grayson

I feel it's inevitable with how much -core shit going on that one day punk-core is going to be a thing and when it eventually does we gotta beat it to death with a large stick

my ex situationship might try to attack me again tonight if he’s at this hardcore show but the power of music and friendship and homosexuality will protect me

ex situationship is actually the worst phrase ever but what else am i supposed to call that ‘friendship’ where we said i love you and we wanted to meet each other’s families and would do borderline PDA on occasion but never actually talked about it because he was actually secretly seeing a partner i never heard about until he hard launched them at me on a weekend where we were supposed to hang out

i had a dream that i was intensely and mutually in love with one of my closest friends. im pretty sure we kissed too. the whole time i remember thinking that it just felt right and that we shouldve started dating ages ago. i have never felt that way about him in reality and he’s not even into dudes. the last time i had a dream like this i actually liked the person and ive never had a dream where my emotions didnt reflect how im actually feeling. im just freaked out because I Swear To God i do not feel that way. like yes he’s attractive but he’s genuinely just one of my boys. none of my irls can know about this🫩

….anyways the 9th will mark one month with “just one of my boys” that i “Swear To God i do not feel that way” for. now why was I lying to myself on my own Tumblr?