c a r i s s a

I honestly don’t know what it is with you anymore.. I sometimes don’t understand why you treat people the way you do when I don’t believe you’re really like that.. I’ve thought about you and have stopped and have started again. It’s an ongoing cycle that I can’t seem to kick the habit of. I guess it just comes down to the fact I feel like I can’t let what happened last year go.. It meant something to me. I replay you saying you cared about me over and over again in my head. You know that’s all I ever want, for someone to actually give a shit about me for once. I care and I care and I only feel empty in return. Maybe that’s why I’m so hung up on you.. Because you actually told me you cared about me. You kissed me like you cared about me. You got angry with my actions because you cared about me, to this day I know you still care about me.. I can’t let that go.. That’s all I have right now. So yes, it’s silly I’m still caught up on you. How does one forget something that they’ve already had a small taste of, and enjoy it?