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[Friday.3.Aug.2018]

I love to think of myself as a recreational artist. For about six years now, I’ve tried to design various things on the computer. Things for other people and for myself, and I actually enjoyed the feeling of completing something. I know this may not be the right way of looking at design (or art, I can never tell them apart). But it was what I did. 

Today was supremely weird. For the first time in my life, I woke up with a migraine. I decided to skip my 9 am class. In the afternoon, I went to a math practical class and noticed I held back on defending myself when working through a problem in a group. I waited for the tutor to assert what I had said earlier to them as correct. Then, I attended a “Physics book fair” and “Diversity in physics” panel which were very exciting. I may talk about diversity in a later post but right now, I am confused at my actions, and writing a post about it is in some ways the atonement I need. 

I didn’t mean to let you down, but the thing I did that was so weird was, I didn’t do anything. There were third years and post-grads of various fields of physics and I didn’t try to ask them what they do or talk about anything mundane. This wasn’t the first time, and I was aware of it throughout the two hours I hung around at the venue (which was also a study space). I opened my notes and worked, hoping no one noticed my silent exit out of the group chat. 

Then I went into a somewhat painful argument with a good friend about it. I think we’re fine now. I, of course, put on Netflix and found The Art of Design. The first episode talked about the abstract illustrator Christoph Niemann and realized, even though I’m a much better graphic designer than I am a physicist right now, I am very grateful to not have art as my job. A lot of work in design is out of desperation. Some people love that, I despise it. As I was watching, I thought about why this afternoon was so weird. I think I understood now.

[26.july.2018]

So I was recently made into director of social media for a pretty big student association. The past year, I worked there as staff so I knew the job really well. Going in, I also got along with the design team and knew half a dozen other people in other divisions. I had hoped working here now would be easier than last year.

However, that may not be the case. I now have to work with people who have no background in media & communications. As a result,  they’ll often make us do contradictory things. Like demanding quality posts but only giving us hours to work on them. I find this to be the most stressful part of the job. Especially if they get to decide what you should/shouldn’t do. For now, I managed the stress by expressing this discomfort with the other directors. I know it can’t continue this way. We need everyone to be on the same team.

top: breakfast for the past few days now: ceral + maths bottom: I found my new fav way to concentrate – ASMR Rooms! _

Today’s pretty good. Woke up feeling really rested after sleeping in bf’s jacket (which I’m deeply contemplating if I should keep for the rest of the week). Got a decent amount of work done, and went for the calc 2 swotvac tute that was held everyday :)

pic: still struggling with finishing 1 past paper. _

Good evening :) I hope everyone’s well. Celebrated my friend’s birthday yesterday, so working extra hard today T…T To exam takers: I know we can go through this. Never lose hope!

left: was working through my last assignment for the semester - physics hw. If I may give u a tip: Read them textbooks. right: snack after using all that brain power. _ Ah yes. I missed posting most of this week’s productivity challenge. That was actually a telling of how busy my week 12 had been. Caught the flu, but I think I’ll recover before exams start. If you’re taking foundations of computing you’ll know how relieved I feel rn (no more worksheets! And No. More. PROJECTS. I’m only half joking, but damn those words give me goosebumps).

If you feel like interacting, I’d love to know what you all are studying :) I’m taking physics, computing, calculus II, and critical thinking.

top: essay prep on pop star mortality for my breadth subject, featuring a Bruneian snack 💖 bottom: view to the west of Union House. __

Final exams are starting in two weeks so I’ve decided to begin a 30-day challenge to catch up with work and revisions. I’ve also decided to start posting here so that I remember my progress :). It’s not *the* 30-day studyblr challenge since I don’t think I’ll be organized enough to follow the guidelines 😂.

Anyway, the semester is almost over (at least here in Melbourne)! We’re close ppl!