Punk Bitch

I’m really starting to realize I’m nobodies first choice for anything. And I have not felt this lonely and sad in a LONG time. It’s not even just relationships it’s my friendships too. I have people that tell me they wanna hang out but never make plans. Or I’ll try to make plans but when it comes time to hang out I get ghosted or they forgot or they’re busy. Every time. And man I love my family but sometimes I feel like an afterthought when everyone’s together. And I wonder if I’m over reacting. But I am just so god damn sad all the fucking time now. I feel so alone. And I feel like nobody will ever want me. I don’t feel like I have anyone to talk to anymore. I hate everything.

I just want to be taken care of without having to ask. I’m tired of only getting the bare minimum in relationships. I do so much for people and nobody does anything for me the way I do for them. I shouldn’t have to ask.