likeeeeeeeeeeee ….
😒
hopeless romantic here
who is slowly giving up on that reality
like being beautiful & loving someone with all your heart
giving your all
what does it account for
…
it feels as though no one truly cares for their lover anymore
do people even feel an ounce of value
in having a lover anymore
maybe im speaking from a torn and battered heart
with so many scars
even the stitches overlaps
bruised tissue that cover these scars
on this once unwavery heart
..
I don’t want to love anymore
.
.
.
stick to money
& nothing else
not even the feeling of leisure for my heart
.
it’s just a bitter taste of what I’ve been denied
time after time
an everlasting love
doesn’t
..
last here
..
can it
..
exist here ?
is it the affect of this current earth that leads the heart here..
..
maybe it’s my fault for thinking I’d find love
that didn’t mirror the love a witnessed as a child
..
infidelity
heartbreak
children out of wedlock
marriage as an ultimatum
gaslighting swept under the table
…
I’m just a girl
searching for a man’s love
something more than my father showed me.
care that he never showed me
..
I’d rather become a shell who gets the money
kind but heartless
welcoming but won’t invite them
“about my bag” I’ll become
and in return
…
