Type-A Diagnosis
In high tension it’s often difficult to find a balance within each other’s boundaries. Lines are easily crossed but so perfectly defined.. when you’re sober from it. Like refraining from saying horrible things to letting that person know you understand while still expressing how you feel. Instead it’s a conversation led by your self-righteousness and pride.
Stubborn. Short-tempered. And a desperate need for control when shit hits the fan. The feelings of abandonment and built up frustration when he walks out the door is devastating. And I’m left with the desire to resolve the issue feeling misunderstood and uncared for. The self-blame eventually sets in but the anger fails to subside. Ultimately, I just become overwhelmed by the emotions and lack of resolution and want to run away forever.
And just like this post.. I feel incomplete.
