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yesterday, my mom made me spaghetti. I hadn’t eaten all day so I took a tiny little portion of pasta and put some sauce on it. I always loved this dish and before I had this ed I used to eat two big portions of spaghettis and I would put tons of cheese and eat that with bread. but yesterday I almost had nothing on my plate and after I’ve ate half of it, I was full. I couldn’t eat more. I had like five bites and COULDN’T EAT MORE. ME. I still can’t believe it. maybe for you this ain’t much but for me it is. it gave me even more motivation. I can do it. I WILL be skinny and then I could eat all the spaghetti’s I want.

me fasting: i am caffeinated

I am so tired all the time.

The fact that my biology book gives Ana tips, like it literally had written on it *chew your food over 20 times, don’t eat before 8am and after 6pm* etc.

Eating disorders aren’t okay but I’m also not okay so who cares.

why can’t i just die?