chronically ill, liscenced to chill

Too heartbroken over my haircut to focus at work, just want to cry in bathroom. Everyone who says it looks great doesn’t understand that I’ve been growing my hair out for years as a personal thing and self expression of femininity. This is years lost

I’m also upset that the hairdresser gave me this trendy alt hair after we spent so long talking about being anti conformist, how I didn’t want it to feel like a hat placed on but instead carved around my features. It’s too short to even put in a bun which was my main requirement. I’ve see her other work, she’s done what I originally asked for. So it feels like she gave me this “queer” haircut and not a ME style. Not all gay people want a mullet! Sometimes we want to be a fairy with baby bangs

10 minutes later stoned and realizing she did me a service because I was obviously still holding on to what it represented. That it WAS weighing me down, now I actually have that fresh start I’d been pretending not to need

Too heartbroken over my haircut to focus at work, just want to cry in bathroom. Everyone who says it looks great doesn’t understand that I’ve been growing my hair out for years as a personal thing and self expression of femininity. This is years lost

I’m also upset that the hairdresser gave me this trendy alt hair after we spent so long talking about being anti conformist, how I didn’t want it to feel like a hat placed on but instead carved around my features. It’s too short to even put in a bun which was my main requirement. I’ve see her other work, she’s done what I originally asked for. So it feels like she gave me this “queer” haircut and not a ME style. Not all gay people want a mullet! Sometimes we want to be a fairy with baby bangs

Eating lunch watching these two toddlers shyly playing with each other, running around giggling in the sun. Everyone who walks past turns to watch and a huge smile erupts. It’s such a privilege, seeing them safe and playing

Okay so a kid pissed on the floor at work, I retract my previous sentiments

sorry boss can't come in today i was on my way to work and then a gentle spring breeze kissed my cheek and reminded me it is a serious thing just to be alive on this fresh morning in this broken world