Rafaela

pink grey and brown moodboard

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glitter moodboard

I wonder if he leaves flowers in front of the subway to other girls too and if it is the pink flowers they choose and then I wonder why he stopped giving flowers to me and asking me out to eat and I do not recall the last time we have talked it is kind of strange I feel like I have been talking to a wall, maybe I should accept that he won't call me and I misread all the messages I get send is it my fault I can't understand? I wonder still does he leave those pink flowers to the next girl like he did to me? I see those colors, they come in brown, grey, white, green and pink but I do not know what it means. I do not know what it means. No one has ever taught me to understand what it meant so now I just play pretend. I go on walks and talk about colors. Forget the philosophy around the meaning of life. I wonder if his magic has been sucked dry. They say I should be happy, stop asking why. What colors do you like? I should never ask why. I will never know, will I? If he is giving flowers to the next girl and I'll never know what it means and why it hurts how we always leave and never speak. He has once said he hated silence, I guess now he likes it.

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garden moodboard

what is yours will feel yours after all your soul knows