wisco

it was me in a car, idk if i was driving or not i can’t remember, but everytime i looked out the window he would be staring back at me. like the car was speeding by but everytime i looked at him or saw him it’s like time froze and for what felt like hours i would stare at him smiling and he’d stare back at me smiling. and then it would start over but we’d be somewhere different, like i would drive somewhere different but i’d still see him not matter what. and i could see his brown golden eyes, the stubble around his jawline, the lines around his smile. i could see everything that made me love him. and to feel just for a second that things were back to normal. that i could look at him with so much love, admiration, and affection and not have to see the pain the sadness and the mistakes. after a few times i felt my heart start breaking and then every time i saw him he would be sadder and sadder and i would ask what’s wrong but he would cry and i would cry and scream at the top of my lungs asking if he was okay but he just looked so broken. and then i woke up scream-crying.