Keep me locked in your heart forever

there is still time. there is still time. until your bones are in the fucking ground there is still time.

all that and i havent killed myself yet i must really love this stupid fucking life

oh and another thing that devastates me about Obsession is how much nikki is judged and blamed by those around her. sarah and ian repeatedly telling bear that he shouldn’t have to deal with her, that she’s not his responsibility, that they’re worried she’s taking advantage of him. as if they aren’t also her friends, as if they shouldn’t know her well enough to notice something is off. there’s no concern for why nikki is behaving the way she is, there’s just distain towards it. she starts acting out of character and so it must all be intentional. but bear doesn’t get questioned. bear isn’t gossiped about. nikki loses all her agency and autonomy, and all she gets for it is judgment

It's actually so interesting to me that it's true about Sarah but not so true about Ian. Sarah thinks she's taking advantage of him and Ian thinks he's taking advantage of her. And while Ian is concerned, it doesn't make much difference, Nikki still being cast out. So clearly not a single one in that friend group understands "not a romance but love story" except Nikki. In a chase for their romantic interests, her suffering wasn't that worrying or of any importance.

being on the internet lately feels like playing a game of is it ai or is it real? all the time. and if I guess it correctly I’m amazing and I deserve to live but if I fall for it I need to be taken out back and shot

But seriously though. Learning to draw fat people will make you a much better artist. Understanding how skin and fat behaves and folds in certain poses, and being able to adapt complex poses to fit a fat body (as usually references are with thin models) will help you TREMENDOUSLY. Drawing fat being properly affected by gravity will aid you in ALL figure drawing in the future. Like if you have any sort of interest in drawing humanoid figures (AND furries) you really ought to learn how to draw fat of all kind.

do not ask me if im the loyal type i will attach myself to u like an evil entity

Like to charge, reblog to cast?

nikki breaks my heart so bad because in the brief moments we see her before the wish kicks in, she's so cool and funny, clearly kindhearted, very driven about her future (telling bear about how she was going to quit her job to focus on her writing), and also very sure of herself as a person. ive seen people describe this movie as "mean-spirited" and I think thats so apt because it was a 2 hour long tragedy of the torture of this innocent girl, taking away everything she's ever had, including her own sense of self, putting her through unimaginable horrors, and leaving her with nothing except the three dead bodies of her friends, with the one who she trusted most being the one who did this to her. nothing for her to look for hope in, because she has nothing before her except a lifetime in prison or in an institution. it would be one thing if the movie ended on a note like weapons, where everything was over and there would hopefully be recovery somewhere down the line, but here, not only was the evil not committed by a random stranger but her closest friend, but she doesn't get any chance at recovery either. so goddamn tragic. on that note, if anyone can come up with some sort of fix-it for nikki please link it to me because I will be crying about this girl forever.

Somehow being a person does not come naturally to me

from the bottom of my fucking heart. how are we supposed to live under these conditions.

You come from a long line of people who have survived, in many cases survived real horrors, and found that survival worthwhile. Find something to be moved by. Find something or someone to move.