Nobody101

I was independent

Of all the things I could possibly think of,

Until a sudden moment

Made me dependent on something.

But that dependency

Was never meant to be mine.

However,

It opened me to a world—

Unfamiliar, yet whole.

I was scared to jump in,

So I didn’t.

I watched it through a glass of fiction.

It was wonderful;

A dream

I wished for every day.

But a broken heart—

From unacceptance and disgust—

Could never fully heal.

It left a scar.

I would love to jump in.

However, what I want—

Was it ever there?

I will know if I try.

But I fancy a life of my own.

And I really do want to seek that out.

A life that’s quiet,

A life that’s free,

Maybe.

It's sweet,

But it hurts.

A strong desire,

Neither lustful nor dirty,

But innocent and humble.

Overwhelmed with affection

When memories say

"Hi."

It gives me a sweet pain—

Electric,

Yet sorrowful.

At the end...

Oh wait!

I might know the word:

Melancholic.