Doctor Andrew Blake

Andrew?

Hey..

[Holding Gus tightly he didn't want to let him go. He needed Gus in his life.] Shh... Stop apologizing..  Shh.. [He could hear him sobbing and wanted to do anything he could to stop Gus from crying.]

I’m sorry, Andrew, please don’t hate me… I-I— he was. And I hate myself for it because you’re so amazing to me but he was the first person to actually want me in their life even if we met because I was addicted to stupid drugs and because I was a fuck up. He actually wanted me despite all my problems. I-I tried to forget him when I came here because I thought I’d never see him again… [Gus bit his lip, trying to hold back a sob.] I don’t deserve your love, Andrew, I’m such a terrible person and I’m so, so sorry…

[Listening to Gus talk, he kept his face expressionless. He was heartbroken but when he spoke, he knew it.] Gus.. [he spoke before seeing him bite his lip before grabbing his wrist to pull him into his arms.] I can't make you choose between him or me.. Only you can.. And I'm not going to let go of you until you do.. 

I… I’m not sure. I can’t make that decision because I want to be with both of you. I-I can’t just… Forget Jack. I tried too when I came here and it worked for a while but seeing him again just… Made everything come flooding back. And what I have with you is so amazing… I know I’m being selfish but I can’t help it. [Gus rubbed his face, sighing heavily.] 

He.. He was your first love.. Wasn't he? [He asked knowing the answer but he wanted to hear him say it.] I love you..

So…

Do you want to be with him? If you do I won't stand in the way.. I can't make you stay with me if you want him.. But Gus.. I love you more than I have ever loved anyone.. And it would break me if... if you did.. Want him.. Over me..

Hi…

Hi.. 

Christian was a very different person when it came to this subject.. still he understood Andrew’s position..

Looking over at Christian he sighed. "Both.. They made out.. I just.. I have never felt the way I feel about Gus before.. And now.. I feel like a fool.."

"why? what happened?" Christian took a sip of his own drink…

He looked over at the man hanging his head. "Gus kissed someone else.. His former love who I think he wants to be with now that he's back.."

What’s up? Talk to me. I’m a good listener.

Gus.. He.. I think he doesn't want me anymore.. He kissed his ex boyfriend...