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"You are first officer of Project Hail Mary?" "No! I'm just one of the scientists." "You honestly think this?" "You're not like the rest of us, Grace." "Of course I am. Why wouldn't I be?" ... "You are number two."

[Strattland Week 2026 - Day 4: Stargazing]

‘cause from up here, the sky is my thoughts and we’re all so small

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All stiff and awkward on the outside of the moment

Okay so like firstly I haven’t gotten through the book yet. So we aren’t talking about all the nuking Antarctica stuff bc I don’t have the Full Picture there. I’m solely talking about the decision she made with Grace. I think firstly it’s important to address that I very firmly believe that you do not need to villainize one party in order for the other person’s hurt to be validated. What happened to Grace WAS fucked up and whatever feelings he may have about that are reasonable.

BUT!!! You do NOTTT need to be throwing a woman under the bus in order to sympathize with Grace. I couldn’t even rightfully call Eva’s choice to send Ryland to space morally grey, honestly, if you actually consider the options that were presented to her in that moment. Would it not have been more morally grey to choose one guy at the cost of millions of lives? She couldn’t even confirm that he would get to live if he stayed, given the whole DYING SUN THING. Like I feel like in order for someone to be truly morally grey there has to be a morally Better option to choose from. Like- if you put the kindest and most morally virtuous person in all of existence in Eva’s position they would have ALSO had to pick between dooming the earth or dooming one guy. This isn’t about Eva’s morals at all. She was literally just a scapegoat.

FURTHERMORE. I think letting Ryland stay would have been more cruel than sending him to space. Obviously he was scared, enough so that he couldn’t bring himself to make the “selfless” decision when he was given very little time to decide or process what he was being asked to do. But I think it was fairly evident that saying no was tearing him apart internally. He WANTED to be brave. He didn’t want to be the type of person who would choose himself over a world that wouldn’t slowly starve out and kill his students. He did care. But he was terrified and he had three hours at most to come to terms with the prospect of something genuinely horrifying to someone who has never even considered going to space. The people who volunteered had way more time to come to terms with that. It made complete sense that he couldn’t bring himself to agree.

But imagine a world where he was actually allowed to stay and they could not find anyone else to send up. Imagine Ryland Grace, a genuinely kind man at heart who loved his students. Having to watch them realize that they might not even get to grow old. That they were all living on a dying planet where they’d never be given the chance to have children of their own, even if they wanted to. And he would have to live the rest of his life knowing he could’ve changed that y’all the guilt would have killed him in a way that would have been INCOMPREHENSIBLY more agonizing than dying in space. His survival instincts were going to create a personal hell for him that he’d never be able to escape, and it was going to take the rest of the world down with him.

“This might seem like me betraying you, but this is actually me believing in you.” I think this line is so important to Eva’s character. She was not cruel or heartless. She knew that everyone deserved to have a choice and she really wanted to be able to give that to Grace. Unfortunately Eva doesn’t really have a choice either, and the illusion of choice is the closest thing she can offer him. She really really wanted to be able to let Grace choose on his own but she couldn’t. The rest of the world wouldn’t get to choose whether they got to live or die once their sun burnt out. And it is obvious that having to do what she did was hard for her but if she doesn’t make the hard choices that everyone else refuses to make they will ALL die. Ultimately nobody in this film is having to sacrifice as much as Eva Stratt does because the fate of the entire god forsaken planet is fully on her shoulders and no matter what she does she will be demonized for it. Either she fails to save the world and she’s blamed for dooming everyone or she keeps the earth alive and every vital decision she made to do so gets picked apart by the very people who are only still BREATHING because of HER!!!

Eva Stratt had to give up so much and she will never be a hero for it. When she tells Ryland that he will be remembered as a hero she is offering him something that she will never have. What happened to Ryland wasn’t fair but the true visceral horror of the situation my beautiful angel Eva Stratt was forced into is consistently ignored in favor of feeling bad for Ryland and it makes me CRAZY.