my lungs, feel like they're collapsing. my heart, aches. the loneliness, is taking over.

whenever there's a plane flying really low over my house I always secretly wish it'll crash here

and then my dog puked on my comforter sweet. everything that can go wrong will

i hate the general vibe my mom gives off and i hate the control she has over my head. she is an extremely toxic person for me and i don't want to have to deal with it anymore 

i have a headache, i haven't done any of my homework due tomorrow. which is giving me anxiety and my head is fucking with me. i'm crazy and i want to die. ok bye

right now, all I want to do is go out & take a walk & smoke a cig

I feel like I have a much better understanding of what goes on, I’m more observant now and less judgemental. I let people be who they are and not let the judgments of what I had before affect how they really are and just wow after a facetime with sam and Erica, sam is hurting like bad and Erica couldn’t give two shits. She just goes on to talk about her shit and that’s something that I’ve always known about her and realized and not liked but it’s like wow she is so selfish and how does she expect to go into a profession where she will have to be doing everything for everyone else all the time and she is just a selfish butthole 

although I still have big thighs, I don't have any cellulite anymore, so that's cool :)

ok that was cute, exchanging banter secretly through twitter, now I accept your text messages & wouldn't mind a nice little cuddle right abut now.

he'd have to change a lot tho

I have horrible trust issues, I don't ever want anyone to know how weak I am and I have not a single person even in the line up to earn my trust. I don't know what to do.

i've smoked too much weed this past week. i don't understand why i seem to think i'm made of money 

you don't smoke for a day then smoke a bowl in the morning & scrape the resin out your bowl for night & wah lah weed saver!

i'm so used to doing things for free and not accepting people's money that it's going to be so weird to receive pay checks

I was looking back at old pictures & I started losing weight when I started smoking weed el oh el stoners are lazy my ass