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JB, who was Jude’s first friend. JB, who carried Jude to the college hospital when he witnessed him having an episode in their dorm.

JB, who shouted and made a scene in that same hospital until a doctor finally saw Jude - and that doctor was Andy, the only physician Jude ever allowed to care for him for the rest of life.

JB, who helped Jude move into the apartment he shared with Willem on Lispenard St. JB, who brought along his friend Richard to help that day. Richard, who later sold Jude his beautiful apartment on Green Street that Jude loved so much. Richard, who secretly looked after him more than Jude ever imagined, who at one point saved his life, and at another point reminded him his birthday was worth celebrating, when Jude himself had forgotten and his world was bleak.

JB, who envied his life, his looks, his career, his relationship (even his limp!). JB, who saw him as competition, rather than someone to pity. JB, who thought he was beautiful, who thought killing something small and adorable was worth it if it meant looking like Jude.

JB, who brought him to parties, who showered him with laughter and provocations.

JB, who asked too many questions and wanted all the answers but got none of them. JB, who then asked Harold to back off from asking all the questions and wanting all the answers as well.

JB, who captured his life in galleries, on canvas, on film. The good and the bad.

JB, who’s art invaded and celebrated and decorated. JB, who’s art froze Willem in time for him.

JB, who was Jude’s last friend. JB, who Jude resented, who Jude hated, who Jude never forgave, who Jude wanted dead.

JB, who found him at last, who put away his suits, who handed out his letters.

writing this instead of actually studying like i'm supposed to and also bc i miss weak hero lol. sry for not posting 2nd year of uni is hitting hard...

here's some headcanons abt how the eunjang gang studies for exams!

Gray: He starts studying really early and effectively, uses flashcards and reviews the day's lessons at home every day. Does practice questions and papers. Studies smarter and not harder and aces every exam. Gets a full night sleep before tests.

Eugene: He used to procrastinate studying in favour of going down wiki rabbit holes and ends up cramming a few nights before each exam. After some advice from Gray he's started studying earlier and sticks to a study schedule and does practice papers. His grades have improved! Though he does stay up late to cram sometimes.

Ben: He does NOTTT study at all until finals. He gets distracted while studying and constantly puts it off. He studies better in group settings because his friends keep him accountable. Gray, Alex and Gerard have helped him out lots. He's an audiovisual learner so lots of diagrams and reading out notes helps.

Gerard: He gets decent grades despite sleeping in class all the time. After work he makes some time to at least review class notes and studies on the weekends. He likes to go to chill cafes to listen to music and study. His mind will wander and he tends to daydream while studying so he has to reread his notes many times.

Alex: Poor dude tries really hard to study but can't get his grades up. He uses a rote memorisation method to cram as much info in his head before tests. Pretends not to care about studying but he puts more effort than most people realize. Especially since Ben comes to him to ask questions. He asked Gray and Eugene for study tips and has since improved his study strat, aiming to understand instead of blindly memorizing.

Teddy: Studying? What's that? Before he joined Ben's group he didn't care about studies at all. But now that he's got himself a better friend group and adopted Co he's decided to try studying. It's a slow process and he is struggling to catch up with schoolwork but he's determined to make things work. He takes frequent study breaks to play with Co or go on walks. Keeping his body moving helps his mind process information.

Rowan: Professional procrastinator but somehow LOCKS IN and gets good grades. Nobody knows how he does it. Like he's that type of guy to say "haha i barely studied" and then does well. Eugene is slightly jealous. His secret? Late night cramming and energy drinks. Is super burnt out after exam season and always gets sick after due to bad study habits.

The only people who would do something this lame are the ones who know how lame it is, but are in the first stages of liking each other so they're totally comfortable in their mutual lameness.

they get hard when you sit on them ;

18+ weak hero x gn!reader. nsfw!

crying

throwing up

at the fact that

i'll deal with college applications starting next year

i just know i'll be more busy to the point i may have completely abandoned tumblr

i miss sending asks, and receiving one

i'm afraid of the day i will no longer check this app

or worst uninstall this app for good

the thought of college itself scares me

i remember vividly how i was deciding between HUMSS and STEM as my strand

ended up choosing STEM for practicality

now, i have to choose a college course? take college admission tests?

how i wish time would slow down a bit

unfortunately, you had to give up on your dream university out of financial constraints. on a bright side, you’re taking your dream program

it’s scary, confusing, and nerve-wrecking. are we on the right path?

weak hero headcanons;

older brother!jimmy bae

hello anon, thank you for the request + sorry it took so long to get to! i'm currently working 40-hour weeks at my job, and my motivation for writing these posts has been all over the place. but i'm getting it out now, so hey- that's something :,)

i kept this pretty neutral so it's not very detailed, but i hope you still enjoy!

⋆ Jihoon as an older brother partly depends on if he has a little brother or sister

⋆ Since I imagine him having a strained relationship with his parents, I see him trying to fill that void for his sibling through being protective and making time for them between the Union and school

⋆ With a brother, Jihoon would take him to workout together (if he's old enough) or bring him around Jack's to play video games and watch their favorite action films. If his brother likes sports, he'll play basketball or soccer with him (even if he sucks, lol). Jihoon's idea of bonding is involving his sibling in the stuff he likes, though he tries to learn + engage with their passions, too

⋆ With a sister, his approach doesn't change much, he just becomes more overtly protective of her. Jihoon may be a guy, but that means he knows how other men are, and he won't let his sister get caught up with the types of fuckers he's worked with. He'll make sure to teach her strength and the basics of fighting + self-defense. Jihoon will never push her too far, but he knows he can't always be there and needs to trust that she can stand on her own

⋆ That being said, if she's still young, he'll entertain her even if it means doing stuff that isn't very manly of him, lol. Tea parties, dressup, etc... Not because he really wants to, but because he just can't say no :,)

⋆ Will never mention the Union around them. Once they enter middle/high school, he can't control what they hear and it gives him a lot of anxiety, not wanting his sibling's opinion of him to change — or to be a villian in their eyes. So as best as he can, Jihoon keeps them far away from that part of his life, afraid that they'll get hurt because of his choices

pros vs cons

stem

pros - more job opportunities

- more advantage with college entrance exam

cons

- math and science are my enemies

- i'm only taking it for the money

humms

pros - i'm more inclined to this strand as it tackles contemporary issues, history, etc

- will take out the best out of me

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