The inner macaroni of my mind is expired

(Small addition bc this post blew up more than I thought it would: I understand the impulse to hyperfocus on the racial elements to Alya's writing and—as is the focus of this post—her reception to the fandom, but I also don't think the gendered elements should be ignored either. This isn't me asking anyone to prioritize one over the over, but to point out that seeing Alya exclusively as a black character victimized for their blackness as opposed to a black girl victimized for her blackness and her femininity risks denying her gender and her treatment for her gender in a patriarchal world.

And to everyone asking if this is Narilamb…

Yes it is! But you may also read it as platonic if you wish

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Happy pride month!!!!!

yumn. angst.

also both bi idc i headcannon what i want

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!!!

besties <3

I got an update from my surgeon today. I have tried everything- my insurance denied me so i asked if i could have a long-term payment plan. they will not let me set up a payment plan like that because my surgery is “cosmetic”. i don’t know what else to do at this point.

It feels really upsetting to me that i feel like i’ve been forced into a situation where my only option is to cry and beg everyone. My transition should not be traumatizing. My transition shouldn’t be an uphill battle. I should not end every appointment, checkup, and visit feeling less certain about my future.

Enough venting. or well, i guess that all is just context.

You can donate to my gofundme down below. every dollar will go to the surgery itself, or my care and recovery afterwards. My surgery is in about 6 months, I would appreciate if i could get as much help as possible.

And of course, I do still also have commissions open, should you want to recieve something in exchange for your money. which is understandable.