Ah yes, welcome. . .

Breathe.

Caleb stopping Essek for some words, leaving with a pat on his cheek.

This scene... so easily missed.

I think about Lucien politely accepting Yasha’s clover. Lucien sincerely thanking Jester for her tarot reading–something he confessed to always having an interest in, a curiosity he happily indulged in on a whim, only for it to tug a something in his core. “His hand twitches. Twice.” 

I think about when Lucien was led into a bedroom made just for Molly, stared up at the symbols and stitching of this drapery that was so gaudy, elaborate, colorful–another piece of another life. And how Caleb saw a flicker of something like fear in him, just as with the tarot reading. “Lucien–other than his normally confident self, seems to have a faint touch of apprehension.” He was visibly affected by the sight of it, even as he claimed to have no memory of Molly’s time.  

How, the next morning, Lucien said, “I had some nice dreams. There’s some good decor here…some fun stories around them.” As if he knew more than he was letting on, as if he had gleaned something from all the memories poured into this tower for a family Molly was once part of. 

I think about the echoes of Molly in aspects of Lucien, the fleeting moments when something else seems to slip through. And how everything familiar only makes Lucien’s near slaughter of the nein all the more gutting. How there could’ve been something there, how it felt like they were nearing some precipice, only for Lucien to go from keeping them alive, from suspecting he might need them somehow, to outright reveling in bloodshed. 

And I wonder why Lucien decided to throw the nein away and reach Aeor as soon as possible; why did he move up their timetable? Why was he no longer holding back against the nein? Why didn’t he even follow up with Caleb and Beau after showing them the book–if only to gloat or get angry about the eyes? 

(fjord): oh wow this is actually really sweet.

(beauregard): …..and violently jerk their head until it snaps.

(fjord): that took an unexpected turn.

We’ve gone through some rough times, but we’re still here.

Here’s my piece for the Critical Role Holiday Gallery!

the bible (king james edition)

a copy of the U.S. consitution

a copy of my school’s current rulebook

i do this so that whenever someone at school tries to make a point and then defends it by saying ‘it’s in the constitution!’ or ‘it’s from the bible!’ or something else along those lines, i can pull out my own copy and say, ‘where exactly does it say that?’