Hiya, you can call me Tomcat, Cat, Kitty, Doll, Dolly, Dollie, or Siren.
My pronouns are He/It, and my terms are masc, neutral, fem, and nonhuman.
If you get off to anything I post, please tell me <3 I'm nosy. An anon simply containing "🐚" works as shorthand.
★My plushsona
This is a blog run by someone who is 18+. Minors will be blocked if they try to interact with me.
I'm plural, and a merged headmate. We're both transmasc, but one of us is a trans man, and the other, because of our siren and doll kintypes, feels like some kind of pseudo-girl.
This blog is where I'll do most of my kinky hornyposting... Or talk about being objectum. Or both.
Also. This blog was rethemed to be about hierophilia, because I post a lot about that. Each post will probably be made with a character of mine in mind. They'll be sorted below (and tagged appropriately)
All of my priest characters are from the same church. There's a lot of lust going around in the Church of the Lost Lambs.
Characters (safe links, no trackers):
Father Agni ★
Father Samael
Father Percival
Cain (Incubus)
You may request content about these characters! Whether that be fics, art, or RP. It's free. I play with my dolls for fun. Just send an ask, or leave a comment
Tags for different topics:
Hornyposting and ace related nsft posts: #acespec nsft
#Hornypost rbs: #bjd reblogs
Vents: #suffering for your amusement
Just generally smth I want to be anonymous: #too ashamed for main
I am physically a male siren. However, my specific subspecies looks like human females, no matter the internal biology. I'm taking measures to look more masculine now regardless. I have a few powers and sirenic traits IRL. Any exhibitionism or desire to seduce others is associated with this kintype.
I am biologically a pure black maine coon. A lot of forcemasc, petplay, forcewild, and generally any "masculine" or "dominant" kinks will likely be associated with this kintype. (Alternatively, I have a false idol kintype that is associated specifically with cult kink, sword/knife/dagger kink, and general sadism. I now have a separate blog for most of that stuff though.)
I am psychologically a doll. I am a BJD, a storybook-style animal doll (think kind of like calico critters, but bigger), and generally any anime-style or anthro animal doll/plushy type. Any sort of dubcon/noncon kinks and "submissive" kinks will be associated with this kintype.
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Despite this being mostly a kink-based NSFW yapping blog, I am on the asexual spectrum!! Aces can get horny too! I am Aceflux, respect that or get blocked.
I am also autistic... Obviously. This plays a huge role in everything this blog is about
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I will try to keep my posts accessible to the vision impaired as much as I can. I'll use plain text, and add image IDs to my own posts. I probably won't add IDs to reblogs though.
*Neither the image in my pfp nor my header image are mine.
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Matt tossed and turned for a while. A bit too much happened for his brain to keep calm, to let him just fall asleep. The storm raged on outside.
Eventually, his thoughts turned to one of the other priests. It was a terrible idea, but... he wasn't sure how else to distract himself. Might at least tire himself out enough to sleep.
He got up, quietly making his way towards the bedroom of father Agni. He hesitantly cracked the door open, looking inside.
- @starving-craving
The room was modest, much like Samael's, though Agni had a few cardboard boxes here and there. Agni had been laying in bed, scrolling on his phone, when he heard his bedroom door open. A knowing smirk formed on his lips, and he sat up.
"Well, looks like someone changed their mind. Come inside."
Matt came inside, quietly closing the door and coming over to the bed. He stood over Agni, waiting for his eyes to adjust to the lighter room. "What did you want?"
"You, obviously. It's not often I have someone waltz right into the rectory and stay the night. I can't help but think you're a gift. The perfect secret rendezvous. If you'll have me, of course."
He stood, and placed his hand on Matt's chest. "And you can, have me. Any way you like. I'll be yours for the night."
"It's really against the rules, isn't it?" Matt muttered lowly, one of his hands resting on Agni's hip. "You're a priest, and all. And I'm no gift, I eat pretty men." He chuckled breathily, leaning in to tease the other's neck with his fangs, pressing them just lightly enoguh to avoid breaking the skin.
Matt laughed quietly, licking a teasing stripe up Agni's neck. "Oh, did you now?" He let the other pull him down, easily stradding him and pinning him to the bed.
He looked down at him consideringly, grinning. "What if I'll want a favor for this, hm?" He asked, trailing a finger down Agni's side.
Matt eagerly took a seat between Agni's ankles, leaning down to kiss the skin of his thigh. "How lovely." He muttered, biting into it without hesitation. He wasn't starving, his hunger was barely a tug in the back of his brain, but he wouldn't refuse an opportunity like this.
Agni let out a pleasured moan, the submission of letting someone drink his blood getting him worked up. He leaked a little from the tip, and whimpered as Matt sucked and lapped at the open wound.
"Quiet." Matt murmured between licks, gripping Agni's thigh for more blood flow. He took a while to finish, licking the wound to let it close and pulling away. His eyes were already starting to cloud over with need. "Got a rubber? I usually have one, but I didn't grab my jeans when I was leaving."
"Ah, fuck, um... I might? I-I just bought it back in the day when I didn't have any proper toys... Uh, might be expired too- maybe using those is a bad idea..."
He frowned, trying to think of other options. "You sure you don't have any?"
Matt winced. "Probably not." He agreed, then shook his head at the question. "I came here in my pajamas, I didn't have time to grab anything." He frowned, trying to think of any solution.
Matt tossed and turned for a while. A bit too much happened for his brain to keep calm, to let him just fall asleep. The storm raged on outside.
Eventually, his thoughts turned to one of the other priests. It was a terrible idea, but... he wasn't sure how else to distract himself. Might at least tire himself out enough to sleep.
He got up, quietly making his way towards the bedroom of father Agni. He hesitantly cracked the door open, looking inside.
- @starving-craving
The room was modest, much like Samael's, though Agni had a few cardboard boxes here and there. Agni had been laying in bed, scrolling on his phone, when he heard his bedroom door open. A knowing smirk formed on his lips, and he sat up.
"Well, looks like someone changed their mind. Come inside."
Matt came inside, quietly closing the door and coming over to the bed. He stood over Agni, waiting for his eyes to adjust to the lighter room. "What did you want?"
"You, obviously. It's not often I have someone waltz right into the rectory and stay the night. I can't help but think you're a gift. The perfect secret rendezvous. If you'll have me, of course."
He stood, and placed his hand on Matt's chest. "And you can, have me. Any way you like. I'll be yours for the night."
"It's really against the rules, isn't it?" Matt muttered lowly, one of his hands resting on Agni's hip. "You're a priest, and all. And I'm no gift, I eat pretty men." He chuckled breathily, leaning in to tease the other's neck with his fangs, pressing them just lightly enoguh to avoid breaking the skin.
Matt laughed quietly, licking a teasing stripe up Agni's neck. "Oh, did you now?" He let the other pull him down, easily stradding him and pinning him to the bed.
He looked down at him consideringly, grinning. "What if I'll want a favor for this, hm?" He asked, trailing a finger down Agni's side.
Matt eagerly took a seat between Agni's ankles, leaning down to kiss the skin of his thigh. "How lovely." He muttered, biting into it without hesitation. He wasn't starving, his hunger was barely a tug in the back of his brain, but he wouldn't refuse an opportunity like this.
Agni let out a pleasured moan, the submission of letting someone drink his blood getting him worked up. He leaked a little from the tip, and whimpered as Matt sucked and lapped at the open wound.
"Quiet." Matt murmured between licks, gripping Agni's thigh for more blood flow. He took a while to finish, licking the wound to let it close and pulling away. His eyes were already starting to cloud over with need. "Got a rubber? I usually have one, but I didn't grab my jeans when I was leaving."
"Ah, fuck, um... I might? I-I just bought it back in the day when I didn't have any proper toys... Uh, might be expired too- maybe using those is a bad idea..."
He frowned, trying to think of other options. "You sure you don't have any?"
Matt tossed and turned for a while. A bit too much happened for his brain to keep calm, to let him just fall asleep. The storm raged on outside.
Eventually, his thoughts turned to one of the other priests. It was a terrible idea, but... he wasn't sure how else to distract himself. Might at least tire himself out enough to sleep.
He got up, quietly making his way towards the bedroom of father Agni. He hesitantly cracked the door open, looking inside.
- @starving-craving
The room was modest, much like Samael's, though Agni had a few cardboard boxes here and there. Agni had been laying in bed, scrolling on his phone, when he heard his bedroom door open. A knowing smirk formed on his lips, and he sat up.
"Well, looks like someone changed their mind. Come inside."
Matt came inside, quietly closing the door and coming over to the bed. He stood over Agni, waiting for his eyes to adjust to the lighter room. "What did you want?"
"You, obviously. It's not often I have someone waltz right into the rectory and stay the night. I can't help but think you're a gift. The perfect secret rendezvous. If you'll have me, of course."
He stood, and placed his hand on Matt's chest. "And you can, have me. Any way you like. I'll be yours for the night."
"It's really against the rules, isn't it?" Matt muttered lowly, one of his hands resting on Agni's hip. "You're a priest, and all. And I'm no gift, I eat pretty men." He chuckled breathily, leaning in to tease the other's neck with his fangs, pressing them just lightly enoguh to avoid breaking the skin.
Matt laughed quietly, licking a teasing stripe up Agni's neck. "Oh, did you now?" He let the other pull him down, easily stradding him and pinning him to the bed.
He looked down at him consideringly, grinning. "What if I'll want a favor for this, hm?" He asked, trailing a finger down Agni's side.
Matt eagerly took a seat between Agni's ankles, leaning down to kiss the skin of his thigh. "How lovely." He muttered, biting into it without hesitation. He wasn't starving, his hunger was barely a tug in the back of his brain, but he wouldn't refuse an opportunity like this.
Agni let out a pleasured moan, the submission of letting someone drink his blood getting him worked up. He leaked a little from the tip, and whimpered as Matt sucked and lapped at the open wound.
Matt tossed and turned for a while. A bit too much happened for his brain to keep calm, to let him just fall asleep. The storm raged on outside.
Eventually, his thoughts turned to one of the other priests. It was a terrible idea, but... he wasn't sure how else to distract himself. Might at least tire himself out enough to sleep.
He got up, quietly making his way towards the bedroom of father Agni. He hesitantly cracked the door open, looking inside.
- @starving-craving
The room was modest, much like Samael's, though Agni had a few cardboard boxes here and there. Agni had been laying in bed, scrolling on his phone, when he heard his bedroom door open. A knowing smirk formed on his lips, and he sat up.
"Well, looks like someone changed their mind. Come inside."
Matt came inside, quietly closing the door and coming over to the bed. He stood over Agni, waiting for his eyes to adjust to the lighter room. "What did you want?"
"You, obviously. It's not often I have someone waltz right into the rectory and stay the night. I can't help but think you're a gift. The perfect secret rendezvous. If you'll have me, of course."
He stood, and placed his hand on Matt's chest. "And you can, have me. Any way you like. I'll be yours for the night."
"It's really against the rules, isn't it?" Matt muttered lowly, one of his hands resting on Agni's hip. "You're a priest, and all. And I'm no gift, I eat pretty men." He chuckled breathily, leaning in to tease the other's neck with his fangs, pressing them just lightly enoguh to avoid breaking the skin.
Matt laughed quietly, licking a teasing stripe up Agni's neck. "Oh, did you now?" He let the other pull him down, easily stradding him and pinning him to the bed.
He looked down at him consideringly, grinning. "What if I'll want a favor for this, hm?" He asked, trailing a finger down Agni's side.
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Say, Father Agni… I’ve been wondering what someone might look like wearing only their clerical collar. I always thought the rest of the outfit was a bit excessive. Concealed too much.
I don’t suppose you could show me what that’d look like, could you? It’d be very much appreciated.
Matt tossed and turned for a while. A bit too much happened for his brain to keep calm, to let him just fall asleep. The storm raged on outside.
Eventually, his thoughts turned to one of the other priests. It was a terrible idea, but... he wasn't sure how else to distract himself. Might at least tire himself out enough to sleep.
He got up, quietly making his way towards the bedroom of father Agni. He hesitantly cracked the door open, looking inside.
- @starving-craving
The room was modest, much like Samael's, though Agni had a few cardboard boxes here and there. Agni had been laying in bed, scrolling on his phone, when he heard his bedroom door open. A knowing smirk formed on his lips, and he sat up.
"Well, looks like someone changed their mind. Come inside."
Matt came inside, quietly closing the door and coming over to the bed. He stood over Agni, waiting for his eyes to adjust to the lighter room. "What did you want?"
"You, obviously. It's not often I have someone waltz right into the rectory and stay the night. I can't help but think you're a gift. The perfect secret rendezvous. If you'll have me, of course."
He stood, and placed his hand on Matt's chest. "And you can, have me. Any way you like. I'll be yours for the night."
"It's really against the rules, isn't it?" Matt muttered lowly, one of his hands resting on Agni's hip. "You're a priest, and all. And I'm no gift, I eat pretty men." He chuckled breathily, leaning in to tease the other's neck with his fangs, pressing them just lightly enoguh to avoid breaking the skin.
Matt laughed quietly, licking a teasing stripe up Agni's neck. "Oh, did you now?" He let the other pull him down, easily stradding him and pinning him to the bed.
He looked down at him consideringly, grinning. "What if I'll want a favor for this, hm?" He asked, trailing a finger down Agni's side.
Matt tossed and turned for a while. A bit too much happened for his brain to keep calm, to let him just fall asleep. The storm raged on outside.
Eventually, his thoughts turned to one of the other priests. It was a terrible idea, but... he wasn't sure how else to distract himself. Might at least tire himself out enough to sleep.
He got up, quietly making his way towards the bedroom of father Agni. He hesitantly cracked the door open, looking inside.
- @starving-craving
The room was modest, much like Samael's, though Agni had a few cardboard boxes here and there. Agni had been laying in bed, scrolling on his phone, when he heard his bedroom door open. A knowing smirk formed on his lips, and he sat up.
"Well, looks like someone changed their mind. Come inside."
Matt came inside, quietly closing the door and coming over to the bed. He stood over Agni, waiting for his eyes to adjust to the lighter room. "What did you want?"
"You, obviously. It's not often I have someone waltz right into the rectory and stay the night. I can't help but think you're a gift. The perfect secret rendezvous. If you'll have me, of course."
He stood, and placed his hand on Matt's chest. "And you can, have me. Any way you like. I'll be yours for the night."
"It's really against the rules, isn't it?" Matt muttered lowly, one of his hands resting on Agni's hip. "You're a priest, and all. And I'm no gift, I eat pretty men." He chuckled breathily, leaning in to tease the other's neck with his fangs, pressing them just lightly enoguh to avoid breaking the skin.
Matt laughed quietly, licking a teasing stripe up Agni's neck. "Oh, did you now?" He let the other pull him down, easily stradding him and pinning him to the bed.
He looked down at him consideringly, grinning. "What if I'll want a favor for this, hm?" He asked, trailing a finger down Agni's side.
Matt tossed and turned for a while. A bit too much happened for his brain to keep calm, to let him just fall asleep. The storm raged on outside.
Eventually, his thoughts turned to one of the other priests. It was a terrible idea, but... he wasn't sure how else to distract himself. Might at least tire himself out enough to sleep.
He got up, quietly making his way towards the bedroom of father Agni. He hesitantly cracked the door open, looking inside.
- @starving-craving
The room was modest, much like Samael's, though Agni had a few cardboard boxes here and there. Agni had been laying in bed, scrolling on his phone, when he heard his bedroom door open. A knowing smirk formed on his lips, and he sat up.
"Well, looks like someone changed their mind. Come inside."
Matt came inside, quietly closing the door and coming over to the bed. He stood over Agni, waiting for his eyes to adjust to the lighter room. "What did you want?"
"You, obviously. It's not often I have someone waltz right into the rectory and stay the night. I can't help but think you're a gift. The perfect secret rendezvous. If you'll have me, of course."
He stood, and placed his hand on Matt's chest. "And you can, have me. Any way you like. I'll be yours for the night."
"It's really against the rules, isn't it?" Matt muttered lowly, one of his hands resting on Agni's hip. "You're a priest, and all. And I'm no gift, I eat pretty men." He chuckled breathily, leaning in to tease the other's neck with his fangs, pressing them just lightly enoguh to avoid breaking the skin.
Matt tossed and turned for a while. A bit too much happened for his brain to keep calm, to let him just fall asleep. The storm raged on outside.
Eventually, his thoughts turned to one of the other priests. It was a terrible idea, but... he wasn't sure how else to distract himself. Might at least tire himself out enough to sleep.
He got up, quietly making his way towards the bedroom of father Agni. He hesitantly cracked the door open, looking inside.
- @starving-craving
The room was modest, much like Samael's, though Agni had a few cardboard boxes here and there. Agni had been laying in bed, scrolling on his phone, when he heard his bedroom door open. A knowing smirk formed on his lips, and he sat up.
"Well, looks like someone changed their mind. Come inside."
Matt came inside, quietly closing the door and coming over to the bed. He stood over Agni, waiting for his eyes to adjust to the lighter room. "What did you want?"
"You, obviously. It's not often I have someone waltz right into the rectory and stay the night. I can't help but think you're a gift. The perfect secret rendezvous. If you'll have me, of course."
He stood, and placed his hand on Matt's chest. "And you can, have me. Any way you like. I'll be yours for the night."
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Matt tossed and turned for a while. A bit too much happened for his brain to keep calm, to let him just fall asleep. The storm raged on outside.
Eventually, his thoughts turned to one of the other priests. It was a terrible idea, but... he wasn't sure how else to distract himself. Might at least tire himself out enough to sleep.
He got up, quietly making his way towards the bedroom of father Agni. He hesitantly cracked the door open, looking inside.
- @starving-craving
The room was modest, much like Samael's, though Agni had a few cardboard boxes here and there. Agni had been laying in bed, scrolling on his phone, when he heard his bedroom door open. A knowing smirk formed on his lips, and he sat up.
"Well, looks like someone changed their mind. Come inside."
It took another week for Matt to show up at church.
Specifically, he showed up right before midnight, while a storm was raging outside. He rang the doorbell to the rectory several times, leaning against the wall to keep himself upright and hugging himself for warmth. He was soaked, wearing just a worn tee and some shorts despite the cold weather.
-@starving-craving
A priest that Matt didn't recognize came to the door, and blinked in confusion.
"Uh- he- hello? What on Earth are you doing out here in the rain? Good heavens... come inside, you're drenched."
The priest opened the door wider, to show Father Samael and another priest playing a card game together.
Matt almost bolted when he saw the unfamiliar priest in the door, but the cold of the outside was a bit too much to bear. He gave him a shaky smile, hesitantly entering as the door was opened. "Thank you. I'm sorry, I got kicked out, I didn't know where else to go..." He explained, his voice bordering on frantic.
Samael stopped what he was doing when he heard Matt's voice. He rushed out of his seat, abandoning all decorum and hopes of remaining dry with this rain to pull Matt into a hug.
"Matt! Oh my goodness, you're soaked! Oh, but I'm so glad you're back. I thought you'd been scared away for good."
The confused stares of the other two priests made Samael pull away, clearing his throat. "Ah- right- uh, Matt, this is Father Percival and Father Agni. Friends of mine in the rectory."
Matt froze up at first, but after a couple seconds nearly collapsed against Samael. The priest was so much warmer than him, so much more alive- aaand he pulled away.
Matt quickly straightened up, trying and failing to look presentable as he gave the other two a polite smile. "It's, er, it's nice to meet you." He'd left patches of water in the front of Samael's clothes.
Father Agni, the one who'd opened the door, gave a wave. Percival nodded in acknowledgement, and spoke up.
"Matt, I don't suppose you'd like to join us playing cards? We can get you a nice, warm blanket and let you dry off that way. Then you can tell us what you're doing here."
Matt hesitated. He wasn't great at playing, but it would be rude to refuse. And being rude was the dumbest thing he could do right now. "That sounds great... thank you." He nodded, hugging himself to keep his hands busy.
Matt wrapped himself up, leaning against Samael heavily to steal some more warmth. He motioned for the other priests to pick their cards, taking what was left once they did. He wasn't really eager to talk on his own anytime soon, just focusing on not getting any colder for now.
The game played out with Percival being the winner, with the other two griping half-heartedly that he must be cheating because he'd been winning almost every round for months. Percival just seemed smug and called them both sore losers.
Percival nodded to Matt, and asked, "So, now that you've had time to warm up, would you like to tell us what you're doing here?"
Matt did pretty decently, though his head wasn't really in the game. He did relax some over the course of the game, somehow leaning against father Samael even more.
He looked up once the question came up, but quickly averted his eyes. "I had a fight with my roommates, and they kicked me out. I should be fine to come back in a couple days, but it's so awful outside I just needed to get somewhere safe."
Samael's eyes fell on Matt, creased in sympathy. "We can let him stay for the night, can't we? It's pouring out there."
Percival seemed unsure, but Agni answered, "Sure! He could stay on the couch, or even with me if that gets uncomfortable." Samael's grip tightened on Matt's side.
Matt looked surprised by father Agni's proposal, but shook his head. "Oh, thank you, but I think the couch will be just fine." He reassured, glancing to where Samael's hand rested. "It looks very comfortable." He added, turning his head to the couch. He was careful not to let his fangs show as he spoke.
Samael nodded. "The couch, then. It'd be inappropriate for any of us to offer our beds, anyway," he pointedly stated, scrutinizing Father Agni's face. His thumb rubbed Matt's waist, though whether the movement was conscious or not was up for debate.
"Probably, yeah..." Matt nodded in agreement. It was probably better he wouldn't be near Samael for so long, even if he wanted to. What if he hurt him again? The touch was making him feel a little dizzy... he'd really missed him.
Samael turned back to Matt. "I'll get you a pillow from my room. Father Agni, would you be so kind as to supply a change of clothes?"
Agni nodded. "Yeah, I can grab something loose-fitting. Let me go look," and he left. Samael got up once Agni was in his own room, like he'd been waiting for a threat to pass.
Matt did his best not to look too disappointed at the loss of contact. He helped gather the cards, setting the deck neatly and unwrapping himself from the blanket as he waited.
"Thank you." Matt gave Agni a faint smile, taking the clothes. He nodded at Samael's offer, heading to his room to change out of his soaked outfit. He came back a couple minutes later, still a little unsteady on his feet, but at least dry now. He looked lost.
Samael gestured to the food he'd left out on the coffee table, then took a bite of his own. "Are you hungry? I brought you extra. I did slice my hand a bit cutting it up, but hopefully that's not a problem."
Samael had worked some of his blood into the food, in case Matt hadn't been eating.
"I am. Thank you..." Matt admitted, sitting down and picking up the food. He took a bite, his expression softening some once he connected the dots. "It's good. I hope your hand's okay?"
"I'll be fine. I can handle a little bleeding," he assured.
The group munched on their snacks in relative silence and comfort, before Samael asked, "Matt, did you happen to bring a toothbrush? If not, I can sanitize mine and let you borrow it."
"Alright."
Matt winced at the question. "No, I didn't have time to grab anything. I don't even have my phone right now." He sighed. "So I'll have to take you up on that."
"Alright. Why don't you come with me while I do that so you'll know when I'm done?" Samael stood from his seat and tidied his place on the coffee table in preparation to put his plate in the sink.
"Sounds good." Matt nodded, quickly finishing his food and following Samael. He didn't feel fully comfortable with the other two priests, so he was relieved to have a chance to stay wth Samael instead.
Samael got his toothbrush out of its case, then flicked open the medicine cabinet to grab some hydrogen peroxide. He poured it over the bristles to clean them, and then gave it a thorough rinse with water. No soap, because that'd get stuck between the bristles.
He handed the toothbrush to Matt, and leaned against the door. "You don't mind if I stay, do you?" He was curious about Matt's fangs, of course, but he also wanted to catch Matt alone so they could finally talk.
"Not at all." Matt reassures, nodding gratefully and taking the toothbrush. He got some toothpaste on it, starting to thoroughly brush his teeth. His fangs weren't too long, but they were certainly noticeable, sharp and shiny.
Dressed in the borrowed, oversized clothes and slightly miserable, he looked much softer than he usually did. Only his piercings were trying to keep up his edgy appearance.
Matt sputtered, quickly bringing his hand up to catch the foam that dripped from his mouth. He gave Samael a look, leaning down to spit everything out. "Thank- you? I think?"
Matt drank some water directly from the tap, rinsing out his mouth and spitting it out. He then straightened up, wiping his mouth and looking at Samael sadly. "We should."
"You ran away. After... what happened. I know I didn't handle things the best, but I never meant to push you away. Doll... She tells me you've talked, and, you felt horrible about what happened. I need you to know that I don't hold it against you."
Samael swallowed saliva. "We all have... moments of weakness. Myself included. I-If I'm being honest, I nearly let you..."
"I was ashamed." Matt said quietly, avoiding Samael's gaze. "You shouldn't try to rationalize it all so much. I hurt you, and I'm really sorry." He sighed shakily.
"Doll's helped me a lot. You were right, we do get along." The pronoun thing was for them to talk out, he would just dodge it for now.
"Now, I'm not sure if you meant you hurt me in terms of taking my blood- which I've already stated I'm perfectly fine with- or wh-when you... uh, came onto me, but I want you to know neither was an... u-unpleasant experience for me."
Samael rubbed his legs together, and clenched his fists at his sides, in preparation for what he was about to admit.
"It's... foolish to pretend like I don't hold some... less than holy feelings toward you, and while my vow of celibacy forbids me from acting on those desires, I don't want to stop interacting with you completely. We're friends, aren't we? At least, I thought we were becoming friends."
"God, I- I'm so sorry," Samael ran his fingers through his hair as his face took on a pained expression. "I never should have said that. I was feeling horribly guilty for what I almost allowed to happen, and I was grappling for any way to absolve myself of responsibility. I threw you under the bus so I wouldn't have to acknowledge how I didn't put in a genuine effort to stop you."
He slumped to the floor, elbows set on his knees. "...I missed you too. I'm so sorry. Please don't go again."
"Stop trying to absolve me of this." Matt requested quietly. It couldn't actually be fine. He couldn't have been stewing in guilt for nothing for weeks. "I knew what I was doing was wrong, and that you couldn't agree. The fact that you didn't protest enough or whatever doesn't make me less guilty." He said shakily.
He knelt before Samael, hesitantly offering him a hug. "But I'll stay, if you want me around. I didn't want to go."
Samael pulled Matt into his arms, holding him tight. "I do... want you around. It's a fucking horrible idea but I do. I don't care whose fault it was anymore, I just- I don't want you to scare me like that again. I was so worried for you. Don't ever walk out like that again."
Matt clung to Samael, whimpering quietly against his shoulder. "I'll stay." He swore, pressing his nose into the crook of Samael's neck. "I missed you so damn much."
He stroked up and down Matt's upper back as they stayed there, on the floor. Samael still needed to brush his teeth, but he was too busy making up for the time they spent apart to care about that.
It took another week for Matt to show up at church.
Specifically, he showed up right before midnight, while a storm was raging outside. He rang the doorbell to the rectory several times, leaning against the wall to keep himself upright and hugging himself for warmth. He was soaked, wearing just a worn tee and some shorts despite the cold weather.
-@starving-craving
A priest that Matt didn't recognize came to the door, and blinked in confusion.
"Uh- he- hello? What on Earth are you doing out here in the rain? Good heavens... come inside, you're drenched."
The priest opened the door wider, to show Father Samael and another priest playing a card game together.
Matt almost bolted when he saw the unfamiliar priest in the door, but the cold of the outside was a bit too much to bear. He gave him a shaky smile, hesitantly entering as the door was opened. "Thank you. I'm sorry, I got kicked out, I didn't know where else to go..." He explained, his voice bordering on frantic.
Samael stopped what he was doing when he heard Matt's voice. He rushed out of his seat, abandoning all decorum and hopes of remaining dry with this rain to pull Matt into a hug.
"Matt! Oh my goodness, you're soaked! Oh, but I'm so glad you're back. I thought you'd been scared away for good."
The confused stares of the other two priests made Samael pull away, clearing his throat. "Ah- right- uh, Matt, this is Father Percival and Father Agni. Friends of mine in the rectory."
Matt froze up at first, but after a couple seconds nearly collapsed against Samael. The priest was so much warmer than him, so much more alive- aaand he pulled away.
Matt quickly straightened up, trying and failing to look presentable as he gave the other two a polite smile. "It's, er, it's nice to meet you." He'd left patches of water in the front of Samael's clothes.
Father Agni, the one who'd opened the door, gave a wave. Percival nodded in acknowledgement, and spoke up.
"Matt, I don't suppose you'd like to join us playing cards? We can get you a nice, warm blanket and let you dry off that way. Then you can tell us what you're doing here."
Matt hesitated. He wasn't great at playing, but it would be rude to refuse. And being rude was the dumbest thing he could do right now. "That sounds great... thank you." He nodded, hugging himself to keep his hands busy.
Matt wrapped himself up, leaning against Samael heavily to steal some more warmth. He motioned for the other priests to pick their cards, taking what was left once they did. He wasn't really eager to talk on his own anytime soon, just focusing on not getting any colder for now.
The game played out with Percival being the winner, with the other two griping half-heartedly that he must be cheating because he'd been winning almost every round for months. Percival just seemed smug and called them both sore losers.
Percival nodded to Matt, and asked, "So, now that you've had time to warm up, would you like to tell us what you're doing here?"
Matt did pretty decently, though his head wasn't really in the game. He did relax some over the course of the game, somehow leaning against father Samael even more.
He looked up once the question came up, but quickly averted his eyes. "I had a fight with my roommates, and they kicked me out. I should be fine to come back in a couple days, but it's so awful outside I just needed to get somewhere safe."
Samael's eyes fell on Matt, creased in sympathy. "We can let him stay for the night, can't we? It's pouring out there."
Percival seemed unsure, but Agni answered, "Sure! He could stay on the couch, or even with me if that gets uncomfortable." Samael's grip tightened on Matt's side.
Matt looked surprised by father Agni's proposal, but shook his head. "Oh, thank you, but I think the couch will be just fine." He reassured, glancing to where Samael's hand rested. "It looks very comfortable." He added, turning his head to the couch. He was careful not to let his fangs show as he spoke.
Samael nodded. "The couch, then. It'd be inappropriate for any of us to offer our beds, anyway," he pointedly stated, scrutinizing Father Agni's face. His thumb rubbed Matt's waist, though whether the movement was conscious or not was up for debate.
"Probably, yeah..." Matt nodded in agreement. It was probably better he wouldn't be near Samael for so long, even if he wanted to. What if he hurt him again? The touch was making him feel a little dizzy... he'd really missed him.
Samael turned back to Matt. "I'll get you a pillow from my room. Father Agni, would you be so kind as to supply a change of clothes?"
Agni nodded. "Yeah, I can grab something loose-fitting. Let me go look," and he left. Samael got up once Agni was in his own room, like he'd been waiting for a threat to pass.
Matt did his best not to look too disappointed at the loss of contact. He helped gather the cards, setting the deck neatly and unwrapping himself from the blanket as he waited.
"Thank you." Matt gave Agni a faint smile, taking the clothes. He nodded at Samael's offer, heading to his room to change out of his soaked outfit. He came back a couple minutes later, still a little unsteady on his feet, but at least dry now. He looked lost.
Samael gestured to the food he'd left out on the coffee table, then took a bite of his own. "Are you hungry? I brought you extra. I did slice my hand a bit cutting it up, but hopefully that's not a problem."
Samael had worked some of his blood into the food, in case Matt hadn't been eating.
"I am. Thank you..." Matt admitted, sitting down and picking up the food. He took a bite, his expression softening some once he connected the dots. "It's good. I hope your hand's okay?"
"I'll be fine. I can handle a little bleeding," he assured.
The group munched on their snacks in relative silence and comfort, before Samael asked, "Matt, did you happen to bring a toothbrush? If not, I can sanitize mine and let you borrow it."
"Alright."
Matt winced at the question. "No, I didn't have time to grab anything. I don't even have my phone right now." He sighed. "So I'll have to take you up on that."
"Alright. Why don't you come with me while I do that so you'll know when I'm done?" Samael stood from his seat and tidied his place on the coffee table in preparation to put his plate in the sink.
"Sounds good." Matt nodded, quickly finishing his food and following Samael. He didn't feel fully comfortable with the other two priests, so he was relieved to have a chance to stay wth Samael instead.
Samael got his toothbrush out of its case, then flicked open the medicine cabinet to grab some hydrogen peroxide. He poured it over the bristles to clean them, and then gave it a thorough rinse with water. No soap, because that'd get stuck between the bristles.
He handed the toothbrush to Matt, and leaned against the door. "You don't mind if I stay, do you?" He was curious about Matt's fangs, of course, but he also wanted to catch Matt alone so they could finally talk.
"Not at all." Matt reassures, nodding gratefully and taking the toothbrush. He got some toothpaste on it, starting to thoroughly brush his teeth. His fangs weren't too long, but they were certainly noticeable, sharp and shiny.
Dressed in the borrowed, oversized clothes and slightly miserable, he looked much softer than he usually did. Only his piercings were trying to keep up his edgy appearance.
Matt sputtered, quickly bringing his hand up to catch the foam that dripped from his mouth. He gave Samael a look, leaning down to spit everything out. "Thank- you? I think?"
Matt drank some water directly from the tap, rinsing out his mouth and spitting it out. He then straightened up, wiping his mouth and looking at Samael sadly. "We should."
"You ran away. After... what happened. I know I didn't handle things the best, but I never meant to push you away. Doll... She tells me you've talked, and, you felt horrible about what happened. I need you to know that I don't hold it against you."
Samael swallowed saliva. "We all have... moments of weakness. Myself included. I-If I'm being honest, I nearly let you..."
"I was ashamed." Matt said quietly, avoiding Samael's gaze. "You shouldn't try to rationalize it all so much. I hurt you, and I'm really sorry." He sighed shakily.
"Doll's helped me a lot. You were right, we do get along." The pronoun thing was for them to talk out, he would just dodge it for now.
"Now, I'm not sure if you meant you hurt me in terms of taking my blood- which I've already stated I'm perfectly fine with- or wh-when you... uh, came onto me, but I want you to know neither was an... u-unpleasant experience for me."
Samael rubbed his legs together, and clenched his fists at his sides, in preparation for what he was about to admit.
"It's... foolish to pretend like I don't hold some... less than holy feelings toward you, and while my vow of celibacy forbids me from acting on those desires, I don't want to stop interacting with you completely. We're friends, aren't we? At least, I thought we were becoming friends."
"God, I- I'm so sorry," Samael ran his fingers through his hair as his face took on a pained expression. "I never should have said that. I was feeling horribly guilty for what I almost allowed to happen, and I was grappling for any way to absolve myself of responsibility. I threw you under the bus so I wouldn't have to acknowledge how I didn't put in a genuine effort to stop you."
He slumped to the floor, elbows set on his knees. "...I missed you too. I'm so sorry. Please don't go again."
"Stop trying to absolve me of this." Matt requested quietly. It couldn't actually be fine. He couldn't have been stewing in guilt for nothing for weeks. "I knew what I was doing was wrong, and that you couldn't agree. The fact that you didn't protest enough or whatever doesn't make me less guilty." He said shakily.
He knelt before Samael, hesitantly offering him a hug. "But I'll stay, if you want me around. I didn't want to go."
Samael pulled Matt into his arms, holding him tight. "I do... want you around. It's a fucking horrible idea but I do. I don't care whose fault it was anymore, I just- I don't want you to scare me like that again. I was so worried for you. Don't ever walk out like that again."
Matt clung to Samael, whimpering quietly against his shoulder. "I'll stay." He swore, pressing his nose into the crook of Samael's neck. "I missed you so damn much."
He stroked up and down Matt's upper back as they stayed there, on the floor. Samael still needed to brush his teeth, but he was too busy making up for the time they spent apart to care about that.
It took another week for Matt to show up at church.
Specifically, he showed up right before midnight, while a storm was raging outside. He rang the doorbell to the rectory several times, leaning against the wall to keep himself upright and hugging himself for warmth. He was soaked, wearing just a worn tee and some shorts despite the cold weather.
-@starving-craving
A priest that Matt didn't recognize came to the door, and blinked in confusion.
"Uh- he- hello? What on Earth are you doing out here in the rain? Good heavens... come inside, you're drenched."
The priest opened the door wider, to show Father Samael and another priest playing a card game together.
Matt almost bolted when he saw the unfamiliar priest in the door, but the cold of the outside was a bit too much to bear. He gave him a shaky smile, hesitantly entering as the door was opened. "Thank you. I'm sorry, I got kicked out, I didn't know where else to go..." He explained, his voice bordering on frantic.
Samael stopped what he was doing when he heard Matt's voice. He rushed out of his seat, abandoning all decorum and hopes of remaining dry with this rain to pull Matt into a hug.
"Matt! Oh my goodness, you're soaked! Oh, but I'm so glad you're back. I thought you'd been scared away for good."
The confused stares of the other two priests made Samael pull away, clearing his throat. "Ah- right- uh, Matt, this is Father Percival and Father Agni. Friends of mine in the rectory."
Matt froze up at first, but after a couple seconds nearly collapsed against Samael. The priest was so much warmer than him, so much more alive- aaand he pulled away.
Matt quickly straightened up, trying and failing to look presentable as he gave the other two a polite smile. "It's, er, it's nice to meet you." He'd left patches of water in the front of Samael's clothes.
Father Agni, the one who'd opened the door, gave a wave. Percival nodded in acknowledgement, and spoke up.
"Matt, I don't suppose you'd like to join us playing cards? We can get you a nice, warm blanket and let you dry off that way. Then you can tell us what you're doing here."
Matt hesitated. He wasn't great at playing, but it would be rude to refuse. And being rude was the dumbest thing he could do right now. "That sounds great... thank you." He nodded, hugging himself to keep his hands busy.
Matt wrapped himself up, leaning against Samael heavily to steal some more warmth. He motioned for the other priests to pick their cards, taking what was left once they did. He wasn't really eager to talk on his own anytime soon, just focusing on not getting any colder for now.
The game played out with Percival being the winner, with the other two griping half-heartedly that he must be cheating because he'd been winning almost every round for months. Percival just seemed smug and called them both sore losers.
Percival nodded to Matt, and asked, "So, now that you've had time to warm up, would you like to tell us what you're doing here?"
Matt did pretty decently, though his head wasn't really in the game. He did relax some over the course of the game, somehow leaning against father Samael even more.
He looked up once the question came up, but quickly averted his eyes. "I had a fight with my roommates, and they kicked me out. I should be fine to come back in a couple days, but it's so awful outside I just needed to get somewhere safe."
Samael's eyes fell on Matt, creased in sympathy. "We can let him stay for the night, can't we? It's pouring out there."
Percival seemed unsure, but Agni answered, "Sure! He could stay on the couch, or even with me if that gets uncomfortable." Samael's grip tightened on Matt's side.
Matt looked surprised by father Agni's proposal, but shook his head. "Oh, thank you, but I think the couch will be just fine." He reassured, glancing to where Samael's hand rested. "It looks very comfortable." He added, turning his head to the couch. He was careful not to let his fangs show as he spoke.
Samael nodded. "The couch, then. It'd be inappropriate for any of us to offer our beds, anyway," he pointedly stated, scrutinizing Father Agni's face. His thumb rubbed Matt's waist, though whether the movement was conscious or not was up for debate.
"Probably, yeah..." Matt nodded in agreement. It was probably better he wouldn't be near Samael for so long, even if he wanted to. What if he hurt him again? The touch was making him feel a little dizzy... he'd really missed him.
Samael turned back to Matt. "I'll get you a pillow from my room. Father Agni, would you be so kind as to supply a change of clothes?"
Agni nodded. "Yeah, I can grab something loose-fitting. Let me go look," and he left. Samael got up once Agni was in his own room, like he'd been waiting for a threat to pass.
Matt did his best not to look too disappointed at the loss of contact. He helped gather the cards, setting the deck neatly and unwrapping himself from the blanket as he waited.
"Thank you." Matt gave Agni a faint smile, taking the clothes. He nodded at Samael's offer, heading to his room to change out of his soaked outfit. He came back a couple minutes later, still a little unsteady on his feet, but at least dry now. He looked lost.
Samael gestured to the food he'd left out on the coffee table, then took a bite of his own. "Are you hungry? I brought you extra. I did slice my hand a bit cutting it up, but hopefully that's not a problem."
Samael had worked some of his blood into the food, in case Matt hadn't been eating.
"I am. Thank you..." Matt admitted, sitting down and picking up the food. He took a bite, his expression softening some once he connected the dots. "It's good. I hope your hand's okay?"
"I'll be fine. I can handle a little bleeding," he assured.
The group munched on their snacks in relative silence and comfort, before Samael asked, "Matt, did you happen to bring a toothbrush? If not, I can sanitize mine and let you borrow it."
"Alright."
Matt winced at the question. "No, I didn't have time to grab anything. I don't even have my phone right now." He sighed. "So I'll have to take you up on that."
"Alright. Why don't you come with me while I do that so you'll know when I'm done?" Samael stood from his seat and tidied his place on the coffee table in preparation to put his plate in the sink.
"Sounds good." Matt nodded, quickly finishing his food and following Samael. He didn't feel fully comfortable with the other two priests, so he was relieved to have a chance to stay wth Samael instead.
Samael got his toothbrush out of its case, then flicked open the medicine cabinet to grab some hydrogen peroxide. He poured it over the bristles to clean them, and then gave it a thorough rinse with water. No soap, because that'd get stuck between the bristles.
He handed the toothbrush to Matt, and leaned against the door. "You don't mind if I stay, do you?" He was curious about Matt's fangs, of course, but he also wanted to catch Matt alone so they could finally talk.
"Not at all." Matt reassures, nodding gratefully and taking the toothbrush. He got some toothpaste on it, starting to thoroughly brush his teeth. His fangs weren't too long, but they were certainly noticeable, sharp and shiny.
Dressed in the borrowed, oversized clothes and slightly miserable, he looked much softer than he usually did. Only his piercings were trying to keep up his edgy appearance.
Matt sputtered, quickly bringing his hand up to catch the foam that dripped from his mouth. He gave Samael a look, leaning down to spit everything out. "Thank- you? I think?"
Matt drank some water directly from the tap, rinsing out his mouth and spitting it out. He then straightened up, wiping his mouth and looking at Samael sadly. "We should."
"You ran away. After... what happened. I know I didn't handle things the best, but I never meant to push you away. Doll... She tells me you've talked, and, you felt horrible about what happened. I need you to know that I don't hold it against you."
Samael swallowed saliva. "We all have... moments of weakness. Myself included. I-If I'm being honest, I nearly let you..."
"I was ashamed." Matt said quietly, avoiding Samael's gaze. "You shouldn't try to rationalize it all so much. I hurt you, and I'm really sorry." He sighed shakily.
"Doll's helped me a lot. You were right, we do get along." The pronoun thing was for them to talk out, he would just dodge it for now.
"Now, I'm not sure if you meant you hurt me in terms of taking my blood- which I've already stated I'm perfectly fine with- or wh-when you... uh, came onto me, but I want you to know neither was an... u-unpleasant experience for me."
Samael rubbed his legs together, and clenched his fists at his sides, in preparation for what he was about to admit.
"It's... foolish to pretend like I don't hold some... less than holy feelings toward you, and while my vow of celibacy forbids me from acting on those desires, I don't want to stop interacting with you completely. We're friends, aren't we? At least, I thought we were becoming friends."
"God, I- I'm so sorry," Samael ran his fingers through his hair as his face took on a pained expression. "I never should have said that. I was feeling horribly guilty for what I almost allowed to happen, and I was grappling for any way to absolve myself of responsibility. I threw you under the bus so I wouldn't have to acknowledge how I didn't put in a genuine effort to stop you."
He slumped to the floor, elbows set on his knees. "...I missed you too. I'm so sorry. Please don't go again."
"Stop trying to absolve me of this." Matt requested quietly. It couldn't actually be fine. He couldn't have been stewing in guilt for nothing for weeks. "I knew what I was doing was wrong, and that you couldn't agree. The fact that you didn't protest enough or whatever doesn't make me less guilty." He said shakily.
He knelt before Samael, hesitantly offering him a hug. "But I'll stay, if you want me around. I didn't want to go."
Samael pulled Matt into his arms, holding him tight. "I do... want you around. It's a fucking horrible idea but I do. I don't care whose fault it was anymore, I just- I don't want you to scare me like that again. I was so worried for you. Don't ever walk out like that again."
It took another week for Matt to show up at church.
Specifically, he showed up right before midnight, while a storm was raging outside. He rang the doorbell to the rectory several times, leaning against the wall to keep himself upright and hugging himself for warmth. He was soaked, wearing just a worn tee and some shorts despite the cold weather.
-@starving-craving
A priest that Matt didn't recognize came to the door, and blinked in confusion.
"Uh- he- hello? What on Earth are you doing out here in the rain? Good heavens... come inside, you're drenched."
The priest opened the door wider, to show Father Samael and another priest playing a card game together.
Matt almost bolted when he saw the unfamiliar priest in the door, but the cold of the outside was a bit too much to bear. He gave him a shaky smile, hesitantly entering as the door was opened. "Thank you. I'm sorry, I got kicked out, I didn't know where else to go..." He explained, his voice bordering on frantic.
Samael stopped what he was doing when he heard Matt's voice. He rushed out of his seat, abandoning all decorum and hopes of remaining dry with this rain to pull Matt into a hug.
"Matt! Oh my goodness, you're soaked! Oh, but I'm so glad you're back. I thought you'd been scared away for good."
The confused stares of the other two priests made Samael pull away, clearing his throat. "Ah- right- uh, Matt, this is Father Percival and Father Agni. Friends of mine in the rectory."
Matt froze up at first, but after a couple seconds nearly collapsed against Samael. The priest was so much warmer than him, so much more alive- aaand he pulled away.
Matt quickly straightened up, trying and failing to look presentable as he gave the other two a polite smile. "It's, er, it's nice to meet you." He'd left patches of water in the front of Samael's clothes.
Father Agni, the one who'd opened the door, gave a wave. Percival nodded in acknowledgement, and spoke up.
"Matt, I don't suppose you'd like to join us playing cards? We can get you a nice, warm blanket and let you dry off that way. Then you can tell us what you're doing here."
Matt hesitated. He wasn't great at playing, but it would be rude to refuse. And being rude was the dumbest thing he could do right now. "That sounds great... thank you." He nodded, hugging himself to keep his hands busy.
Matt wrapped himself up, leaning against Samael heavily to steal some more warmth. He motioned for the other priests to pick their cards, taking what was left once they did. He wasn't really eager to talk on his own anytime soon, just focusing on not getting any colder for now.
The game played out with Percival being the winner, with the other two griping half-heartedly that he must be cheating because he'd been winning almost every round for months. Percival just seemed smug and called them both sore losers.
Percival nodded to Matt, and asked, "So, now that you've had time to warm up, would you like to tell us what you're doing here?"
Matt did pretty decently, though his head wasn't really in the game. He did relax some over the course of the game, somehow leaning against father Samael even more.
He looked up once the question came up, but quickly averted his eyes. "I had a fight with my roommates, and they kicked me out. I should be fine to come back in a couple days, but it's so awful outside I just needed to get somewhere safe."
Samael's eyes fell on Matt, creased in sympathy. "We can let him stay for the night, can't we? It's pouring out there."
Percival seemed unsure, but Agni answered, "Sure! He could stay on the couch, or even with me if that gets uncomfortable." Samael's grip tightened on Matt's side.
Matt looked surprised by father Agni's proposal, but shook his head. "Oh, thank you, but I think the couch will be just fine." He reassured, glancing to where Samael's hand rested. "It looks very comfortable." He added, turning his head to the couch. He was careful not to let his fangs show as he spoke.
Samael nodded. "The couch, then. It'd be inappropriate for any of us to offer our beds, anyway," he pointedly stated, scrutinizing Father Agni's face. His thumb rubbed Matt's waist, though whether the movement was conscious or not was up for debate.
"Probably, yeah..." Matt nodded in agreement. It was probably better he wouldn't be near Samael for so long, even if he wanted to. What if he hurt him again? The touch was making him feel a little dizzy... he'd really missed him.
Samael turned back to Matt. "I'll get you a pillow from my room. Father Agni, would you be so kind as to supply a change of clothes?"
Agni nodded. "Yeah, I can grab something loose-fitting. Let me go look," and he left. Samael got up once Agni was in his own room, like he'd been waiting for a threat to pass.
Matt did his best not to look too disappointed at the loss of contact. He helped gather the cards, setting the deck neatly and unwrapping himself from the blanket as he waited.
"Thank you." Matt gave Agni a faint smile, taking the clothes. He nodded at Samael's offer, heading to his room to change out of his soaked outfit. He came back a couple minutes later, still a little unsteady on his feet, but at least dry now. He looked lost.
Samael gestured to the food he'd left out on the coffee table, then took a bite of his own. "Are you hungry? I brought you extra. I did slice my hand a bit cutting it up, but hopefully that's not a problem."
Samael had worked some of his blood into the food, in case Matt hadn't been eating.
"I am. Thank you..." Matt admitted, sitting down and picking up the food. He took a bite, his expression softening some once he connected the dots. "It's good. I hope your hand's okay?"
"I'll be fine. I can handle a little bleeding," he assured.
The group munched on their snacks in relative silence and comfort, before Samael asked, "Matt, did you happen to bring a toothbrush? If not, I can sanitize mine and let you borrow it."
"Alright."
Matt winced at the question. "No, I didn't have time to grab anything. I don't even have my phone right now." He sighed. "So I'll have to take you up on that."
"Alright. Why don't you come with me while I do that so you'll know when I'm done?" Samael stood from his seat and tidied his place on the coffee table in preparation to put his plate in the sink.
"Sounds good." Matt nodded, quickly finishing his food and following Samael. He didn't feel fully comfortable with the other two priests, so he was relieved to have a chance to stay wth Samael instead.
Samael got his toothbrush out of its case, then flicked open the medicine cabinet to grab some hydrogen peroxide. He poured it over the bristles to clean them, and then gave it a thorough rinse with water. No soap, because that'd get stuck between the bristles.
He handed the toothbrush to Matt, and leaned against the door. "You don't mind if I stay, do you?" He was curious about Matt's fangs, of course, but he also wanted to catch Matt alone so they could finally talk.
"Not at all." Matt reassures, nodding gratefully and taking the toothbrush. He got some toothpaste on it, starting to thoroughly brush his teeth. His fangs weren't too long, but they were certainly noticeable, sharp and shiny.
Dressed in the borrowed, oversized clothes and slightly miserable, he looked much softer than he usually did. Only his piercings were trying to keep up his edgy appearance.
Matt sputtered, quickly bringing his hand up to catch the foam that dripped from his mouth. He gave Samael a look, leaning down to spit everything out. "Thank- you? I think?"
Matt drank some water directly from the tap, rinsing out his mouth and spitting it out. He then straightened up, wiping his mouth and looking at Samael sadly. "We should."
"You ran away. After... what happened. I know I didn't handle things the best, but I never meant to push you away. Doll... She tells me you've talked, and, you felt horrible about what happened. I need you to know that I don't hold it against you."
Samael swallowed saliva. "We all have... moments of weakness. Myself included. I-If I'm being honest, I nearly let you..."
"I was ashamed." Matt said quietly, avoiding Samael's gaze. "You shouldn't try to rationalize it all so much. I hurt you, and I'm really sorry." He sighed shakily.
"Doll's helped me a lot. You were right, we do get along." The pronoun thing was for them to talk out, he would just dodge it for now.
"Now, I'm not sure if you meant you hurt me in terms of taking my blood- which I've already stated I'm perfectly fine with- or wh-when you... uh, came onto me, but I want you to know neither was an... u-unpleasant experience for me."
Samael rubbed his legs together, and clenched his fists at his sides, in preparation for what he was about to admit.
"It's... foolish to pretend like I don't hold some... less than holy feelings toward you, and while my vow of celibacy forbids me from acting on those desires, I don't want to stop interacting with you completely. We're friends, aren't we? At least, I thought we were becoming friends."
"God, I- I'm so sorry," Samael ran his fingers through his hair as his face took on a pained expression. "I never should have said that. I was feeling horribly guilty for what I almost allowed to happen, and I was grappling for any way to absolve myself of responsibility. I threw you under the bus so I wouldn't have to acknowledge how I didn't put in a genuine effort to stop you."
He slumped to the floor, elbows set on his knees. "...I missed you too. I'm so sorry. Please don't go again."
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It took another week for Matt to show up at church.
Specifically, he showed up right before midnight, while a storm was raging outside. He rang the doorbell to the rectory several times, leaning against the wall to keep himself upright and hugging himself for warmth. He was soaked, wearing just a worn tee and some shorts despite the cold weather.
-@starving-craving
A priest that Matt didn't recognize came to the door, and blinked in confusion.
"Uh- he- hello? What on Earth are you doing out here in the rain? Good heavens... come inside, you're drenched."
The priest opened the door wider, to show Father Samael and another priest playing a card game together.
Matt almost bolted when he saw the unfamiliar priest in the door, but the cold of the outside was a bit too much to bear. He gave him a shaky smile, hesitantly entering as the door was opened. "Thank you. I'm sorry, I got kicked out, I didn't know where else to go..." He explained, his voice bordering on frantic.
Samael stopped what he was doing when he heard Matt's voice. He rushed out of his seat, abandoning all decorum and hopes of remaining dry with this rain to pull Matt into a hug.
"Matt! Oh my goodness, you're soaked! Oh, but I'm so glad you're back. I thought you'd been scared away for good."
The confused stares of the other two priests made Samael pull away, clearing his throat. "Ah- right- uh, Matt, this is Father Percival and Father Agni. Friends of mine in the rectory."
Matt froze up at first, but after a couple seconds nearly collapsed against Samael. The priest was so much warmer than him, so much more alive- aaand he pulled away.
Matt quickly straightened up, trying and failing to look presentable as he gave the other two a polite smile. "It's, er, it's nice to meet you." He'd left patches of water in the front of Samael's clothes.
Father Agni, the one who'd opened the door, gave a wave. Percival nodded in acknowledgement, and spoke up.
"Matt, I don't suppose you'd like to join us playing cards? We can get you a nice, warm blanket and let you dry off that way. Then you can tell us what you're doing here."
Matt hesitated. He wasn't great at playing, but it would be rude to refuse. And being rude was the dumbest thing he could do right now. "That sounds great... thank you." He nodded, hugging himself to keep his hands busy.
Matt wrapped himself up, leaning against Samael heavily to steal some more warmth. He motioned for the other priests to pick their cards, taking what was left once they did. He wasn't really eager to talk on his own anytime soon, just focusing on not getting any colder for now.
The game played out with Percival being the winner, with the other two griping half-heartedly that he must be cheating because he'd been winning almost every round for months. Percival just seemed smug and called them both sore losers.
Percival nodded to Matt, and asked, "So, now that you've had time to warm up, would you like to tell us what you're doing here?"
Matt did pretty decently, though his head wasn't really in the game. He did relax some over the course of the game, somehow leaning against father Samael even more.
He looked up once the question came up, but quickly averted his eyes. "I had a fight with my roommates, and they kicked me out. I should be fine to come back in a couple days, but it's so awful outside I just needed to get somewhere safe."
Samael's eyes fell on Matt, creased in sympathy. "We can let him stay for the night, can't we? It's pouring out there."
Percival seemed unsure, but Agni answered, "Sure! He could stay on the couch, or even with me if that gets uncomfortable." Samael's grip tightened on Matt's side.
Matt looked surprised by father Agni's proposal, but shook his head. "Oh, thank you, but I think the couch will be just fine." He reassured, glancing to where Samael's hand rested. "It looks very comfortable." He added, turning his head to the couch. He was careful not to let his fangs show as he spoke.
Samael nodded. "The couch, then. It'd be inappropriate for any of us to offer our beds, anyway," he pointedly stated, scrutinizing Father Agni's face. His thumb rubbed Matt's waist, though whether the movement was conscious or not was up for debate.
"Probably, yeah..." Matt nodded in agreement. It was probably better he wouldn't be near Samael for so long, even if he wanted to. What if he hurt him again? The touch was making him feel a little dizzy... he'd really missed him.
Samael turned back to Matt. "I'll get you a pillow from my room. Father Agni, would you be so kind as to supply a change of clothes?"
Agni nodded. "Yeah, I can grab something loose-fitting. Let me go look," and he left. Samael got up once Agni was in his own room, like he'd been waiting for a threat to pass.
Matt did his best not to look too disappointed at the loss of contact. He helped gather the cards, setting the deck neatly and unwrapping himself from the blanket as he waited.
"Thank you." Matt gave Agni a faint smile, taking the clothes. He nodded at Samael's offer, heading to his room to change out of his soaked outfit. He came back a couple minutes later, still a little unsteady on his feet, but at least dry now. He looked lost.
Samael gestured to the food he'd left out on the coffee table, then took a bite of his own. "Are you hungry? I brought you extra. I did slice my hand a bit cutting it up, but hopefully that's not a problem."
Samael had worked some of his blood into the food, in case Matt hadn't been eating.
"I am. Thank you..." Matt admitted, sitting down and picking up the food. He took a bite, his expression softening some once he connected the dots. "It's good. I hope your hand's okay?"
"I'll be fine. I can handle a little bleeding," he assured.
The group munched on their snacks in relative silence and comfort, before Samael asked, "Matt, did you happen to bring a toothbrush? If not, I can sanitize mine and let you borrow it."
"Alright."
Matt winced at the question. "No, I didn't have time to grab anything. I don't even have my phone right now." He sighed. "So I'll have to take you up on that."
"Alright. Why don't you come with me while I do that so you'll know when I'm done?" Samael stood from his seat and tidied his place on the coffee table in preparation to put his plate in the sink.
"Sounds good." Matt nodded, quickly finishing his food and following Samael. He didn't feel fully comfortable with the other two priests, so he was relieved to have a chance to stay wth Samael instead.
Samael got his toothbrush out of its case, then flicked open the medicine cabinet to grab some hydrogen peroxide. He poured it over the bristles to clean them, and then gave it a thorough rinse with water. No soap, because that'd get stuck between the bristles.
He handed the toothbrush to Matt, and leaned against the door. "You don't mind if I stay, do you?" He was curious about Matt's fangs, of course, but he also wanted to catch Matt alone so they could finally talk.
"Not at all." Matt reassures, nodding gratefully and taking the toothbrush. He got some toothpaste on it, starting to thoroughly brush his teeth. His fangs weren't too long, but they were certainly noticeable, sharp and shiny.
Dressed in the borrowed, oversized clothes and slightly miserable, he looked much softer than he usually did. Only his piercings were trying to keep up his edgy appearance.
Matt sputtered, quickly bringing his hand up to catch the foam that dripped from his mouth. He gave Samael a look, leaning down to spit everything out. "Thank- you? I think?"
Matt drank some water directly from the tap, rinsing out his mouth and spitting it out. He then straightened up, wiping his mouth and looking at Samael sadly. "We should."
"You ran away. After... what happened. I know I didn't handle things the best, but I never meant to push you away. Doll... She tells me you've talked, and, you felt horrible about what happened. I need you to know that I don't hold it against you."
Samael swallowed saliva. "We all have... moments of weakness. Myself included. I-If I'm being honest, I nearly let you..."
"I was ashamed." Matt said quietly, avoiding Samael's gaze. "You shouldn't try to rationalize it all so much. I hurt you, and I'm really sorry." He sighed shakily.
"Doll's helped me a lot. You were right, we do get along." The pronoun thing was for them to talk out, he would just dodge it for now.
"Now, I'm not sure if you meant you hurt me in terms of taking my blood- which I've already stated I'm perfectly fine with- or wh-when you... uh, came onto me, but I want you to know neither was an... u-unpleasant experience for me."
Samael rubbed his legs together, and clenched his fists at his sides, in preparation for what he was about to admit.
"It's... foolish to pretend like I don't hold some... less than holy feelings toward you, and while my vow of celibacy forbids me from acting on those desires, I don't want to stop interacting with you completely. We're friends, aren't we? At least, I thought we were becoming friends."
It took another week for Matt to show up at church.
Specifically, he showed up right before midnight, while a storm was raging outside. He rang the doorbell to the rectory several times, leaning against the wall to keep himself upright and hugging himself for warmth. He was soaked, wearing just a worn tee and some shorts despite the cold weather.
-@starving-craving
A priest that Matt didn't recognize came to the door, and blinked in confusion.
"Uh- he- hello? What on Earth are you doing out here in the rain? Good heavens... come inside, you're drenched."
The priest opened the door wider, to show Father Samael and another priest playing a card game together.
Matt almost bolted when he saw the unfamiliar priest in the door, but the cold of the outside was a bit too much to bear. He gave him a shaky smile, hesitantly entering as the door was opened. "Thank you. I'm sorry, I got kicked out, I didn't know where else to go..." He explained, his voice bordering on frantic.
Samael stopped what he was doing when he heard Matt's voice. He rushed out of his seat, abandoning all decorum and hopes of remaining dry with this rain to pull Matt into a hug.
"Matt! Oh my goodness, you're soaked! Oh, but I'm so glad you're back. I thought you'd been scared away for good."
The confused stares of the other two priests made Samael pull away, clearing his throat. "Ah- right- uh, Matt, this is Father Percival and Father Agni. Friends of mine in the rectory."
Matt froze up at first, but after a couple seconds nearly collapsed against Samael. The priest was so much warmer than him, so much more alive- aaand he pulled away.
Matt quickly straightened up, trying and failing to look presentable as he gave the other two a polite smile. "It's, er, it's nice to meet you." He'd left patches of water in the front of Samael's clothes.
Father Agni, the one who'd opened the door, gave a wave. Percival nodded in acknowledgement, and spoke up.
"Matt, I don't suppose you'd like to join us playing cards? We can get you a nice, warm blanket and let you dry off that way. Then you can tell us what you're doing here."
Matt hesitated. He wasn't great at playing, but it would be rude to refuse. And being rude was the dumbest thing he could do right now. "That sounds great... thank you." He nodded, hugging himself to keep his hands busy.
Matt wrapped himself up, leaning against Samael heavily to steal some more warmth. He motioned for the other priests to pick their cards, taking what was left once they did. He wasn't really eager to talk on his own anytime soon, just focusing on not getting any colder for now.
The game played out with Percival being the winner, with the other two griping half-heartedly that he must be cheating because he'd been winning almost every round for months. Percival just seemed smug and called them both sore losers.
Percival nodded to Matt, and asked, "So, now that you've had time to warm up, would you like to tell us what you're doing here?"
Matt did pretty decently, though his head wasn't really in the game. He did relax some over the course of the game, somehow leaning against father Samael even more.
He looked up once the question came up, but quickly averted his eyes. "I had a fight with my roommates, and they kicked me out. I should be fine to come back in a couple days, but it's so awful outside I just needed to get somewhere safe."
Samael's eyes fell on Matt, creased in sympathy. "We can let him stay for the night, can't we? It's pouring out there."
Percival seemed unsure, but Agni answered, "Sure! He could stay on the couch, or even with me if that gets uncomfortable." Samael's grip tightened on Matt's side.
Matt looked surprised by father Agni's proposal, but shook his head. "Oh, thank you, but I think the couch will be just fine." He reassured, glancing to where Samael's hand rested. "It looks very comfortable." He added, turning his head to the couch. He was careful not to let his fangs show as he spoke.
Samael nodded. "The couch, then. It'd be inappropriate for any of us to offer our beds, anyway," he pointedly stated, scrutinizing Father Agni's face. His thumb rubbed Matt's waist, though whether the movement was conscious or not was up for debate.
"Probably, yeah..." Matt nodded in agreement. It was probably better he wouldn't be near Samael for so long, even if he wanted to. What if he hurt him again? The touch was making him feel a little dizzy... he'd really missed him.
Samael turned back to Matt. "I'll get you a pillow from my room. Father Agni, would you be so kind as to supply a change of clothes?"
Agni nodded. "Yeah, I can grab something loose-fitting. Let me go look," and he left. Samael got up once Agni was in his own room, like he'd been waiting for a threat to pass.
Matt did his best not to look too disappointed at the loss of contact. He helped gather the cards, setting the deck neatly and unwrapping himself from the blanket as he waited.
"Thank you." Matt gave Agni a faint smile, taking the clothes. He nodded at Samael's offer, heading to his room to change out of his soaked outfit. He came back a couple minutes later, still a little unsteady on his feet, but at least dry now. He looked lost.
Samael gestured to the food he'd left out on the coffee table, then took a bite of his own. "Are you hungry? I brought you extra. I did slice my hand a bit cutting it up, but hopefully that's not a problem."
Samael had worked some of his blood into the food, in case Matt hadn't been eating.
"I am. Thank you..." Matt admitted, sitting down and picking up the food. He took a bite, his expression softening some once he connected the dots. "It's good. I hope your hand's okay?"
"I'll be fine. I can handle a little bleeding," he assured.
The group munched on their snacks in relative silence and comfort, before Samael asked, "Matt, did you happen to bring a toothbrush? If not, I can sanitize mine and let you borrow it."
"Alright."
Matt winced at the question. "No, I didn't have time to grab anything. I don't even have my phone right now." He sighed. "So I'll have to take you up on that."
"Alright. Why don't you come with me while I do that so you'll know when I'm done?" Samael stood from his seat and tidied his place on the coffee table in preparation to put his plate in the sink.
"Sounds good." Matt nodded, quickly finishing his food and following Samael. He didn't feel fully comfortable with the other two priests, so he was relieved to have a chance to stay wth Samael instead.
Samael got his toothbrush out of its case, then flicked open the medicine cabinet to grab some hydrogen peroxide. He poured it over the bristles to clean them, and then gave it a thorough rinse with water. No soap, because that'd get stuck between the bristles.
He handed the toothbrush to Matt, and leaned against the door. "You don't mind if I stay, do you?" He was curious about Matt's fangs, of course, but he also wanted to catch Matt alone so they could finally talk.
"Not at all." Matt reassures, nodding gratefully and taking the toothbrush. He got some toothpaste on it, starting to thoroughly brush his teeth. His fangs weren't too long, but they were certainly noticeable, sharp and shiny.
Dressed in the borrowed, oversized clothes and slightly miserable, he looked much softer than he usually did. Only his piercings were trying to keep up his edgy appearance.
Matt sputtered, quickly bringing his hand up to catch the foam that dripped from his mouth. He gave Samael a look, leaning down to spit everything out. "Thank- you? I think?"
Matt drank some water directly from the tap, rinsing out his mouth and spitting it out. He then straightened up, wiping his mouth and looking at Samael sadly. "We should."
"You ran away. After... what happened. I know I didn't handle things the best, but I never meant to push you away. Doll... She tells me you've talked, and, you felt horrible about what happened. I need you to know that I don't hold it against you."
Samael swallowed saliva. "We all have... moments of weakness. Myself included. I-If I'm being honest, I nearly let you..."