we need more stories about high femme prom queen types who become weird faggy guys. you haven't seen Behaviors until you've seen a repressed closeted tboy holding on to socially acceptable heterosexual femininity by the skin of his teeth
#what's funny is I'm more femme now than I was before lmfao#I still pass as a woman most of the time but like#whatever that's part of what being a man means to me now ykwim#I think a lot about that I one post/tweet abt transfems & the gender euphoria of twirling in a dress#but it's true for me too I find so much joy now#in dresses + skirts + makeup & I feel weird now when I have to take a break from getting my nails done#but I've only gotten to this point bc I've been on t for almost 10 yrs#and had top surgery abt 5 yrs ago#and so now this presentation & aesthetic that I've been yearning for all this time#as a v v v femme gay man has finally become legible in the past few years#and oh my god it has been amazing#I used to feel such jealousy towards certain cis gay men without even fully realizing that's what it was#and that insecurity is definitely still there but .....#but now being afab feels like an advantage in certain ways#or it just makes it into a different experience#like none of this is new to me & I'm short & men's clothes don't even really fit me anyway#anyway sorry for leaving all of this here lmfao#as a femme gay trans man this is just smth I think about a lot#and don't feel like a lot of people understand honestly#anyway β€οΈ
