angie🪽

guess who's being threatened with homelessness this week unless i can summon just over 800 bucks out of my ass!

guess who cannot afford to rent anywhere in the area anymore, and i live in a tiny midwestern town!!

guess who is very, very seriously debating jumping ship and living in another state (with friends who are offering me a place with open arms) if it means i won't be getting even deeper in debt every month trying to stay alive!!!

guess who is trying as hard as humanely possible to not end it all cause i'm terrified!!!!

i know i've asked for a lot of help over the years. i hate it too. i know i've been told "you shouldn't expect the internet to save you, just get better with your money" so i hesitate to ask here for help at all now.

im so scared. even if i'm able to get out of this eviction notice, my lease ends in a month and i desperately need to go /somewhere/, and i just plain need support. i've been only buying grocery basics for a year and working far beyond what i'm physically able to handle. i don't know what i'm supposed to do anymore.

anything helps

bring back love

bring back finding happiness in the mundane

bring back uplifting each other

My mind goes and I die whenever you admit that you have sinned,

and through my limbs cold drops flow.

Then I love, then in vain I hate what I must love;

Then I want to be dead – but with you!

Alex Turner, 2012.