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Beeen a while. Being here. But now I feeel like.... I need to get the courage to say it out loud. This is just an easy way out. This is just me running away from actually saying it out, because than it becomes reality.... A boy. After years of staying alone, someone came into the picture. More complicated than any before, or actually all of them together... :S Maybe that is why I had to go through with the asshole years ago. So I can learn how to handle it now? Because he is THE one? I do not know. But it seems like he really likes me. For long time. 5 years give or take... And he did not approach me since I am back. I had to ask him, why he is soo cold. Like really. Before that I accepted he likes me and we were still good. But now since I am back here it has been just weird. I wanted to know, why. Did not expect this answer. He says he has feelings. Since the beginning. And never had anything like this for anyone. Not even for his wife. Yes, ha has one. And a child as well. And still. He only cares abt that baby. And me. We talk a lot. Like really. On the phone, texts, videos... It is just sweet. So sweet. And he sees the world. With different eyes. I never thought my thinking would change. But I feeel it is. And it is not bad. Just strange. Can’t explain. But the point is, we are happy. Nothing much to be happy about, but we are. And I don’t know about him, but I could plan. For long term. Because if this is how he wants to treat me, than yes please! How come I did not see this before? How blind could have I been? :S I know it is something new. And dangerous. And sometimes I wonder if that is the reason, why I feel suddenly like this. But than I think. Of him, holding me. And than I think no, that is not all. Of course, it gives to it, but it is not all. I think I really like him. His personality. Like I don’t know if I ever liked any guy. Like any. It feeels so good. To actually fall for someones personality. And he’s not ugly either. :P So rn I am just being happy, try to just enjoy the time we can have, and than hope for a less complicated future - with him.

Work. New boss. Same old place. Same old people. And some new. Just want  things go back to normal. Actually just wanna finish my uni so I can find another place. A job I do not hate. But I know. I have to be thankful I even got a job rn. As many people don’t. And we still have no clue what will happen next. With the world. How can we live with this new situation.

Uni. I really feel I fucked up the last assignment. I am scared. To even check if the results are up or not. I have another one due soon. My friends are complaining. I don’t have time. Thank God the boy can’t complain as he can’t make it either. Sorry. Wrong word. Man!