nothingness

high above me

i'll divide all oceans

raging above

hungry for my hurt

even if it takes

an eternity

in this darkness

centuries of ache

i devoured

so i could feel

for the last time

all i tucked away

where once

angels sang and

you bruised to mush

gushy and rotten.

out you spat me

and tossed.

come back to me

you never did.

decomposing

missing you

crimson spills through

like the confession

i'm hesitant to tell.

no pain far greater

than the precipice

of my everything

at the cellar door.

the attic

tainted

of black mold.

no one ever

may enter.

never clean

i cannot see

only feel.

on my heart gnawing

nihilism.

multiplying within

a reverie years away

like the ocean's chaos

i can never promise you

any validity of what my emotions

right before fastening

and finally tightening

makes me realize