Alex.

In a relationship I always try to be everything that the other person has ever wanted. But won't give the same back. I'm done doing that. I just want someone to give me what I want emotionally. Be supportive. Be encouraging. Be loving. Be simple.

It's hard to forgive people. I was put down in every way possible.... yet I still want to forgive and forget. Move on and be done with it. I'm tired of it always being on my mind.

Sometimes I look back on my post and laugh at the reasons why I posted or liked them.

Today is really not my day. I feel like an emotional wreck and over thinking things more than I should.

It doesn't matter how much you're over your ex... it's always hard to say you're ready to date. I don't have those feeling back yet that I lost. I want someone to sweep me off my feet and for me to get those butterflies. That hasn't happened for me yet. I've been out with a few great guys. Sweet and great personalities but just not catching my feelings like I want them to... I need to stop looking and just let it happen ..

I realized I made the best decision of my life. Moving to another state and just leaving everything behind, the stress and pain, is relieving. Yeah I haven't made any friends that I can go and hang outside of work with but it was a choice that changed me for the better.

I remember why I moved. To get out of a city I hate but loving at the same time.. But only loving because of a person. It's not a place I never want to come back to.

I shouldn't be crying

Defiantly not how I saw my birthday to be.

A break up is more then just losing someone you love. It's a complete heart break. It's knowing that you did everything you could to keep the relationship together but yet still failing. The constant wondering if you did this different or that better if It would have made a difference. I guess life has a plan for everyone but sometimes we just don't want to face reality.

I love the taste of you on my lips. Your smell on my skin and your hands sliding down my body. I feel so comfortable with you. Only you. You take me on a trip that I can't explain. It's a thrill. Makes me feel high. I'm in love with you.

In a relationship I love too much. I always give the best I can and in the end I always get hurt because I never get the love and best back that I give out. I want someone to love me as deeply as I love them. I don't know what pulled me in so deeply to you but I can't let everything go. I keep shattering.

No one honestly understand how much I hate my life

I just wish that you would understand that when I say I'm not okay with someone then you don't talk to them. If you work with them then fine go ahead and talk to them to work but after work they don't exist in your world. 😒 I just wish son people would disappear.