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Ilya Rozanov, Heated Rivalry Episode 5, “I’ll Believe in Anything”

Dec, 2025

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a semi-comprehensive list of some of my favourite hollanov fanfictions that i recommend reading!!

for some reason i can't adequately express my maniacal adoration of these works well in writing but just know that i went absolutely nuts screaming crying throwing up reading these and they are very special to me.

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Pale imitations - 2.5k - oneshot - ilya!pov

"everything is about smoking, except for smoking, which is about shane hollander." or-- ilya quits smoking for like the bajillionth time. a really good character study! very beautifully written too like omg. those fucking krispy kreme donuts.

like how spring melts the snow - 45k - teenage friends!AU - mixed!pov

after ilya's mother dies, he is sent to live in canada with his aunt. he and shane meet at a hockey camp as teenagers. i found this very nice indeed!! quite angsty i suppose in comparison to other camp AUs i've read

greed in waves of words - 4.7k - oneshot - ilya!pov

really very good oneshot about languages and their insufficiency in describing things. rather fluffy actually. very good :D

new beginnings - 100k - childhood friends!AU - mixed!pov

look i feel very fond over this fic. irina took ilya and moved to canada when he was five. very very unrealistic hockey but this was sooo super sweet and i really enjoyed following along with it while it updated :)

Nutcracker! - 101k words - ballet!AU - shane!pov -

obligatory opalapparition plug because they're the goat. Shane is the stage manager at the royal winnipeg ballet and Ilya is the bolshoi principal dancer who makes his job very difficult. i enjoyed this a lot, it was clearly very well-researched and an interesting AU. shane's anxious-avoidant attachment was well done and his arc was fascinating to read.

I'm reading your lips (you're speaking my language) - 30k - no rivalry!AU - mixed!pov

Shane is fluent in russian. he and ilya bond over this and are... well, they're friends, kind of. with benefits. this fic was a fun read and i thought the concept was really cool! polyglot!shane!!!!! also the model minority myth is explored in a really meaningful way and i like what the author did with that. translation as a metaphor for trust ouuhh...

love and lust (wanna be yours) - 12k - oneshot - ilya!pov

this fic had me STRESSING oh my god. inspired by the fight mentioned in tlg where ilya says shane can sleep with other guys, if he wants. shane takes him up on that offer. two generational crashouts ensue! HEA thank god.

home economics - 38k - nhl lockout!AU - mixed!pov

oh my god. oh my god. i will never be normal about this author's homegrown series. so basically in 2015 theres a conflict between the players union and the league and basically the season doesn't start. so in the months while the players are effectively on strike, shane and ilya both get signed by zürich for a few months and they share a house and team for four months. and then the league goes "fuck you!" *unforces your proximity* and they have to go back to their previous lives. but they're both like haunted by eachother and their time together. SO much more angsty than i was expecting oh my days. anyway their fugly yellow kitchen is treated like a dead wife and i think about it every day. seriously it's so good.

open house - 25k - sequel - mixed!pov

as the sequel to the aforementioned fic home economics, my already decently high expectations were somehow leapt over by this fic. in this sequel, we see the POVs of hayden who's keeping shane on suicide watch, a lady at a hardware store selling ilya some yellow paint, the captain of the zürich lions who is so done with everyone's bullshit, a rookie on shane's team who just hooked up with his fellow rookie, yuna who overhears a lot more than she's supposed to, and a random waitress who really don't gaf. these people bewitched me mind body soul!!!!! like genuinely this was a spectacular sequel!!

puck interference - 128k - referee shane!AU - mixed!pov

shanes a ref and ilya's a player with a drug and alcohol problem. they shouldn't fall in love. they do anyway. uh so yeah this was quite depressing actually. but HEA so yeah!!

chiaroscuro - 98k - genderswap/artists!AU - mixed!pov

even if you don't normally read genderswap, i cannot recommend this enough. imagine if hollanov were beautiful freaked up lesbian artists in a forced proximity art studio in new england. doesn't that sound divine? WELL IT IS. AND IT'S SOOOO FREAKING UNDERRATED OMG. give it a chance pleeeeeeeeease.

oh well, i guess we're gonna find out! - 95k - zombie apocalypse!AU - mixed!pov

well this was an absolute journey!!!! the night of vegas 2014, zombies happen. ilya and shane fly to boston on the last plane out of nevada. then over the course of like three years they like fall in love and shit. i'm not exaggerating when i say that i had to keep double-checking the 'happy ending' tag because this fic had me stressed the fuck out! but anyway, this fic is like so amazingly spectacular, it was very very realistic like about human nature etc and i sooo enjoyed reading it i was like majorly scared. highly recommend!

apply pads (shock now!) - 34k - paramedics!AU - shane!pov

paramedicine au!!! i really love the author's writing style it's witty and dry and very human. i genuinely considered a career in paramedicine after reading this fic btw.

walking through windows - 38k - wedding chrash!AU - mixed!pov

ten years after they break up in tampa, shane is having a big gay wedding to some other guy. cue ilya's generational crashout. he crashes the wedding. they were messy asf in this and i love it!!!!!!!

another day, another struggle - 115k - crack neighbourhood!AU - mixed!pov

ilya's family moved to america following the death of his mother, his father loses his job and has to go back to russia with alexei, but he stays in the us and joins up with the local gang. after shane tears his acl at 18, he is prescribed narcotics and falls down the slippery slope of addiction in the height of the opioid crisis. their paths cross; ilya is a crack dealer, and shane is a prostitute and junkie. i had never even considered this concept before reading this fic but god... this fic was so damn good!! the author's lived experiences rounded out all the characters and everyone just felt so real. the happy ending was great, and the angst was impeccable. i listened to the lana del ray song 'dealer' on loop while reading this because i swear she has a time machine and travelled forwards to read this fic, then went back and wrote that song. anyway, a really good fic!

the texture of memory - 48k - missing person/amnesia!AU - ilya!pov

i.... idk what to say about this fic other than i cried the entire time i was reading it. the most beautiful prose. such a devastating concept. basically shane went missing eight years ago and ilya goes on a road trip to find... well, something. i'm not even joking when i say this fic changed my worldview. a spectacular piece on memory and identity and grief. that happy ending surprised me because this was an emotional journey where the key emotion was nauseating sadness.

WIPs-

i woke up to infared - bartender!ilya x sports analyst!shane. quite fun so far! i'm putting shane in my pocket! and rose's fiancé is pissing me off.

the burden of proof - they're lawyers on opposing sides of a civil suit... but they were deeply in love ten years ago in law school. i'm enjoying it!

the shape of your grip - top tier frat au like i was not expecting this at all. but this is so peak!!!!! it's amazing!!!!!! the author has a lovely way of describing things, especially head injuries, in a very... tactile way.

raise my heart rate - paramedic!shane, hockey player!ilya. i'm really liking it!

let me know when you get home - okay so remember home economics? and the two rookies in love in the sequel? well, this is their story. and it's SO fucking good. like genuinely i think about lachlan and crawford every fifteen minutes. i'm obsessed with them. like so obsessed. it's fantastic and these guys are veryyyy well written. oou two guys from the deep south making out and their cross necklaces r getting tangled 🤩. the slowburn is sooooooooo well done. you could read this as a standalone if you wanted. and even if you don't want to read the others i still recommend this fic because it's just so good. crawlan.... crawlan..... come home... the kids miss you...

the vocabulary of exile - it's the eighties! the cold war is happening! ilya defects from the ussr to play for the metros. it's very good and very well researched. i'm super excited for this fic's updates!!!

noah-wyles

all i want for 2026 is that gigantic rancid AI bubble to finally burst in such a catastrophic way that the consequences will be so good and i'll never have to see another AI generated image ever again

fluoritegalaxy

Like to charge, reblog to cast.

#manifest

Shane naked quaking and moaning hugging a pillow to his chest face smushed down knees slipping on the sheets because Ilya told him they'd just watch a movie to unwind turned the lights low and got him strung out and spit slick in the silver blue glow of his flat screen roughly eating out his 🍑 like he's getting graded for it while still fully clothed it's happening right now

#can you tell i'm ovulating #no you can't I'm hiding it so well #ilya rozanov #shane hollander #shane hollander × ilya rozanov #shane x ilya #my writing #hollanov #my hc #heated rivalry

Fingering is something most women LO-UH-VE and consequently something Ilya both loves to do and is extremely good at, but Shane is such a cockslut that he never enjoys the fine tease of fingering because he just wants Ilya to put it in.

So once they're official and living together, Ilya ends up having a rare night of.. indulging himself. Shane trapped on his side, naked in his arms, writhing and pleading as Ilya kisses him languidly and slowly with hands wandering large across his body, fingertips nimble and feather light. He's just grazing skin and teasing with touch and honestly, they haven't even begun but Shane is already out of his mind, ready to start bribing Ilya with cold hard cash and Stanley cups if something doesn't start happening soon.

And then he reaches his restless thighs and hitches one over his hip, drawing Shane even closer as he goes with a gasp, eyes locked on Ilya's. Are you gonna fuck me like this? he asks hopefully, tremble in his voice. They don't do this often, spooning face to face, but Shane would like it, breathing each other in as Ilya ravages him. But Ilya clicks his tongue, calls him a slut in the fondest voice that betrays him, and pushes a lubed finger in, Shane already open from last night but still shuddering at how he feels, how much he always feels, like he is annexed by Ilya and has surrendered without a word. Ilya probes in deeper, thrusting in and out slowly, but the point isn't even that, it's Shane's pink skin and fluttering eyelashes as helpless cries fall from his lips, Ilya pulling back an inch to watch his lover fall apart. There's sweat on the bridge of his nose, the top of his lips, the divot in his throat. He's whispering more, gimme more almost mindlessly under his breath, not even realizing he's doing it. Ilya is gone for him.

Another finger and his back arches, sticking chest to chest with Ilya, hands scrambling all over the Russian for a grip that he can't get because he's overwhelmed, and how can this feel so good? he asks aloud, bewildered. He treated this as a perfunctory prequel to the grand ol' main event but he's aghast at this particular pleasure, Ilya's fingers dexterous and clever, their flexibility playing with him even as he tries and fails to predict the next sensation inside him. Ilya grazing his walls soothingly, then quicker, then tapping where he needs it, soft and fast and alternating 2-2-3-1 until Shane drops his head forward, little cries escaping his bitten mouth, rocking his hips into and away from Ilya's body like a ship riding the waves and whispering you'll let me come, won't you, baby?

And oh, Ilya's heart clenches. Shane is denied nothing ever when he is so sweet like this, always like this. You can come, only from this, whenever you want moy lyubimy, he whispers into his hair, even as Shane's thigh grips gratefully high over his etched hip. Oh God, he moans, because he's close, and Ilya lets him nestle in closer and closer like an alphabet inside an opening parenthesis as he shivers and moans, pleasure breaking in his body, his head buried against Ilya's neck and tears wetting his clavicle as he comes between them, moaning until the feeling slows to a simmer, seeking Ilya's mouth and touch in the after. Ilya grins and meets him for every kiss, a few teasing light to hear the sound of Shane's breathless giggles, cleaning him up quickly so that he can pull him in again and tangle their legs together to ask worth it?

And Shane has stars in his eyes as he says what he wanted to say the first time, with you, always.

#shane hollander #ilya rozanov #hollanov #heated rivalry #musings #writing #my writing

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thisfeebleheart

"When Shane says "Ilya" back, he's flooded with relief and happiness."

connorstorriesource

how tender Ilya can be

alphabettysue

and how gently Shane is trying to break Ilya's heart, as though such a thing exists

#hudson williams #Connor Storrie #hollanov #heated rivalry

Shane and Ilya, laying flat on their back on the dewy, pokey grass outside the cottage, breathless from football and tackling each other until they devolved into kisses and giggles and from how the blue sky feels as vast and enormous as Ilya being there for the first fucking time, and Ilya sees a tiny white periwinkle fallen from one of Shane's well-kept bushes and picks it up, so unblemished and pure, and tucks it behind Shane's ear and just looks at him and looks at him as Shane's eyes well up, not crying because it doesn't count if the tears don't spill.

#i love periwinkle flowers #and the endless beautiful possibilities of the cottage #they're relaxing with each other for once #shane hollander #ilya rozanov #my writing #shane x ilya #shane hollander × ilya rozanov #hollanov #my hc #musings #heated rivalry

firstprinced

the sweetest bug

When Shane can't make a shot because the puck is too far from him on the ice he fantasizes seriously and academically about having powers of teleportation

#this is from the secret garden of my mind #where Shane is like Castiel #he wants to teleport!#he wants to be here and there and everywhere at the same time!!!#if he could teleport he would play all positions on his team #and be a legend amongst men #this fantasizing reaches critical levels when Ilya moves to Ottawa #all the 'i wish i was there' on the phone turns into #him googling 'scientists working on teleportation' in the middle of the night #my boy is a TRIER #TRY HARD #shane hollander i love you #shane holander #ilya rozanov #shane hollander × ilya rozanov #hollanov #heated rivalry

Ilya kissing Shane anywhere on his skin like Shane is his cuddly toy that can also play hockey. Kissing his shoulder anytime he leans over his shoulder to see hockey stats on his laptop. Kissing his palm and then the back of his hand and then his palm again while Shane drives, like in thanks because it's Ilya's playlist blasting through the speakers and Shane didn't fuss. Kissing his forehead where Shane is scrunching his eyebrows reading, reminding him to relax. Kissing his feet (even the soles as Shane yelps and giggles, ticklish, trying to be upset but failing) as he massages them at the end of a long day. Kissing his scalp again and again in bed because Shane bonked it slightly during practice and Ilya's heart nearly stopped. His Shane. His baby Shane. Kissing his naked chest and nipples in the afterglow, sprawled over him and holding possessively like someone could snatch him away. Sometimes he's almost obsessive with it, kissing his navel and the low soft of his stomach instead of blowing him, which he was about to do. Shane whines and nudges him with a knee, all Ilya please, come on don't make me beg. But Ilya only smiles, nips with vampire like teeth, kisses again, says, I will take my time. We have time now.

#obsessed ilya I'll have some #he loves his freckled baby so much #cutie4cutie #shane hollander #ilya rozanov #shane hollander × ilya rozanov #my writing #hollanov #shane x ilya #my hc #heated rivalry

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Congratulations are in order for one Ilya Rozanov for getting the bunny he's always wanted as a pet, only this is in the form of his boyfriend Shane who can also do cool people things like -

● Talk to him on the phone

● wish him good night and good morning

● cuddle him big and hold him back too!

● go along with all his unhinged plans

● drive a car to come see him (bunny couldn't do that)

● the obvious (you know)

That's one lucky bunny owner man

#heated rivalry #shane hollander #ilya rozanov #he's buying him lettuce by the CRATE #and watching him nibble nibble nibble his way through it #and shane has a spring in his step when he's happy #which is a way of hopping honestly #and then there's the bouncing -#let's keep this PG #hollanov #my hc #my writing

russianblush

#the way they're both ready to devour each other

alphabettysue

They're so Dean and Castiel sometimes, no i will not elaborate (I will see tags)

#someone tell Shane he is VIBRATING from Want (TM)#No one since Castiel (my beloved) has been so conflicted over his wanting tendencies #i daresay these two have a bit of Dean and Cas dynamic #cocky man who loves getting a rise out of others = Dean/ Ilya #cherubic superhuman who agonizes over wanting and lust = Shane/ Cas #munch munch munch yum yum yum #over my own headcanon #shane hollander #ilya rozanov #hollanov #heated rivalry

hollanovarchive

Hey first of all thank you so much for your work can’t tell you how many amazing recs I’ve gotten from it!! I’m looking for a fic that I thought I had saved for later on ao3 (haven’t read it yet) but from the summary I remember something about Shane going to Ottawa post-TLG and he can’t keep his jersey number and I remember something in the summary that said like he [shane] finally has everything he’s ever wanted and all it cost him was everything/and it only cost him everything - and it was basically about him adjusting to moving to the Centaurus (I think). If you’re able to find this I would be eternally grateful!!!! but no worries if not!! Again thank you!!! :)

UPDATE: Fics Added ⬇️

At Your Service

(shane is married and on the same team as his husband) (and all it cost him was his whole career and the life he spent years building beforehand) (but it's fine, really) (it's all so very, very fucking fine)

What’s In A Number?

Shane taps the note on top of the stack of paper. “I’m going to have to change my jersey number.”

Here is what I could find. If it's not one of these, maybe a follower might recognize it (:

Someday I'll Be Somebody People Want

Shane's life has been upended in the aftermath of his departure from the Voyageurs. Signing with the Centaurs should have calmed his anxiety and assuaged his fears, but he's still struggling with just how thoroughly his life has changed. Having to navigate a new team and new management for the first time in over a decade makes everything so much worse. Luckily for him, the Centaurs are committed to making him feel as safe and welcomed as they can.

they (don't) know about us

Shane, fed up with Montreal, signs to Ottawa before their relationship is revealed. While he doesn't plan on keeping that a secret for long, he asks Ilya to let him get to know the team first, before they come out. To maybe have a normal season. Meanwhile, the rest of the Centaurs are going crazy trying to figure out what is going on between their captain and Shane Hollander and why they keep showing up in the same car??

You can also check my Shane Goes To Ottawa list

Shane's been holding 'babe' in as a term of endearment for faaarrrrrr too long now that they're official it's just gonna be constant slew of 'babe wanted to call you before practice' and 'you were such an asshole to that shitty reporter babe'

And Ilya is just like 🥰🥵💦🥰

#already asshole was a lovey dovey name #but now there's no need to conceal between them!#my vision is that Shane is just an adorkable boyfriend #and essentially renaming your partner 'babe' is adorkable boyfriend 101 #Ilya probably mouths that word to himself all giddy in his last few months in boston #feeling Shane's endearment across hundreds of miles #shane Hollander #ilya rozanov #hollanov #shane x ilya #heated rivalry

hearteyesshane

shanebug

#extra spicy autistic that day #with Ilya's questions confusing and scaring him so much #baby you never do anything wrong #shane Hollander #heated rivalry

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hollandershane

#the duality of man

#never let them know your next move #them is himself #Shane Hollander you have bewitched me #and Ilya is the only one who gets the WHOLE Shane #also the - (gunshots)#Ilya feeds and plays with both the Shane wolves l #love that for him!!!#shane hollander × ilya rozanov #shane hollander #heated rivalry #hollanov

giveemhales

Criminally Underrated Hollanov Fics - Part 2

Part 1

People seemed to like the first list so here are 10 more underrated hollanov fics. All are completed, all have under 10k hits and 100 comments, and all deserve more love! And all but one are under 10k words. I have personally read and can vouch for all of these. If you enjoy, please remember to show some love to the authors! Also, if anyone ever wants to discuss any of the fics I ever post about, my dms are always open :)

it’s just background noise, anyway by @anincompletelist (2.4k, M) - cliff and carmichael sneak into ilya’s penthouse in 2014 vegas and almost catch shane and ilya in the act. love how this author writes ilya’s pov, he’s such a yearner

Forget about it by @deliciousblizzardshark (2.5k, G) - shane and ilya wake up together in a hospital room and both have temporary amnesia, they are so silly i love them

who else could love me quite as kindly as you by @eemolu (2.9k, M) - ilya can’t actually live inside of shane, so he settles for burrowing under his sweatshirt instead. so achingly tender. the love they feel for each other really shines through

jealous of the night watch by @lottswrites (3.7k, E) - hitman ilya needs to cuff hitman shane to make sure he doesn’t interfere with his job. i think you can guess where it goes from there hehe. love this au plus this fic was written for a charity event which makes it even more special!

Shane Hollandbear by writeitininkorinblood (4.1k, G) - outsider pov. the centaurs take shane to build-a-bear to make a bear for ilya. pure fluff and humor. made me want to go back to BAB

loose lips sink ships all the damn time by hollsynov (4.2k, T) - texting and socmed fic. ilya’s phone is broken so shane messages him on twitter, but accidentally outs them to a fan account instead. love this oc, this was funnier and more wholesome than i expected

i pay attention to things that most people ignore by @extendedpl4y (4.9k, T) - hayden realizes lily is ilya all on his own. i usually read (and write) fics with hayden as a dumbass so this is a nice change and very sweet!

In Sickness and In Health by gnomey2001 (5.5k, E) - shane gets the stomach flu after fleeing the tuna meltdown and so do all the raiders. shane is stuck in boston when the game is canceled, and ilya takes care of him. i love a post-tuna meltdown fix it and really enjoyed how everything was resolved.

slow motion, love potion by @delsicle (6.8k, E) - sex worker ilya is hired by shane in sochi during the winter olympics so he can experiment with a man. hot, sweet, and sad all at once. lovely writing

78 seconds by @felifiran (11k, E) - instead of shane being injured at the boston-montreal game, ilya takes a skate to the neck. it’s not as graphic as it sounds (but obviously there are discussions of blood). some lovely hurt/comfort, perfect if you want something bittersweet

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