Perfect Weapon

Come back...

May or may not be drunk. Okay yes I'm extremely drunk eheheheh. Romi smells funny.m

Feel like shit and cant stop crying. Or drinking. Great.

It's very clear now who cares and who doesn't. Who I can cut out of my life. I'm not sorry to see you go.

At 12:19 pm on October 23 Andrew Biersack is raced to the hospital after a drug overdose. He is in critical condition.

Once upon a time there was a boy named Andy. Andy was adopted, by a family who seemed pretty nice. Andy had a nice room and a nice bed and food and did well in school. When Andy turned twelve he found his adopted father waiting for him in his bedroom. Andy screamed but it made no difference. Andy's father was in his bedroom every night until at age sixteen, Andy ran away. Andy had no money or friends, and so became a prostitute. He hated it, but it earned him money and warm beds to sleep in. Eventually Andy got a job at a tattoo parlor, and only sold himself when money was tight. When Andy was twenty-two, he met Ryo. Ryo was very kind and fed Andy and gave him a bed and never asked for sex. Andy and Ryo were good friends. One night during dinner Andy suddenly felt tired. When he woke up he was chained up, and naked. He screamed but Ryo laughed. For four months Andy was trapped in that basement, being used and abused multiple times a day. He waited to die but it never came. He sang to cheer himself up but Ryo slapped him and told him the world was better without his voice. After almost 4 and a half months, Andy was able to escape back into the real world. Ryo was sent to prison, but Andy continued to receive emails and phonecalls and letters and texts from him, though he wasn't supposed to have those privileges. Andy sold himself to make money. He lived with a new friend, though he always kept a gun under his pillow. Andy got another tattoo job. Andy met Ji. From the moment he laid eyes on that boy he knew, he /knew/ Ji would be someone important. By day three he knew he was falling fast and hard. Andy and Ji fight a lot. They cry a lot. But they also make the most beautiful love imaginable. Andy doesn't know how to explain how much he loves Ji. Andy isn't good with words. But Andy wishes Ji could see that even through the pain...Ji is all Andy has ever wanted. And he hopes...prays...that Ji will be patient, will a stick with Andy, until things can get better. Because Andy loves Ji with all of his broken heart.

First panic attack in over a month. I didn't miss them.