Restless Thoughts On A Frustrating Night

the pain of not being with you is much greater than anything you can say or do to hurt me.

one day I’ll be able to look at you without wanting to kiss you

how do you make me feel like I’m choking and breathing at the same time

I want someone to love me the way I love you, I deserve it

at least she loved me, you didn’t even try.

What do I do my darling, I think I’m in love with you.... and I think you love me too. Maybe not in the same way, but you do love me. You’re just not in love with me. Who knew the lack of a preposition could hurt this bad. But I love you, I love you and this feeling isn’t going anywhere. And I don’t want it to go anywhere, and I don’t want you to go anywhere. Because I love this feeling, I love being in love with you, I love the way you make me feel, even if I can’t make you feel the same way.

i miss you so much, my heart hurts.

The only way I can be with you is in my dreams and for now that’s the best I’ve got, it’s all I’ve got.

she makes my heart so happy I feel like crying. she gently touched my hair and called the grey streaks in it, which I’m so conscious about, beautiful. she called the parts I hate about myself beautiful. I don’t know if she feels the same but for the first time in a long time I don’t feel hopeless. I don’t feel like I can’t love anyone ever again. It’s almost like I’m regaining all that naïveté I thought he destroyed in me. I feel like I’m slowly allowing myself to feel again, and it’s....everything, it’s beauty, it’s frustration, it’s just so wonderful