crying in the hospital lobby while I’m on break thank you r/transtimelines

I wish the mall had the same mystique as it did when I was 17

having to manually fill in information that is on my fucking resume is going to make me blow a gasket I swear to god

I’m ok now I’m Ignoring It again

I’m not even capable of managing the responsibilities of adulthood so I can either kill myself or be a fucking burden to someone until I die naturally and I really don’t see the point in being a burden more than I already am?? Like I do not know what to do or how to do it and I can’t afford anything so why even bother? government wants me dead the environment is turbo fucked and there’s only like 5 or 6 people who would actually mourn me so like… why am I still here why don’t I just wander off into the woods and die. I’ve quit everything else I’ve ruined my chances of being who I wanna be like I’ll never be pretty I’ll never be well off I’ll never feel peace or serenity or anything good because I can’t feel ANYTHING so why can’t I just quit one last time? why’s it so hard to abandon the certainty of my misery for the unknown

wanting to kill yourself in an unemotional way where you just do the math and some asshole goes “I’ve got something that will solve all your problems!” and it’s just ruining my siblings childhoods and breaking my moms heart