Hello! First of all, forgive my english as it's not my first language. Also, I had Tumblr for only a few months and have never done this (I've reblogged as those seem easy enough, but commenting or 'asking' is very daunting for some reason lol) so forgive me if I'm going about it all wrong.
All that aside, I felt compelled to write this after reading your broken compass post. I recently found your fics on Ao3 a few months ago, and you have no idea how much they tugged my heart out, broke it into pieces and put it back together again (this is NOT an exaggeration.) And now that I have tumblr, I followed you without a second thought :D
Think of this as a letter from a concerned stranger who finds comfort in your writing and only wishes the best for you.
College(or university? Whatever. Higher education. There) is hard and stupid and necessary. As a college student who is currently repeating her first year, all I can say is; I wish I'd done better.
Being a medic student is hard. Being a burned out medic student with less than a milligram of passion for medicine is even harder. Expectations stacked on you and failures after failures added onto the pile, it's safe to say I'm barely holding on.
But as they all say, this too shall pass. Rather obvious, but I'm bad with words so I'm trying my best here. This isn't supposed to be about me ranting about my problems to you, I intended for it to be a little more: "Hey, I'm experiencing something similar. You're not alone." I hope I succeeded.
I don't know what you're facing in your life right now (that is, if you even see this. I didn't bother to check the last time you updated here. I'm crossing my fingers.) , but I could only hope you'll find your calm. I'd say "happiness", but, as someone who's been at the bottom of the barrel (still am), all I ever wanted was a little bit of peace.
Whatever, whenever or wherever you find your peace, I hope they stay with you, until you're ready to find your happiness. Stay strong and take care of yourself. It's tempting to drown in that self pity and guilt and those negative thoughts, believe me, I know. But like everyone on the internet suggested, start smallā don't forget to drink your water, take a walk, etc. etc. Again, rather obvious.
You don't have to reply (is this how you do it?), but if you're reading this I could only hope you find some comfort in it, no matter how small.
Your writings will stay in mind FOREVER. This isn't a promise but more like my destiny. Whatever you decide for yourself, you'll do great. Have a great day :) For the rest of your days (that sounds like you're dying, sorry it wasn't a threat)
Belated hello, anon. First of all, never apologize for your English! Knowing multiple languages is an incredible feat and imo nativity has no significant bearing on portraying your kind sentiments. Don't let colonialism make you think you're less-than based on your English skills. ;)
Thank you so much for taking the time to write to a fellow stranger on the Internet, let alone write with vulnerability. It's messages like yours that remind me that there are good, kind, and lovingly imperfect people on the Internet who care for one another. Even though we don't know each other, we understand each other in a way, and it's hard to forget that inherent part of human connection when it feels like everything is on fire all the time.
Regardless of where you are in life right now (of which I wish you all the best), you've chosen to do a kind thing and you've chosen to bring more positivity into the universe. Thank you. :) Please take care of yourself as well!
