserker-werejaguar connection they had. Whatever it is, she doesn’t have the energy to make sense of it right now.      ❛ — yes. He saved my life. ❜      She had contemplated lying about it for a second, but changes her mind last moment. There’s just something about Stiles that makes her want to trust him.

  “How?” Curiosity killed the Stilinski. The boy hadn’t gotten any sympathy from Stiles apart from an understanding on not being able to control his ability. He could get that. But the guy dying didn’t make him sad. “He did also put it in danger by working with the Dread Doctors.”

 “Totally don’t believe you.”

“I would never cry at a dog dying.” His face was a failed attempt at serious.

          “The side EVERYONE thinks you belong on? Please, Stiles, tell me who this EVERYONE is. Because last time I checked – I needed you HERE. I need you on MY side.” She wanted to keep him from getting hurt. On Theo’s side – she was sure he would only end up hurting. 

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❝ You’re right. I am sorry.     Darkness has always been a part of us.    We all have it in us. After sacrifice it only became stronger     —— the dark side. Everyone has a choice to be good or bad    or something in between. Someone once said: you can not be     good without being bad and you can not be bad without being     good. When nogitsune possessed your body, it showed you    how good it feels to be the bad guy. Have you forgotten how     good it feels to be the good guy? I understand that you’re tired      of fighting it, you want to be free. I get it. I just have a one question    to you. If Theo tried to kill me or one of our pack, what would you do?    Would you stop him or kill one of us yourself? You know you can    stop whatever Theo did to you. A power of will is stronger than any    force. I’m always going to be here. I’m always going to wait for     you to come back.  ❞    

     " We will watch and see. I AM not going to throw you into something permanent until we don’t know if it has any side effects. For now you got time to train. But now we do know it is time that you get to know the pack. We have to make this official all for once. We start with Tracy. Stay calm, I won’t accept any fighting between you both. “

“Right.” Scott nodded, already walking to the exit. “We’re not leaving her in there. Parrish called me right after it happened. He’s going to meet us there.” He stopped outside the hospital, only hesitating for a moment. “Stiles, we need a plan, especially after what happened the last time we went there.”

“This isn’t about how you feel or what you think will happen. Just go through with it and let the chips fall where they may. He has every right to be pissed at you for not telling him sooner, but, you’ll just have to take whatever he gives.”

        “Ah you know me. I bounce back fast. It’s you I’m       worried about. Maybe you should head home kid.”

            ❝ it’s our best bet if we want to find her. ❞ brows raise as stiles reveals more about his identity, and suddenly, maeve is internally slapping herself for trying to dislocate his bones. at least he was still willing to help her, otherwise, she’d be screwed. but the bendy straw wasn’t going to know that. following the direction of his gesture, the leopard makes her way towards the vehicle, not hesitating to climb in the passenger’s side. ❝ sorry about your arm. i actually do appreciate  what you’re doing for me, i’m just…determined to find my sister. very determined. ❞

“The very first thing you do is come clean. Come clean to everyone. No more lies, no more secrets, no more holding anything back.” Lying and holding things back was what got them in this mess in the first place. It wouldn’t be pretty, but, it was the only way to escape the dug they’ve dug.

“It’s doing it’s job then,” Scott replied as he moved passed Stiles to head to the other’s room, subtly looking around to make sure nothing was wrong. “Thanks, dude. I’d ask Kira or Lydia, but they’ve been kind of busy.” He looked over his shoulder and shrugged at his best friend. “Really? Huh. I just finished my homework and decided to head over.” That too was a lie. Stiles’ dad and Scott had worked out a schedule to make sure one of them was always with the other. They didn’t want to risk anything. “What do you want to do now then?”

       “ When you feel your anger coming, focus on it. It works exactly like for werewolves. Anger makes us stronger and you especially. Imagine that thing in your mind, focus on them and then you will learn to control it. At some point you wont have to do it anymore because control will be a part of you like driving a car. You just know it without thinking. ”

“It was definitely a tear.”

“No tears. None.”

protectiveness was in her nature, something that had only been enhanced by the bite and then her position as a true alpha, that protectiveness come into play highly when the people she loved were in danger or hurt and stiles may not be her best friend anymore but, she would always be his and so when he was hurt she was going to be there to take his pain away, no matter what. she could see the teacher, a substitute for mr. yukimura ( she really missed kira ) calling her name once and then twice, heels tapping irratedly against the linoleum floor but, scarlett could care less at the moment stiles was the only person she cared about at the moment, the only person that had her full attention. thankfully, lydia was a genius and a gift because she drew mrs. something or other away from them by asking her questions about homework that scarlett knew she could easily answer on her own, 

‘ no you’re not and that’s ironic coming from you, who once asked a girl if her recently dead boyfriend was a virgin, who once handcuffed me to a radiator and gave me a dog bowl with my name on it to drink out of. are you sure you know what boundaries are ? ’ scarlett didn’t grab his hand this time, just laid her hand on top of his, ‘ now are you going to tell me what happened or do i have to get it out of your  ‘ alpha ’ ? ’ scarlett questioned with a serious, almost challenging expression to match the obvious irritation on his. 

His body was a mess of pain. But Scarlett didn’t need to know that. It would cause her to try and get through to him and he didn’t want her to. It scared the hell out of him that already she was trying to help. Even thought they weren’t anything any more she was trying to suck away his pain. The teacher was distracted and the class didn’t care about the fight as they could go on their phones and chat. It was weirdly isolated for a classroom full of people.

“Was it a tear maybe? Followed by a few more?”

“No. Not a tear.”

‘ because i would have believed you ! ’ the shout bursts from her lips and she jumps back immediately after, brown eyes wide because she’s not supposed to be the one shouting, especially not at stiles because stiles is the one who’s hurt, stiles is the one who’s been hurt, stiles is the one who’s supposed to be yelling at her, not the other way around. it comes back to her, it always comes back to her..she keeps making mistakes and now she’s making more and more without even realizing it. theo may have been the spark that started to tear her pack apart but, she was the flame that burned it all down. ‘ i didn’t-i didn’t mean, i was just-, she was-, you were going to ? ’

‘ i didn’t know, i didn’t know, i’m sorry. ’ familiar and heavy guilt threatens to swallow her whole, instead settling in a heavy weight in her chest. stiles was going to tell her, he was going to trust her and believe in her and all those things she had asked him to do and he almost had and she had cut him down before he had even had a chance. every word hit her like a bullet, every time she thought of something to say she was hit with another one, another shock of pain to her system. her brown eyes pulled from his gaze, looking everywhere but at him…it was all her fault. ‘ he seemed so..honest, everything he said it was so sincere, i wanted to believe him, in him. i thought that we could help like isaac, like malia and he was just like peter and i should’ve listened to, i should’ve asked. ’ 

she rubbed the wrist of her sleeves over her eyes, exhaling and inhaling with a harsh breath, a sad and small smile on her lips, ‘ i should listen to you whatever you have to say and never disagree ever for the sake of my wolvlihood, huh ? ’ scarlett pressed her hands against her eyes for a moment, nodding. that had been a stupid question because of course he wasn’t okay, his dad was fighting for his life because of her and she thought he could be okay. the sheriff was her dad in every way that mattered and she was barely okay, anything she was feeling though stiles was definitely feeling it tenfold. this wasn’t a time to have some big emotional fight in the middle of the hospital hallway. the alpha saw his hand tapping, his breath increasing and she wanted to reach out, wrap her hand around his and give him something to ground himself to but, right now her touch would just give him more anxiety so, she quickly just tapped his shoulder, ‘ i think i-i should find my mom now, check your head so, you can get back to your dad. ’

She had looked so betrayed. Which was the emotion that was always playing across his face. How could he be okay when his best friend had assumed the worst out of him? That he would kill without a reason. That he’d gone off the deep end. Donovan’s death had killed him. He wasn’t the same person who’d ran in there. He was whatever the hell he was now.

“You wanted to believe Theo.” He could see why she had wanted to. “Theo used Donovan, you know. To blackmail me. Into keeping quiet about Josh. We were mutually blackmailing each other.” It almost seemed comical now. How they’d only worked together because they were making the other hold a secret from each other.