LOVE YOURSELF NOWWWWWW

I've taken advantage of so many wonderful people purely by reminding them of how cool they are, purely by tricking them into thinking I'm friendly and sweet when I'm just acknowledging the facts... I've stolen jokes and points all over my accounts and just left the name of the original poster so it looks like I'm giving credit but I don't bother putting in the effort to come up with my own ideas. I'm tricked so many people into caring about me by telling them who I am and what I've lived through so that pity makes them keep me around. It's bot on purpose but that doesn't matter because I'm still doing it... they are better off with me gone. I won't kill myself, there's still people that need me to, and it feels cruel to cut anyone out just because of how much I suck but if anyone wants out today would be a great day to say so cause I won't fight you or chase you down, cause I know you're better off without me and I wish you people would see that too. There's too many people this one post is directed at, so many that should have never gotten close, so many that should run, so many I hope do before they end up hurt by whatever bullshit runs through me that I don't even have a label for.

I know I'm the problem cause I'm the one who's always there when it falls apart and they end up hurt, I try to stop it but I don't know what it even is. I'm so tired of ruining people's lives and them thinking it's not my fault because neither of us know what I did wrong.

Apparently working myself to exhaustion and barely sleeping is "unhealthy"

Can't sleep because psychically difficult for me to get more than a few hours normally but also when I get a lot I tend to feel depressed for like a week after

Can't spend money eating out cause then I feel guilty I'm not saving for my younger siblings which makes the food taste terrible, same issue "treat your self" with things like clothes or anything cool

Can't go out cause I'll both feel like I'm wasting time and because of overstimulating issues

Except that I would both feel guilty for spending money on ingredients and spending time making them, and making a mess which I'd take the time to clean and feel even more guilty for wasting time on

Apparently working myself to exhaustion and barely sleeping is "unhealthy"

Can't sleep because psychically difficult for me to get more than a few hours normally but also when I get a lot I tend to feel depressed for like a week after

Can't spend money eating out cause then I feel guilty I'm not saving for my younger siblings which makes the food taste terrible, same issue "treat your self" with things like clothes or anything cool

Can't go out cause I'll both feel like I'm wasting time and because of overstimulating issues

Oh wow these actually go pretty well with the blanket sweater I like to recored wearing, so what do yall think >~<