little bundle of contradictions

touch-starvation needs to be written with emphasis on the starving part. you are hungry to be touched. so hungry that even the very taste of it makes you nauseous. it has been long since anything has ever touched you, ever fed you - that your body has grown more used to that gnawing emptiness more than anything else. it's better for you to be held, to eat but it makes you sick to try. you know

It's so shocking when you're touch starved and you didn't notice, because you get a touch and it's such a shock to the system. You get a rush, and a crash. A high and a fall. And you can't decide if you want it again right now or never ever ever.

RGU is literally just “I will save you, I will save you, I will save you, I will save you, I will save you” until the realization that you can’t save another person in the cycle and then it’s “I will choose you, I will choose you, I will choose you, I will choose you, I will choose you until you can save yourself” and it’s everything actually and I’ll cry about it for eternity

basically i really wish the situation was different