ani

my silly ana thing is that i genuinely think i'd look better not even at bmi 21 which was my starting bmi, but i think i'd look better at somewhere around bmi 23-25. like i genuinely like how people look when they weigh that amount, and would like that for myself. im just so so scared of gaining 🙂

ok ok im back on track!! i was going to get a salad for dinner but i think i feel comfy skipping. i have a big test that i'm afraid i won't be nutriented enough for though

what's scary is i felt so cute when i first dropped to 105 but since plateauing for the past 2 months i feel disgusting and fat again

im getting chronic headaches tbh feeling like death recently

i want to hurt myself !! With a blade.

was the freak weirdo tonight need to die

alcoholism is suiting me well 💞

i feel so trapped. why do i surround myself with men who will trap me!!! agh.

i want people to be scared when they see me

the skinny girls always win. i won't ever be skinny enough... can't they see i'm starving too?

making a pizza

going insane again. :(