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Ya Allah semoga rezeki... takut bgt stress bgt mikirinnya... semoga rezekinya dan semoga bisa ikhlas. Aamiin

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Oh I miss my life in London. I miss my 25 years old life. That was my hardest but also the happiest moment in my life.
Another rejection. I thought will be move to DC next year, but not yet. Still have another one on process. Hope for the best outcome.
Too many rejections.... still in uncertain situation about january25. Hopefully there will be no gap.
Catatan pribadi mengenang hal yang patut dikenang. Kalau 6 tahun lalu dapet email berita bahagia, kalau hari ini dapat email dari domain yang sama tapi berisi penolakan.
Dari awal sebetulnya udah agak iseng iseng berhadiah. Liat vacancy nya aja udah wow banget 'Head', posisi paling tinggi buat orang lokal di company asing. Liat sectornya juga agak asing sebetulnya sama pengalaman selama ini. Tapi ya coba aja iseng iseng berhadiah, isi aplikasi, tulis essay, update cv. Hal yang mana terakhir melakukan itu adalah 3 taun yang lalu.
Terus tiba tiba diemail masuk ke tahap selanjutnya yang mana adalah tahap terakhir yang memerlukan usaha pribadi. Interview. Kalang kabut belajar sana sini karena kurang familiar sama sektornya, diminta bikin paparan pula. Ditengah kehectican biztrip dan bapake masuk rumah sakit. Yowes lah bismillah.
Ternyata interview bertepatan sm mission ke luar kota, untungnya online. Langsung riweuh ngeblock setengah hari pagi, ganti status teams do not disturb, request buat setup working desk di kamar karena sheraton defaultnya pake sofa. Sampe 3x request, via admin kantor, via sales hotel yang nelfon, dan saat check in.
Bener bener seniat itu belajar, minimal biar gak malu maluin pas interview. Bikin catetan sana sini, diskusi sama orang orang, baca banyak dokumen.
Terus drama H-1 hampir pingsan di kamar mandi karena tekanan darah rendah. Duh ya itu udah panik aja, akhirnya ya mau gak mau memilih rebahan daripada pingsan beneran nanti makin repot.
Lanjut ke satu bulan setelah interview, hari ini. Lagi makan siang, buka email, eh ko ada. Eh ternyata pengumuman penolakan. At least, ada kejelasan. Belum rejekinya. Belum waktunya naik tingkat. Tapi sebetulnya bisa dipanggil interview aja udah alhamdulillah, karena kalo liat requirementnya merasa under qualified. Mungkin hikmahnya adalah belajar lebih, tau prosesnya gimana, dapet pengalaman interviewnya.
Ya semoga di awal tahun depan nanti ada kabar baik. Tempat yang baik, kesempatan mengembangkan karir dan diri, naik tingkat dari segi tanggung jawab dan income, dan lebih sehat dan bahagia. Aamiin

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Sumpah ngurusin acara sebulan dengan peserta total lebih dari seratus orang itu bikin pusing banget. Beres acara langsung ambil cuti sampai weekend.
It's not even a breakup. But why it feels like I've just had one? And I am doing all my breakup tradition, taking a leave, cutting my hair, having a creambath, and sharing the story to my relatives.
Setelah tiga tahun datang dan pergi.. Sempat meragukan segala macam, maju mundur. Akhirnya kemarin sampai juga pada pertemuan terakhir yang entah kapan bisa ketemu lagi. Ketika biasanya "makasih ya, sampai ketemu lagi", menjadi " pamit dulu ya, sukses terus di manapun itu".
Obrolan hampir tengah malam yang tidak direncanakan. Terkesan dipaksakan dan harus terjadi, karena mungkin memang tidak akan ada waktu lagi untuk bertemu. Tapi setidaknya mendapatkan closure yang jelas. Tapi yang paling tidak disangka adalah ternyata bisa menangis setelah semua percakapan itu selesai. I just realised that age is just a number.
Setelah itu sempat merenung sendiri sebentar. Bertanya-tanya apa yang sebenarnya terjadi? Apa maksudnya? Tapi ya memang tidak ada jawabannya.
Sepertinya memang butuh waktu untuk berpikir sendiri. Untuk merenungkan apa yang sebenarnya terjadi dan mau seperti apa ke depannya.
Funny things about my first job after graduate and one year gap. I worked in a tower that I saw when I first met my friends again in Jakarta. We took coffee accross that office tower, and I was wondering how it feels to work at a high rise building? I never imagine that 7 months after that, I worked there.
Ternyata begini ya rasanya.. Ringan, tanpa beban, bebas.. Butuh waktu sangat lama memang... Dibantu kesibukan lama lama rasa marah kesal dll jadi pudar.. Dan ketika ketemu lagi, ngobrol lagi, rasanya udah kosong aja, ga ada beban masa lalu.. Mungkin karena dulu juga masih belum dewasa. Relasi kuasanya masih jelas jauh berbeda. Tapi sekarang, ternyata bisa ngobrol bebas ketawa tanpa ada rasa marah lagi...
Ini ternyata rasanya ketika semua urusan sudah selesai tanpa ada bagasi masa lalu yang tertinggal. Makin yakin kalau clear closure itu penting. Apapun bentuknya.

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How do you feel?
Roads, places, songs. Although it was a long time ago, it still hurt. For me, maybe because we didn't have the clear closure, just suddenly disappear.
Someone said that the one who hurts you the most is the same person that can make you happiest person in the earth. It's me, not you.
I've been hurting myself for a long time, I need to forgive myself first before starting a new chapter.
Two weeks working in an engineering consultant after a year of the gap. Being a minority since my background is not "pure" civil engineer. Also a minority because of my gender. But, until now they treat me without any difference. It was a hard beginning, adapting with routine work schedule, 8-5 work (sometimes more). Starting working from home since the first day also another obstacle. I only have met the HR manager, line manager, country director, and assistant project manager. I even have not met my entire division and my entire project team.
However, this project is one of my dreams. I enjoy working in this project even I need to read all the documents produced from the first day of the project which was a year ago. I'm still struggling to adapt to the new environment, but I hope that I can learn and get many new experiences here. Also can implement my knowledge in a real project to achieve our goals.
How I miss my life in London. Sept '18 until Oct ' 19 still one of the best periods in my life. Although that was my first time living by myself, the first time living outside Bandung. It means that I need to take care of myself, being responsible for the schedule, money, study, mental health, cooking, washing, cleaning, etc. But I thought that I grew as a better person, know myself better, and I saw many happy smiles from my pictures. Through some ups and downs, I learnt more about life. Sometimes, when my friend ask me what I've got from my study, I'll simply answer I learned more about life. It was a year full of opportunities, uncertainties, experiences, and adventures. No early judgment, I am free to choose what I want to do.
I miss the smile on my face in that year. I miss Agita as Londoners. And I miss London. London will always be my second home. Taught me so many stories about pursuing my dreams, believing in myself, constantly praying, meeting new friends, and also being a minority.
Apakah ini lapur lagi? Masa beneran jinx? Ini satu step lagi loohhhh... Kenapa tiba-tiba gantung? Huhu sedih

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