I feel grief, depressed, insecure, unwanted and a huge burden. No longer wants to keep living, it seems pointless.. i forgive all of them.. but i dont care anymore and it hurts.. i dont get why death is that hard to be achieved, it s not a big wish.. i dont want to end it myself, i just want it to happen. It s heavy, that feeling is heavy.. now i m convinced that it was all my fault, i am the defected one.. i am the abnormal, the mistaken, the sick and the burden.. should not exist, it is not worthy anymore, it never was, i should have realized it sooner. I know no one, neither me. I dont know who m i and where is that and what i m exactly doing here.. i m not sure if this all was my choice, i m not valid for making choices, maybe it was just a coincidence, a random planning. I dont know who i am, and who is the person i was. I used to feel sad of people around cz they r not there, cz i need them, i need support and help, now i m not sure i m sad of them, maybe it s just too much to be handled, if one life is ruined no need to ruin another life to save the hopeless first one, it makes no sense. I appreciate the absence of anyone, i love them but i no longer need them, i luv mom by the way, i do luv her so much, i no longer blame her for anything, it was all my fault.. I appreciate their absence.. i m just a little scared, or too scared actually. I cant fix me neither blame them, that s why i wish if the suffer ends. I feel sorry.. I m so sorry actually for everyone.. i feel so sorry.
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