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ahh!! working on it as we speak babe! so sorry iâve been m.i.a :(( i live in a LA so with all the fires and school starting for the spring semester itâs been pretty hectic. i promise to have it out asap! âĄâĄ
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synopsis! an unlikely alliance between the pogues and rafe forms as suspicions point to a familiar kook being behind the leaked video, but without proof, the tensionâs impossible to ignore. the group teams up (sort of) to figure it out, but the kook-pogue divide is hanging by a thread, and itâs only a matter of time before things blow up.
pairing: rafe cameron x pogue!reader
warnings: angst , softdom!rafe , sexual content + unprotected shower sex! , fingering , squirting , pogues accidentally hear you and rafe , some fluff , stalker , mature , 18+ (minors dni!)
word count: 7.6k
notes: this is chapter four of my nobody gets me series. click the links below to read the first chapters! âĄ
rafeâs jaw clenched tightly, the muscles ticking as he pressed his phone against his ear, trying to hold back his frustration. wardâs voice droned on from the other end of the line, sharp and condescending, the lecture having gone on for what felt like an eternity.
ââjeopardizing everything, rafe,â ward snapped, his tone cutting through the line like a knife. âour family name is being slandered all over obx, and for what? some girl?â
rafeâs grip on the phone tightened, his knuckles white as his other hand balled into a fist at his side. âitâs not just some girl,â he growled, his voice low.
âoh, really?â ward shot back, the sarcasm in his voice grating. âbecause from where iâm sitting, it looks like youâve let some fling drag our name through the mud. rose is getting calls from everyone for godâs sake! do you even understand the kind of damage this is doing?â
rafeâs breath came in sharp bursts as he stared at the wall, his anger barely contained. âiâm handling it,â he said through gritted teeth, though even he wasnât sure if he believed it anymore.
âhandling it?â ward laughed coldly. âyouâve got a sex tape floating around the island, and the entire town knows itâs you. how, exactly, are you handling it, rafe?â
âjust trust me, okay?â rafe snapped, his voice rising. âiâll take care of it.â
âtrust you?â ward scoffed. âyou canât even keep your nameâand our familyâs nameâout of the gutter. you think iâm going to trust you to clean this up? youâd better figure it out fast, rafe, because iâm not letting this ruin everything iâve built.â
the line went dead before rafe could respond, the sound of the call disconnecting echoing in his ears. his hand trembled as he lowered the phone, his entire body tense with rage. âfucking perfect,â he muttered under his breath, throwing the phone onto the couch as he paced the room, the weight of wardâs words pressing down on him like a boulder.
from the doorway, you stood with your arms crossed, chewing nervously on the inside of your cheek as rafeâs raised voice echoed through the room. you hadnât meant to listen in, but with the way he was practically shouting into the phone, it was impossible not to overhear.
each word dripped with frustration and anger, and though you couldnât hear the other side of the conversation, it wasnât hard to piece together who he was talking toâor what they were talking about. the tension in his tone, the clipped way he spit out his words, made it clear: this wasnât just an argument, it was a full-blown fight.
you shifted uncomfortably, feeling guilty for standing there, but something kept you rooted in place. maybe it was the way his shoulders tensed with every sharp word, or how he gripped the phone like it was the only thing holding him together. youâd never seen him like this, so unfiltered, so completely on edge.
ârafe?â you finally spoke, your voice soft, almost hesitant, as if you were afraid of how he might respond.
his blazed, anger-filled eyes snapped to yours, but the moment he saw you, they softened instantly. the tension in his body seemed to dissipate just slightly, his shoulders dropping. it had been a few days since the video had spread across the island, and this was one of the first times heâd seen you standing on your own.
the sight tugged at his chest. for most of that time, youâd been curled up in his bed, hidden beneath the layers of his oversized hoodie, refusing to eat or even speak to him. it had him worried sick, pacing between his room and the kitchen, trying to figure out how to help you without making things worse.
now, seeing you out of that self-imposed cocoon, he felt a flicker of hope, but also the weight of knowing you were still hurting.
âhey,â he said softly, his tone shifting completely, the frustration from his call gone. âyou⌠you okay?â he asked, his voice careful, as if he were afraid to push too hard and send you retreating again. it was a simple question, but the way he looked at you, like you were the most important thing in the world, made it clear that it wasnât just small talk. he needed to knowâhe had to knowâthat you were okay.
he stepped closer, his movements slow, his eyes scanning your face for any sign of what you were feeling. the silence stretched between you for a moment, heavy and unspoken.
instead of answering, you nodded toward the couch where his phone now sat after being tossed in anger. âdaddy dearest, i assume?â you said quietly, your tone laced with a mix of exhaustion and faint humor, though your heart wasnât really in it.
rafeâs jaw tightened briefly at your words, but then he let out a small, humorless chuckle, running a hand through his hair. âyeah,â he admitted, his voice low. âheâs⌠not exactly thrilled about the current situation.â
he glanced at you, his eyes scanning your face carefully, as though trying to gauge your reaction. âitâs all about the family name, the reputation. nothing new,â he added bitterly, his tone dripping with sarcasm.
you stayed silent for a moment, your arms crossing over your chest as you studied him. âyou okay?â you finally asked, your voice softer this time.
rafe blinked at your question, surprised. heâd been so focused on worrying about you these past few days that he hadnât even thought about how he mustâve looked to youâworn down, tense, and barely keeping it together. âme?â he said, letting out a short, dry laugh. âiâm fine. itâs you Iâm worried about.â
his gaze softened as he stepped closer, his hand hovering near your arm like he wasnât sure if youâd let him touch you. âyou donât have to worry about him,â he murmured. âor anyone else. iâll deal with it.â
you smiled softly, not bothering to answer, and instead stepped closer, wrapping your arms around his neck in a warm embrace. his body stiffened for a split second, like he wasnât expecting it, but then he relaxed into you, his arms circling your waist tightly, as if he was afraid to let go.
now that you were this close, you could see itâhow exhausted he really was. the dark circles under his eyes, the tension in his shoulders that didnât seem to ease even as he held you. rafe had been carrying just as much as you, if not more, and the realization made your chest ache.
his hand slid up to the back of your head, fingers threading gently through your hair as he sighed against your shoulder. âi missed you,â he murmured, his voice barely audible, the vulnerability in his tone catching you off guard. âthese past few days⌠you scared me.â
you tightened your hold on him, burying your face in his neck. âiâm sorry,â you whispered, the words muffled but heartfelt. you hadnât meant to shut him out, but the weight of everything had been too much, and now, standing here in his arms, you felt a flicker of regret for not letting him in sooner.
âitâs okay,â he replied softly, pulling back just enough to look at you. his hands cupped your face, his thumbs brushing against your cheeks as he studied you with those piercing blue eyes that held equal parts concern and relief. âjust⌠donât do that again, okay? i canâtâi donât want to lose you.â
your lips parted, but no words came. instead, you nodded, leaning into his touch, letting the silence between you carry the weight of everything unspoken. slowly, you moved closer, your lips just inches from his when his phone, still resting on the couch, buzzed loudly, breaking the moment.
rafe groaned, running a hand down his face. âcan never have anything, i swear,â he mumbled as he reluctantly reached for the phone after sitting. his annoyance only deepened when he saw the caller id: sarah.
her name flashing across the screen made his jaw tighten, the memory of their last argument still raw. he hesitated for a moment before pressing the phone to his ear.
âwhat?â he snapped, his tone sharp and clipped, already bracing himself for another confrontation.
a pause hung on the other end, the silence making his grip on the phone tighten. when sarah finally spoke, her voice was quieter than usual. âwe need to talk.â
rafe rolled his eyes, leaning back against the couch. âthought we already said everything there was to say,â he muttered impatiently.
ânot about me and you,â sarah replied, her tone softer but still steady. âitâs about y/n.â
his heart stuttered, his posture stiffening as her words registered. âwhat about her?â he demanded, the edge in his voice sharper now, his protective instincts flaring. from the corner of his eye, he saw you chewing your bottom lip, clearly aware they were talking about you.
sarah cleared her throat, her voice carefully controlled. âhow is she doing?â
rafe exhaled, turning his head to glance at you. âsheâs getting there,â he admitted quietly, his tone softening slightly. the weight of his words lingered in the air, the silence on the other end of the line growing heavy.
âgood,â sarah finally said, her voice hesitant. then, she continued, firmer this time. âlisten, the pogues and i are trying to figure out who sent the video. weâve been going over suspects all night andââ
âdonât bother,â rafe cut in sharply, his words curt and dismissive. âi have rob working on it already.â
there was a pause on the other end, the silence practically dripping with disapproval. ârafe,â sarah finally said, her tone measured, âthis isnât something you can just bulldoze through like one of your deals. rob might be good, but this? this is personal.â
âand what, you think you and your little crew can handle it better?â rafe snapped, his voice rising. âthis isnât some pogue treasure hunt, sarah. this is serious shit. sheâs being stalked, and iâm not about to leave this in anyone elseâs hands.â
sarahâs sharp sigh cut through the line, her frustration evident. âitâs not about doing it better, rafe. itâs about doing it together. you think youâre the only one who cares about her? we all do. but if you keep shutting everyone out, youâre just going to make this worseâfor her and for you.â
rafe didnât respond immediately, his jaw tightening as her words sank in. deep down, he knew she was rightâhe couldnât do this alone. but admitting it felt impossible under the crushing weight of guilt and anger pressing on him.
âif you want to help her, youâll work with us. accept the help,â sarah said firmly, her tone leaving no room for argument. âif you can, meet us at the chateauââ
âno,â rafe interrupted quickly, his voice resolute. âiâm not leaving the house when thereâs a whole-ass stalker around, sarah.â
sarah sighed on the other end, her frustration now mixed with understanding. âthen let us come to you,â she offered. âyou donât have to do this alone, rafe. none of us want her to go through this alone either.â
rafe hesitated, his chest tightening at the thought of letting anyone else into the fragile space you both had built. but as much as he hated to admit it, he knew sarah was right. he couldnât do this aloneânot if it meant giving you the support you needed.
âfine,â rafe muttered, glancing at the time on his watch. âbe here in an hour.â before sarah could respond, he ended the call abruptly, tossing his phone back onto the couch with a sigh.
you took careful steps over to him, standing between his legs as he leaned back on the couch, watching your every move. without hesitation, he reached out, his hands gently pulling you down onto his lap so you were straddling him. his arms wrapped securely around your waist as you buried your face into the crook of his neck, breathing in his familiar scent.
his hands moved to your hips, rubbing slow, soothing patterns that made you feel grounded despite the chaos surrounding you. âthank you for letting her in,â you mumbled softly against his skin, your voice barely above a whisper.
he smiled faintly, catching on immediately that you and sarah must have discussed this beforehand. âsneaky,â he murmured, his tone carrying a hint of amusement as his hand moved to cradle the back of your head.
you lifted your face just enough to glance at him, catching the slight curve of his lips. âitâs for the best,â you said gently, your fingers brushing lightly over his biceps.
âweâll see,â he replied, the softness in his voice betraying his usual skepticism. even so, the way he held you closer said he trusted your judgment, even if it meant letting sarahâand the othersâinto your carefully guarded space.
after a moment of silence, you sighed and pushed gently against him, only for rafe to groan in protest, tightening his grip on your waist.
ârafe, i have to shower,â you whined, though there was no real frustration in your voice.
he smirked, muttering a soft, âokay,â before standing up with you still straddling him, his arms securely holding you in place. instinctively, you wrapped your legs around his waist, giggling as he walked the two of you toward his bathroom.
you hid your laughter against his neck, feeling the warmth of his skin as he stepped into the bathroom and set you down on the edge of the sink. his eyes softened as he began peeling your clothes off, taking his time, his movements slow and deliberate. there was something about these moments with rafe that made the rest of the world fade away, like time itself paused just for the two of you.
before long, you were both under the warm spray of the shower, the steam curling around you like a cocoon. rafe stood behind you, his chest pressed to your back as he ran a soapy loofah up your arms, his touch both gentle and grounding. you leaned your head back against his chest, letting your eyes flutter closed, savoring the quiet intimacy between you.
âthis okay?â he murmured softly against your ear, his breath warm against your damp skin.
âmore than okay,â you whispered, your voice barely audible over the sound of the water. moments like this reminded you of the side of rafe that not everyone got to seeâthe side that made you feel safe, loved, and completely seen.
rafe let the warm water cascade over your body, rinsing away the lathered soap as you turned to face him. your eyes met his, and without hesitation, you reached up, finally pressing your lips to his in a slow, passionate kiss. it was soft, yet it carried all the emotions you hadnât been able to express in the past few days.
he froze for a moment, caught off guard by the suddenness of it, but then his hands found your waist, pulling you closer as he deepened the kiss. it was as if the tension in his chest melted away, his heart pounding against his ribs as he poured everything heâd been holding back into the moment.
he practically lost feeling in his legs, the relief washing over him as much as the water did. it had been days since youâd let him kiss you, days of tiptoeing around your emotions and giving you the space you needed. not that it mattered to him how long it tookâhe wouldâve waited forever if you needed him to.
but god, heâd missed this. the way your lips moved against his, the way your fingers tangled in his wet hair, the way your body pressed against his like it was made to fit perfectly there. it was killing him to restrain himself, to not touch you the way he wanted to.
he let out a soft groan, his hands sliding up your back to cradle your face as he pulled back slightly, resting his forehead against yours. âmissed you,â he murmured, his voice low and rough, his eyes fluttering closed as he let himself savor the moment.
âiâm here,â you whispered back, your thumb brushing over his cheek as you smiled softly.
he opened his eyes, a flicker of vulnerability shining in them before he kissed you again, slower this time, like he was trying to memorize the feel of you all over again. in that moment, nothing else matteredânot the chaos, not the fearâjust you and him, together under the steady rhythm of the water.
the kiss deepened, growing messier and more desperate as rafe pressed you firmly against the cold tiles. the chill of the surface sent a jolt through your body, a soft whimper escaping your lips that only fueled his hunger.
his hand slid from your hair, trailing down your damp skin until it reached the heat between your thighs. the moment his fingers slipped between your folds, he groaned low and guttural, the sound vibrating against your lips as your jaw went slack.
âshit,â rafe muttered, his voice thick with need as his lips brushed against yours. his fingers teased your clit, circling just enough to drive you insane. âso fuckinâ wet, huh? just for me?â
you nodded frantically, your breath hitching as he circled your clit faster, pulling a moan from deep within your chest. âjust for you,â you whimpered, your nails digging into his shoulders for support.
rafeâs cock twitched painfully against his stomach, the sight of you unraveling beneath him nearly pushing him over the edge. âfuck,â he growled, his hips pressing into your hip in a slow, desperate grind. âyouâre driving me insane, baby. canât even think straight.â
his fingers worked faster, slipping inside you as his thumb stayed focused on your swollen bud. the obscene wet sounds of his movements filled the small space, mixing with your breathy moans and his ragged curses. âyou feel so good,â he muttered against your neck, his voice strained as he continued to rut against you, craving more.
ârafe,â you moaned, your voice shaky as your body began to tremble against the tiles. âpleaseâŚâ
he smirked against your skin, his teeth grazing your ear as he murmured, âplease what? tell me what you need.â his fingers curled inside you, hitting the spot that made your vision blur, pulling another cry from your lips. âcome on, use your words.â
âhmphâi need you to fuck me,â you whined, your voice trembling with desperation. the words barely left your lips before a sharp gasp escaped you, rafeâs fingers suddenly speeding up, plunging deeper as his thumb pressed harder against your clit.
âyeah?â he rasped, his voice thick with lust, his lips ghosting over your jaw as he watched the way your body writhed beneath his touch. âyou want me to fuck you, baby? want me to stretch this pretty pussy out?â
you could only nod, your breath hitching as his fingers worked you relentlessly, your hips bucking against his hand. his cock twitched again, painfully hard and pressed against you, and he groaned low in his throat. âyouâre so fuckinâ needy,â he muttered, biting down lightly on your neck before soothing the spot with his tongue. âlook at you, begging for it.â
your hands gripped his biceps, your nails digging into his skin as your legs started to shake, the tension in your core building to unbearable heights. âplease,â you whimpered, your voice breaking as his movements didnât relent. âplease, rafe.â
âoh, iâll fuck you,â he growled, pulling his hand away abruptly, leaving you whimpering at the sudden loss of contact. before you could even voice a protest, he grabbed your thighs, lifting you effortlessly so your legs wrapped securely around his waist. he pressed you harder against the cold tiles, his lips brushing your ear as he continued, âbut you gotta cum for me first.â
his fingers slid back inside you, curling perfectly to hit that spot that had you gasping, your back arching against the wall. his thumb found your clit again, rubbing quick, tight circles that made your legs tremble around his hips.
âshow me how bad you want it,â he growled, his pace relentless, his voice rough and commanding. the intensity of his touch had you spiraling in no time, your body writhing against his as heat coiled low in your stomach.
you clung to his shoulders as you fell apart, crying out his name so loudly it echoed off the shower walls. ârafe!â you gasped, your body shaking as the waves of your release crashed over you, leaving you a trembling mess in his arms.
he didnât stop, drawing out every second of your orgasm until you were practically sobbing from the pleasure. a smug grin spread across his face as he watched you, his chest heaving against yours. âthatâs my girl,â he murmured, his tone laced with pride.
he slowly pulled his fingers from you, glistening with your release, and without breaking eye contact, he brought them to his lips, sucking them clean with a satisfied groan. his eyes darkened as he savored the taste, his grin widening. âso sweet,â he muttered, his voice low and rough.
he tightened his hold on you, his strong hands gripping your hips as he pulled back just enough to create the space you needed. your shaky fingers trailed down between your bodies, wrapping around his swollen, throbbing cock. his breath hitched, and a low, guttural moan escaped his lips as you pumped him a few times, feeling the heat and weight of him against your palm.
âfuck,â rafe muttered, his head dropping to your shoulder as his fingers dug into your skin, the tension in his body palpable. âyouâre gonna kill me, baby.â
you smirked faintly, your confidence bolstered by his reaction, before guiding him to your entrance. the blunt head of his cock brushed against your slick folds, and you both let out soft, shaky breaths as the anticipation built between you.
he pushed forward just enough for the thick, swollen tip of his cock to slip into your warmth, pulling a moan from both of you. the stretch was intoxicating, the way he filled you so slowly making your breath hitch.
âfuck,â rafe groaned, his voice rough and strained as he paused, savoring the way you clenched around him. his forehead pressed against yours, his hot breath mingling with yours as he struggled to hold himself back. âso tight. so perfect for me.â
your hips shifted instinctively, urging him deeper as a needy whimper escaped your lips. ârafe, please,â you gasped, your voice trembling with desperation. âi need you.â
his jaw tightened, and he smirked faintly, though his restraint was hanging by a thread. âyeah? you want all of me?â he rasped, his hands gripping your hips tightly as he pressed a kiss to your parted lips, stealing your breath.
rafe groaned deeply as he pushed in further, the warmth of you pulling him in like a vice. every inch he gave you sent sparks shooting through your body, and the stretch had your head falling back against the cold tile, a desperate moan spilling from your lips.
âfuck,â he hissed, his jaw tightening as he bottomed out, your walls squeezing him so perfectly it nearly made him lose his mind. âyou feel so fuckinâ good, baby. like you were made for me.â
you could barely respond, your breath hitching as he stayed there for a moment, letting you adjust to the fullness of him. his hands gripped your hips firmly, keeping you steady against the tiles as his lips found your neck, biting and sucking softly, leaving trails of heat wherever he touched.
âmove,â you finally gasped, your nails digging into his shoulders as the ache turned into pure, unfiltered need. ârafe, please.â
he pulled back just enough to tease you, his cock dragging along your walls in a way that made your toes curl before slamming back into you, forcing a loud cry from your lips.
âthatâs it,â he growled, finding a rhythm that had the obscene sound of skin against skin echoing in the shower. his grip on your hips tightened as he thrust into you with a hunger that made your head spin. âlet me hear you, pretty girl. let everyone know whoâs making you feel this good.â
rafeâs pace grew relentless, his hips snapping against yours with precision, each thrust driving him deeper until he was brushing that perfect spot inside you over and over. your body arched against the tiles, your hands clawing at his back as waves of pleasure crashed through you.
ârafe,â you whimpered, your voice breaking as the pressure inside you built to an almost unbearable peak. the sound of his grunts and the wet slaps of your bodies filled the air, mingling with your desperate cries. âi canâtâoh my god, iââ
âyes, you can,â rafe growled, his voice dark and commanding as his thumb found your clit, rubbing firm, tight circles that sent you spiraling. âyouâre gonna give me everything, princess. let it all go.â
you clenched tightly around him, your body trembling as the heat in your core exploded, and with a broken cry, the release hit you hard. the gush of liquid that followed was undeniable, coating rafeâs abdomen and making him groan loudly, his pace faltering for just a second.
âfuck, baby,â he hissed, his voice laced with awe and arousal as he felt you squirting around him, the sheer intensity of your release pushing him closer to the edge. âlook at you, soaking me. so fuckinâ perfect.â
your legs trembled around his waist, your head falling back against the tiles as aftershocks coursed through you. but rafe didnât stop. he kept his hips moving, chasing his own release as his hands gripped your ass tightly, holding you against him.
he groaned as he slammed into you one last time, his cock throbbing as he spilled inside you. his grip on you tightened as he buried himself as deep as possible, his breath ragged against your neck.
your body went limp in his arms, both of you trembling from the intensity of what just happened.
he leaned his forehead against yours, a cocky smirk playing on his lips as he caught his breath. ânever getting over that,â he muttered, his voice filled with pride. âyouâre fuckinâ unreal.â
your cheeks warmed instantly at the reminder of what had just happened, and you groaned softly, covering your face with both hands in an attempt to hide your embarrassment. âshut up,â you mumbled, your voice muffled behind your palms.
rafe laughed, a low, satisfied sound, before carefully helping you back onto your feet. your legs trembled slightly, but his steady hands on your hips kept you balanced. once you were stable, he reached up to gently pull your hands away from your face, his lips brushing against yours in a soft, tender kiss.
âitâs okay,â he murmured, a teasing smirk tugging at his lips as he leaned back just enough to look at you. âmeans i did something right.â
your eyes narrowed playfully, and you smacked his chest with a laugh. ârafe!â
he chuckled, rubbing the spot where your hand landed as if it actually hurt. âwhat? just sayinâ.â his smirk widened, and the way he was looking at youâwith that cocky, yet adoring gleam in his eyesâhad your heart fluttering despite yourself.
you and rafe were still giggling over some inside joke as you made your way into the living room, his arm lazily draped around your waist, his hand resting instinctively on your hip. but the laughter died on your lips the moment you noticed your friends sitting on the couches, their expressions ranging from awkward to downright tense.
rafeâs brows furrowed immediately, his grip on your hip tightening slightly as his eyes flicked between them. âhow the fuck did you guys get in?â he asked sharply, his tone clipped.
sarah cleared her throat, clearly the one to break the silence as she held up a familiar house key. her lips were pressed into a tight line,
her eyes avoiding yours. âi still have my key,â she said quietly, the tension in the air thick enough to cut with a knife.
your stomach twisted uncomfortably as you glanced between sarah and the rest of the pogues. their silence spoke volumes, and rafeâs jaw tightened beside you, his protectiveness radiating off him in waves. he stared them down, clearly less than thrilled about the uninvited intrusion.
âis there a reason youâre all just⌠sitting here?â rafe asked, his tone touched with impatience as his gaze lingered pointedly on sarah.
pope shifted awkwardly in his seat, his tone measured as he explained, âwe knocked at first, but since no one answered, we thought something was wrong.â
before you could respond, jj piped up with his signature sarcasm. âjesus, bro, we thought you were killing her in there.â
your gasp was immediate, your cheeks heating with mortification as you stammered, âjj!â you quickly brought your hands to your face, covering it in embarrassment.
rafe, on the other hand, didnât miss a beat. his lips curled into a smug smirk, his hand tightening on your hip in a way that made your stomach flip. âif i was,â he drawled cockily, âshe was screaming for the right reasons.â
ârafe!â you hissed, swatting his chest in mortified protest. his chuckle only deepened, clearly unbothered by the tension in the room. jj snorted, shaking his head in amusement, while sarah groaned audibly, pinching the bridge of her nose as if trying to physically block out the mental image.
âcan we not?â sarah muttered, her voice low and dripping with exasperation. âiâm already traumatized enough as it is.â
rafe shot her an amused grin, his hand still possessively resting on your hip. âyouâre traumatized? imagine how i feel, dealing with all of you breaking into my house.â
jj leaned back on the couch, throwing an arm over the backrest with an exaggerated shrug. âoh, come on, man. we knocked. you didnât answer, and honestly, from all that ruckus i donât blameââ he wiggles his eyebrows suggestively before you cut in.
your cheeks burned hotter, and you groaned, burying your face in your hands. âoh my god, can we talk about literally anything else?â
âagreed,â sarah interjected quickly, shooting jj a death glare before turning her sharp gaze to rafe. âwe didnât come here for⌠this. we came because we have a problem to deal with. remember?â her tone turned serious, and the atmosphere in the room shifted.
rafeâs smirk faded instantly, his expression hardening as he stood a little straighter. âwhat problem?â he asked, his grip on your hip tightening protectively, his eyes narrowing as they locked on his sister.
âwe might have a lead,â kie said, her voice cautious as her eyes flickered between you and rafe. âand itâs got more people involved than we think, iâm sure.â
rafe groaned in frustration, running a hand through his hair before sinking onto the couch, pulling you down to sit beside him. his hand rested protectively on your thigh as if grounding himself. sarahâs sharp eyes didnât miss the subtle action, but she chose not to comment. instead, she simply observed, noting how much rafeâs demeanor had shifted in the past few weeks. he caredâmore than sheâd expected him to.
âso whoâs the lead?â rafe snapped, his tone impatient as he looked around the room, waiting for someone to speak up.
after a moment of silence, john b finally answered, âwe think itâs barry.â
the name was barely out of john bâs mouth when rafeâs entire demeanor changed. his eyes blazed with fury, his jaw tightening as his hand gripped your thigh. âiâm gonna kill that motherfucker,â rafe growled, his voice low and dangerous.
ârafe, wait,â sarah interjected quickly, holding up her hands as if to calm him. âwe donât know for sure yet.â
âi donât need to know for sure,â rafe snapped back, his tone laced with venom. âif barryâs even remotely involved in this, heâs dead.â his leg bounced with barely contained energy, his rage practically vibrating off of him.
âlook, weâre all pissed,â pope said, his voice firm but measured. âbut if we go in guns blazing without proof, weâre just gonna make it worse.â
rafeâs jaw clenched, his nostrils flaring as he fought to rein in his temper. âheâs not getting away with this,â he muttered darkly, his gaze flicking to you briefly, softening for just a moment before hardening again. ânot after what heâs done.â
âyou said there were more people involved,â you finally spoke up, your voice soft but steady as your fingers absentmindedly traced soothing patterns on rafeâs knuckles. his hand had been clenched into a tight fist, but your touch seemed to ease some of the tension, his grip relaxing slightly under your gentle movements.
all eyes turned to kie, who nodded slowly. âweâre not sure how many, but itâs definitely not just barry,â she explained. âthe way the video spread so fast, the timingâitâs organized. someone else is pulling strings here.â
rafe let out a low growl, his jaw tightening again. âso who the fuck else is it?â he demanded, his voice sharp and filled with impatience.
âwe donât know yet,â john b admitted, his tone cautious. âbut if itâs barry, then itâs probably someone heâs working with. he doesnât have the brains to pull something like this off on his own.â
âor the resources,â pope added, leaning forward with a frown. âheâs got connections, but not that kind of reach.â
you glanced at rafe, watching the way his chest rose and fell as he tried to rein in his anger. his knuckles had whitened from the tension in his fists, so you gave his hand a gentle squeeze, grounding him. âdo you think itâs a kook?â you asked softly, your gaze flicking between him and the rest of the group.
âone hundred percent,â jj cut in before rafe could answer, his tone dripping with disdain. âit always fuckinâ is.â he leaned back on the couch, crossing his arms as he shot a glare toward sarah, almost as if it were her fault by association.
sarah rolled her eyes, exhaling sharply. ânot every kook is out to ruin your life, jj.â
âno, just the ones we keep having to deal with,â he shot back, his voice filled with sarcasm. âyou canât sit there and tell me itâs not a rich prick playing their stupid games.â
âjj, come on,â kie interjected, her tone firm but measured. âthis isnât the time for finger-pointing.â
âiâm not pointing fingers. iâm stating facts,â jj muttered, his eyes darting to rafe with a slight smirk, the tension palpable. âbut hey, maybe lover boy over here can tell us which one of his old kook buddies likes playing stalker.â
rafeâs hand tightened in yours at the jab, his knuckles turning white. his eyes locked on jj, his tone sharp and dangerous as he shot back, âif i knew, then you wouldnât be sitting on my couch.â
jj raised his hands in mock surrender, a smirk still playing on his lips. âeasy. just saying, you might want to start with your crew. iâm sure barryâs not the only one whoâd love to see you squirm.â
rafeâs jaw clenched, his breathing steady but filled with tension. you squeezed his hand gently, your thumb brushing soothing circles over his skin, grounding him before he could escalate things further. âjj,â you said softly, your voice carrying a hint of warning, ânot helping.â
âwhat?â jj shrugged, leaning back casually. âiâm just being honest.â
âhonest or not, we donât need to start a fight,â kie interjected, giving jj a pointed look. âweâre here to figure this out, not throw punches.â
âyet,â rafe muttered under his breath, his voice low enough for only you to hear. you glanced up at him, catching the flicker of anger in his eyes. despite the tension radiating off him, the way he stayed seated and quiet told you he was tryingâtrying to keep himself in check, for you.
you sighed softly, your eyes flickering down to your lap as your thoughts raced. the room was still thick with tension, everyone quietly waiting for the next lead, the next idea. then, a name surfaced in your mind. the name that had haunted you since this all started. your throat tightened as you hesitated, but you knew you had to say it.
âwhat about stacy?â you croaked, your voice barely above a whisper.
the room went silent, the weight of the name settling over everyone like a dark cloud. rafeâs grip on your hand tightened instinctively, his jaw clenching as his head turned sharply to look at you. âstacy?â he repeated, his voice low and cautious, though you could feel the storm brewing behind his words.
you nodded, your fingers fiddling with the hem of your shirt as you avoided his gaze. âthat day at the country club,â you murmured. âshe probably saw us together at the beach. and after⌠everything with you and her dad⌠i donât know, it just feels like she might have a reason.â
rafe sighed heavily, his jaw tightening as he shook his head. âbaby, not this again. i told youââ
âiâm not saying it to start an argument,â you cut him off, your tone firmer now. âiâm saying it because iâve always had a weird feeling about her, and it just seems too convenient. think about it, rafe. itâs obvious she wants you, and who knows how far sheâs willing to go to get you.â
your words hung in the air, the room going still as everyone absorbed what youâd just said. rafeâs gaze softened slightly, his hand brushing over yours in an attempt to calm you. âi told you, stacyâs nothing to me,â he said quietly, his voice steady but laced with frustration. âsheâs not a threat.â
âbut what if she is?â you countered, finally meeting his eyes. âwe canât just ignore this because you donât think sheâd go that far. we have to consider it, especially if sheâs been watching us.â
rafeâs expression hardened as he processed your words, his jaw tightening. âokay,â he finally said, his voice low but resolute. âweâll look into it.â
you nodded, encouraged by his response, and pressed on. âand especially since you said her dadâs company is your familyâs biggest competitor,â you continued, your voice steady despite the emotions simmering beneath the surface. âputting out a video like that? it would ruin everythingâfor you, for me, for the cameron name. it makes sense.â
sarah leaned forward, her eyes narrowing in thought. âsheâs got the motive,â she said, her tone thoughtful but sharp. âif sheâs working with barry or someone else, sheâd have the connections to pull this off. and sheâs petty enough to do it.â
kie nodded in agreement, crossing her arms. âitâs not just about you two, either. if her dadâs in on this, heâd see this as a way to take a shot at the whole cameron empire. barry could be the perfect tool for that.â
you sighed, running a hand through your damp hair, trying to steady your spiraling thoughts. deep down, you knew stacy was behind this. your instincts screamed it, pointing at her with flashing lights and blaring alarms. every interaction youâd ever had with her, every sidelong glance and calculated move, seemed to line up perfectly with what was happening now. but you couldnât let your emotions or personal bias cloud your judgmentânot when so much was at stake.
no matter how much you despised her, you needed proof. assumptions wouldnât get you anywhere, and acting on feelings alone could backfire. you clenched your jaw, forcing yourself to take a deep breath, your fingers still tangled in your hair as you glanced around the room.
âwe canât jump to conclusions,â you said finally, your voice quieter but firm. âeven if it feels obvious, we need evidence. if we accuse the wrong person, it could make everything worse.â
rafeâs eyes flicked to yours, his gaze softening slightly at your visible stress. âthen we get the evidence,â he said simply, his voice steady.
âweâll figure it out,â sarah reassured, giving you a small nod. âif itâs stacy, weâll make sure she doesnât get away with this.â
you swallowed hard, forcing yourself to push your emotions aside. you had to stay focused. if stacy was behind this, she wouldnât just regret itâyouâd make sure of it.
it was her. it had to be.
hours passed, and the pogues eventually went home. to your surprise, none of them brought up you and rafe, even during the moments he retreated elsewhere briefly. they acted perfectly normal about it, which somehow unsettled you more than if theyâd confronted you outright. the silence felt heavier than words.
rafe had left you in the living room, curled up on the couch with a blanket tucked beneath your chin. now, he sat in his office, his jaw tight as he scrolled through emails from robâeach one filled with dead ends and pointless leads. his stress was evident, his hand dragging down his face in frustration while his leg bounced uncontrollably beneath the desk.
his eyes flicked to the painting on the wall, knowing exactly what was behind it: the safe that held passports, emergency cash, and, most importantly, his gun. john bâs words replayed in his mind like a broken record: we think itâs barry.
without hesitation, rafe stood abruptly, striding over to the painting and pulling it aside. he opened the safe, the cold steel of the gun feeling heavy and familiar in his grip. his mind was set.
walking out to the living room, he paused when his eyes landed on you. you were sound asleep on the couch, your blanket pulled up to your chin, lips parted as soft, even breaths escaped them. the sight of you like thisâso peaceful, so unaware of the storm brewing in his chestâmade him falter for a moment.
but then, his jaw tightened, and his grip on the gun firmed. he leaned against the doorway, watching you for another moment before turning away, his mind already spiraling with what he needed to do next.
you groaned softly, the buzzing of your phone vibrating underneath your pillow pulling you from your sleep. your eyes squinted as you grabbed it, reading the contact on the screen. it didnât have a name, just a random number, but below it read maybe: kildare police department.
your heart hammered in your chest as you hesitated before pressing the green button and holding the phone to your ear. âhello?â you asked, your voice groggy and uneasy.
âhey, baby,â a familiar voice greeted, and your stomach dropped.
ârafe?â you stammered, your heart racing as panic crept in. âwhatâsââ
before you could finish, your phone buzzed again, vibrating against your ear. you pulled it away and gasped softly, your breath catching in your throat as the notification popped up.
unknown: your boyfriend shouldnât have done that. now youâre all alone.
unknown: one image attachment.
with trembling fingers, you opened the photo, only to feel your entire body freeze. it was a picture of you, taken in the exact spot you were sitting right now. it captured the moment you had picked up your phone, your expression clear and startled.
your blood ran cold as you instinctively glanced around the room, your heart pounding so hard it felt like it might burst. someone was watching you. someone was here.
âiâm sorry to do this to you, but can you come pickââ rafe began, his voice heavy with frustration as he sighed into the phone. sheriff shoup stood nearby, giving him a disapproving look, clearly unimpressed with his request.
before rafe could finish, your voice came through the line, frantic and low, cutting him off mid-sentence. ârafe! someoneâs here. they sent me a picture of me at the houseââ
the line suddenly went dead.
rafe froze, the color draining from his face as the silence on the other end of the call sank in. his grip on the phone tightened, his knuckles turning white as panic surged through him. âno, no, no,â he muttered under his breath, his heart pounding in his chest.
he didnât even bother explaining to shoup before bolting out the door, his mind racing with worst-case scenarios. whoever had sent you that picture wasnât just threatening anymoreâthey were acting.
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trope: rafe cameron x pogue!reader | best friendâs brother | friends with benefits
synopsis! after secretly hooking up with rafe cameron, your best friendâs brother, things were supposed to stay casualâjust sexâbut feelings got involved, and everything spiraled out of control. when a compromising video of you and rafe gets leaked and ends up in sarahâs hands, it triggers a chain reaction of pogue-kook drama, rafeâs obsessive need to protect you, and his refusal to admit heâs in love with you until youâre practically falling apart.
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synopsis! a day at the beach with your friends turns into a nightmare when another explicit video of you and rafe is leakedânot just to you, but to everyone on the island, including your friends. as notifications spread and shocked whispers fill the air, youâre left frozen as their betrayed stares fall on you, while rafe scrambles to figure out whoâs behind it before everything spirals even further.
âyou donât have to do this, baby,â rafe murmurs, his voice soft but resolute as he shifts the truck into park in front of the chateau. his hand remained tightly wrapped around the steering wheel, knuckles white with tension. his gaze flickers toward you, his concern barely hidden behind the sunglasses resting on the bridge of his nose. even with them on, you can feel the weight of his worry.
you offer him a small smile, your fingers grazing over his hand that rested on your thigh in soft, soothing patterns. âyeah, i do,â you reply gently, your tone leaving no room for argument.
rafe sighs, his head falling back onto the headrest in defeat. heâd spent the entire morning trying to convince you to stay at home, wrapped in blankets, resting in bed. but, as always, your stubbornness had won out, leaving him no choice but to relent. âfine,â he mutters, the frustration in his voice giving way to reluctant acceptance.
he turns his head to look at you, his jaw tightening slightly before he speaks again. âbut if anythingâanythingâhappens, promise me youâll call me. the meeting wonât take long, and even if it does, iâll dip the second my phone rings, okay?â
his eyes search yours, and even behind his calm demeanor, you can sense the unease brewing in him, his protective instincts battling with his need to trust your judgment.
instead of responding, you lean in, your movement slow and deliberate, and rafeâs lips part slightly, already leaning forward to meet you halfway. just as he thinks youâre about to kiss him, you swerve at the last second, pressing a playful kiss to his cheek instead.
his breath hitches, and you pull back with a teasing smile, watching as his jaw clenches slightly. âseriously?â he mutters, his voice low, though thereâs a hint of amusement behind it.
you shrug, feigning innocence. âwhat? thought you said you were in a rush,â you tease, your smile widening as his hand instinctively reaches out to curl around your wrist, tugging you just slightly closer.
âyouâre such a brat,â he murmurs, but thereâs a softness in his tone that makes your stomach flutter.
he doesnât let your teasing slide for long. his hand moves swiftly, gently gripping your chin between his fingers, tilting your face back toward him. before you can react, he leans in and pulls your bottom lip between his, his teeth grazing it lightly as he sucks just enough to leave your heart racing.
âyou think youâre funny, huh?â he murmurs against your lips, his voice low and teasing, the warmth of his breath sending a shiver down your spine. his eyes flicker to yours, a smug grin tugging at the corners of his mouth as he watches your playful demeanor falter under his touch.
âcomedian, really,â you retort, your tone playfully defiant but edged with resolve as you pull away, breaking the tension before it can swallow you whole. you know better than to lingerâhe has a way of blurring your thoughts, clouding your judgment, and pulling you into him without a second thought.
you lean back in your seat, putting a little distance between you, but the amused glint in his eyes tells you heâs not letting it go that easily. âyou keep running, baby,â he says with a smirk, âwe both know how that ends.â
you roll your eyes, shaking your head with a soft laugh, but your chest tightens at how easily he gets under your skin.
and heâs been under your skin for the last couple of days, making up for all the time you two werenât together. it was as though once the dam broke, neither of you could hold back anymore. the night you stayed at tannyhill was your first, but it changed something.
rafe had spent hours watching you sleep peacefully beside him, the faint rise and fall of your chest grounding him in a way he didnât expect. it was in those quiet moments, with the moonlight spilling through his window, that he realized just how much he wanted thisâyou. having you there, tangled in his sheets, felt too natural, too right, and the thought of waking up without you felt almost unbearable.
you, however, were still trying to wrap your head around the shift. as much as you wanted to stay guarded, rafe had a way of breaking down your walls, piece by piece, with every lingering look and whispered confession. and the longer you stayed in his orbit, the harder it was to imagine pulling away.
so here you were, parked outside of john bâs chateau, about to face the truth youâd been avoiding. it was time to find out just how hard it would be to untangle yourself from the mess you and rafe had created.
you needed to talk to sarah. if she wasnât going to answer your calls or texts, then youâd just have to grow a pair and confront her in person. the thought made your stomach churn, but you couldnât let it sit any longer. you couldnât let the silence stretch on.
taking a deep breath, you glanced over at rafe, his usual confidence replaced with a quiet tension as he watched you. this wasnât going to be easyânot for you, not for her, and especially not with him so deeply entangled in it all.
âokay, iâll see you later,â you finally say, your voice steady despite the nerves swirling in your chest. you grip the door handle and step out before you can second-guess yourself, glancing back as rafe rolls down the window.
âdo you want me to pick you up if you stay?â he calls after you, his tone casual but laced with subtle concern.
you shake your head, offering a faint smile. âno, i have to go home before my mom files a missing persons report,â you joke, trying to lighten the tension in the air.
rafeâs lips curve into a lazy smile, the kind that always makes your heart flutter no matter how hard you try to fight it. âokay, babe. call me later,â he says, his eyes lingering on you for a moment before he reverses down the hill, his truck disappearing as you make your way to the porch.
your stomach twists as you pause in front of the door, bracing yourself for whatâs to come. thereâs no turning back now.
you suck in a sharp breath, steadying yourself before opening the screen door and stepping inside. the familiar smell of the chateau hits you instantly, along with the sight of jj and pope lounging on the couch in their swim trunks, looking as if they hadnât moved all day.
âwell, look who the cat dragged in,â jj smirks, his signature grin spreading across his face as he stands up. before you can react, he scoops you up off the ground, spinning you around as you burst into a fit of laughter, caught completely off guard.
âwhere have you been?â pope asks, standing to give you a hug once jj finally sets you back on your feet. âsarah said your mom had you on house arrest after what happened on the beach.â his smile is warm, the same steady presence that always makes you feel welcome here.
you laugh lightly, brushing a stray piece of hair behind your ear. âsomething like that,â you reply, avoiding giving too much detail as your eyes quickly scan the room, searching for sarah.
âwell, youâre just in time,â jj says with a shrug, a mischievous grin spreading across his face. âthe swell just hit the beach. obviously, you sensed it and rushed over here to spend it with us. so, go get dressed.â
you roll your eyes, laughing softly at his logic, but before you can respond, pope sighs dramatically from the couch. âweâve been waiting for an hour for the girls to get ready,â he groans, throwing his head back like heâs truly suffering. âplease donât make us wait another.â
âi didnât even say i was going surfing,â you tease, earning a pointed look from jj.
âdonât even try to get out of it,â jj retorts, crossing his arms and narrowing his eyes. âyouâre here, youâre surfing. thatâs the deal.â
you laugh again, shaking your head at their antics, but you canât deny the warmth spreading in your chest at how easily they include you, like no time has passed.
it made you feel good, a small wave of relief washing over you. if jj and pope werenât mad at you, then that must mean sarah hadnât told them about you and rafe. the thought of their disappointed faces, their trust crumbling, had been eating away at you. the relief was fleeting but welcome.
you slipped out of the living room, making your way to the bedroom where you, sarah, and kie usually got ready together. with a soft knock on the door, you waited until you heard a muffled âcome in!â before pushing it open.
kie stood in front of the body-length mirror, tying the knot of her bikini top behind her neck. her eyes widened at your reflection in the glass, and before you could say anything, she spun around, rushing over to pull you into a tight hug.
âoh my god! hi, baby,â she exclaimed, her voice filled with relief. âi was worried sick!â her arms wrapped around you like she hadnât seen you in years, and the familiar warmth of her embrace made your chest ache.
âiâm okay,â you murmured, managing a small smile as you hugged her back. but the tension lingering in your shoulders reminded you that this wasnât overânot yet. you still had to face sarah.
âhey, whereâs sarah?â you ask softly as you and kie pull back from the hug.
âoh, sheâs in the bathroom but should beââ kie begins, only to be cut off by sarahâs voice as she steps into the room.
âgod, remind me not to go in there after jj,â sarah whines, fanning her hand in front of her face with an exaggerated grimace, followed by a laugh. but as her eyes meet yours, the laughter dies on her lips. her smile fades, replaced by something unreadable.
the sudden shift in her expression makes your stomach drop, and for a moment, the room feels heavier, quieter. sarahâs gaze lingers on you, her lips pressing into a thin line before she looks away, pretending to adjust the straps of her bikini.
kie glances between the two of you, sensing the tension but staying quiet, unsure of whatâs going on.
âkie, you mind if i talk to sarah really quick?â you ask, your tone soft, a small smile on your lips that you hope conveys the plea you donât say out loud.
kie hesitates for a moment, her eyes flicking between you and sarah before nodding. she grabs her sandals from the floor and heads toward the door. âyeah, of course,â she says, though her voice is uncertain. with one last glance at the two of you, she steps out, closing the door quietly behind her.
you let out a small breath, sitting on the edge of the bed, your fingers nervously fidgeting with the hem of your shirt. your eyes flicker to sarah as she moves around the room, slipping on a loose button-up over her bikini, her movements slower than usual, almost deliberate.
the silence stretches, heavy and awkward, until you finally break it. âyou didnât tell them,â you say softly, your voice careful but steady as you watch her closely.
sarah pauses for a moment, her hands stilling on the buttons of her shirt before she finally meets your gaze. thereâs a flicker of something in her eyesâhurt, frustration, maybe even guiltâbut she doesnât say anything right away.
âno,â she finally croaks, her voice strained as she fidgets with the buttons of her shirt. her eyes flick away from yours, landing somewhere on the floor. âi figured one betrayal was enough.â
her words hit you like a punch to the gut, the weight of them settling heavily in the space between you. her tone isnât angryâitâs quiet, almost resignedâand somehow that makes it worse.
âsarah, iââ you start, but she cuts you off with a shake of her head, finally looking at you again. her expression is a mix of hurt and disappointment, and it makes your chest tighten painfully.
âwhy didnât you just tell me?â she asks, her voice soft but raw. âwas i really that awful to you that you thought you couldnât?â
you stand abruptly, the sudden motion startling even yourself. shaking your head, you blurt out, âno, sarah. thatâs not it at all. iâi donât know what i was thinking.â your voice trembles slightly as you drop your head into one of your hands, trying desperately to gather your scattered thoughts.
âwhat happened between me and rafe was so unexpected, andâŚâ you trail off, taking a deep breath before continuing. âi donât know. i just thought that if i told you the moment it happened, you wouldnât understand. and i know that you two arenât exactly close, so i figured it would be a one-time thing and never again.â
you glance up at her, searching for some sign of understanding in her expression, but her face is unreadable. the silence stretches, making you fumble to explain further.
âbut it wasnât just one time,â you admit, your voice quieter now. âand then it just⌠spiraled. and i didnât know how to tell you, sarah. i didnât want to lose you.â
sarah crosses her arms, leaning back against the dresser, her gaze heavy on you. her lips press into a thin line as she exhales deeply, the weight of your words sinking in.
âso you lied to me,â she finally says, her tone flat but laced with hurt. âyou let it spiral instead of just⌠telling me. you didnât even give me a chance to try to understand.â
âi know,â you reply quickly, your voice barely above a whisper. âi know, and iâm so sorry, sarah. i should have told you from the start. i should have trusted you.â
âyeah, you should have,â she snaps, the sharpness in her tone catching you off guard. her eyes glisten slightly, though she blinks quickly to hide it. âbecause now, it feels like you didnât trust me at all. like you didnât even think about what keeping this from me would do.â
âi was scared,â you admit, your voice breaking as you step closer to her. âscared of how youâd react, scared of what it would mean for our friendship. and i know that doesnât excuse it, but itâs the truth. i didnât want to hurt you.â
sarah looks away, her jaw tightening as she processes your words. after a long pause, she speaks again, her voice quieter this time. âyou didnât just keep it from meâyou let it keep happening. and now thereâs this⌠this video, and youâre the one dealing with all of that, not him.â
âweâre going to fix it,â you say, almost defensively. âheâs doing everything he can to make sure iâm okay and that it goes away.â
âof course he is,â sarah replies, meeting your eyes again. âbecause heâs the one who pulled you into this mess in the first place. and i know rafeâhe doesnât stop until he gets what he wants. but, babe, are you sure this is what you want?â
her words hang heavy in the air, and you hesitate, unsure of how to answer. the question sinks into you like a weight.
is this what i want?
the truth swirls in your chest, complicated and tangled. you chew on your bottom lip, avoiding her gaze for a moment as you try to form the words.
âi donât know,â you finally admit, your voice barely above a whisper. âi know how it looks, but itâs not as simple as that. rafe⌠heâs not just some mistake, sarah. itâs more than that. and yeah, itâs messy and complicated, butââ you pause, meeting her gaze. âbut it feels real.â
sarah exhales sharply, her arms dropping to her sides as she shakes her head. âreal?â she repeats, her tone laced with disbelief. âheâs my brother. the same brother whoâs lied, manipulated, and hurt everyone in his path. do you really think heâs capable of something real?â
âheâs different with me,â you say quickly, surprising yourself with the conviction in your voice. âi know heâs done terrible things. i know heâs not perfectâfar from itâbut heâs trying, sarah. heâs trying for me. to be better.â
sarah looks at you for a long moment, her brows furrowed as she processes your words. âi want to believe you,â she finally says, her voice soft but tinged with sadness. âbut iâve known rafe my whole life. and every time iâve thought he could change, heâs let me down.â
âiâm not asking you to trust him,â you say carefully, stepping closer. âbut Iâm asking you to trust me. i wouldnât have kept this from you if i didnât think he was worth it.â
her lips press into a thin line, and she looks away, her shoulders slumping slightly. âitâs not just about trust,â she says after a moment. âitâs about what happens next. if youâre really serious about him, you need to be ready for everything that comes with it. his world isnât like ours. itâs darker, messier⌠more dangerous.â
âi know,â you whisper, your chest tightening. âbut iâm willing to face it if it means being with him.â
sarahâs gaze snaps back to yours, her expression softening ever so slightly, though the edge in her voice remains. âthen you better make damn sure he feels the same way,â she says, her words heavy with both warning and care. âbecause if he doesnât, this will destroy you. and as one of your best friends, of course, iâll be there for you.â
she pauses, her jaw tightening as her voice hardens. âbut i will never forgive him. not for this. not for hurting you.â
her words hit you with a mix of relief and guilt. the thought of having her support, even after everything, is comforting, but the weight of her anger toward rafe lingers. you nod slowly, swallowing the lump in your throat as you murmur, âthank you, sarah.â
she exhales deeply, brushing a hand through her hair before crossing her arms again. âjust⌠be careful, okay? i mean it. rafeâs not easy to love, and heâs even harder to trust.â
âi will,â you promise softly, your heart heavy with the weight of her words. sarah offers you a small, genuine smile before stepping forward and wrapping her arms around you, pulling you into a much-needed hug. you melt into her embrace, her warmth easing some of the tension that had been sitting in your chest.
âi love you,â she says quietly, her voice soft but full of emotion as she sighs into your hair. âyou know that, right?â
you nod against her shoulder, your own voice barely above a whisper. âi love you too.â
she pulls back slightly, just enough to look at you, her hands still resting on your arms. âand letâs not tell everyone else just yet,â she says, her tone more serious now. âor at least not jj, pope, or john b. i just know they wonât be as understanding as me.â
a small laugh escapes you despite yourself, the thought of the boysâ reactions flashing in your mind. âyeah,â you agree softly, nodding. âthey definitely wonât take it well.â
âgood,â sarah mumbles, stepping back and straightening her shirt. âweâll figure this out, okay? but for now, just⌠keep it between us. and rafe, i guess.â she rolls her eyes lightly, though thereâs still a flicker of frustration when she says his name.
âi still canât believe it. my brother? and here i thought you were the one with standards,â sarah teases, shuddering playfully as she shoots you a mock-disgusted look.
you laugh, reaching over to pinch her side lightly. âwhat can i say? john b took you first,â you retort with a smirk, your voice laced with playful flirtation.
sarah throws her head back, laughing loudly before meeting your gaze with a mischievous glint in her eye. âdonât threaten me with a good time, babe,â she quips, giving you a wink.
before you can reply, she waves toward the room. ânow hurry up and get dressed. weâre going surfing, and jj and pope are gonna hang us if we take a second longer.â
âyeah, yeah,â you mumble with a grin, making your way toward your drawer to find your suit as sarah heads toward the door. you canât help but feel a little lighter, her teasing and laughter easing some of the weight that had been pressing down on you.
rafe sat at a dining table of the country club, his fingers drumming impatiently against the polished wood as he glanced at his phone for the fifth time in the last two minutes. he opened your chat again, hoping to see the familiar bubbles of you typing a message. but when nothing appeared, he sighed heavily and locked his phone, tossing it onto the table before leaning back in his chair. his leg bounced beneath the table, a restless habit that betrayed his frustration.
this wasnât just a casual meetingâit was an impromptu rendezvous with the private investigator who had been working with the cameron family for years. while this meeting wasnât technically tied to cameron development, it was just as important to rafe.
his jaw clenched as he scanned the room, watching the other patrons chat and laugh over their meals, their world far removed from the storm brewing inside him. rafe wasnât good at waiting, especially not when it came to you. his fingers twitched, tempted to call or text again, but he knew better.
instead, rafe straightened in his chair as the investigator approached, his expression unreadable but his frustration evident. as the man slid into the seat across from him, rafe leaned forward, his tone low and firm. âbetter have something for me for making me wait this long.â
the investigatorârobert, a grizzled manâarched a brow, unimpressed. âdonât get snappy with me, kid,â he retorted coolly, leaning back in his chair. âiâm helping you out, remember?â
rafeâs jaw clenched, his patience quickly withering. he hated the way robert always talked to him like he was still a teenager under his fatherâs shadow. âokay, well, my girl is waiting on me,â rafe shot back, his words deliberate, âso if you pleaseââ he motioned to the chair with an edge of attitude, his frustration bubbling beneath the surface.
robert let out a low chuckle, shaking his head. âalways in such a damn rush,â he muttered, reaching into his bag to pull out a manila folder. he slid it across the table to rafe, who snatched it up quickly, flipping it open with impatience.
inside, rafeâs expression darkened immediately. the folder was filled with picturesâpictures of you. shots of you alone, some of you and rafe together, and even photos of you with your friends at the chateau. but what made his stomach churn was the last setâpictures of you in your room, unaware, the camera angle invasive and clearly taken without your knowledge.
âwhat the fuck is this?â rafe growled, his voice low and dangerous as his jaw tightened. his fingers clenched the folder so hard it crinkled the edges. he glared at robert, his fury barely restrained.
âexactly what you asked for,â robert replied evenly, not flinching under rafeâs heated gaze. âsurveillance of the girl and anything suspicious surrounding her. looks like someoneâs been keeping a close eye on her, and not just me.â
âyou mean to tell me someoneâs been stalking her?â rafe asked, his voice rising slightly as his fury built. the mere thought of someone invading your privacy this way made his blood boil.
âthatâs what it looks like,â robert said grimly. âthe camera angles, the locations⌠this isnât random, son. whoeverâs doing this? theyâve been watching her for a while.â
âhow the fuck did you get these?â rafe demanded, his voice sharp, barely restrained as his eyes darted over each picture again. his chest heaved with barely contained fury, his heart pounding against his ribcage as the anger coursed through him. each image was a reminder of how close someone had gotten to you without his knowledgeâwithout his ability to stop it.
âthe phone number traced to an IP address,â robert explained, his tone calm but heavy. he leaned back in his chair, rolling up the sleeves of his button-up like he was bracing for a longer conversation. âwe couldnât pull a name or anything solid. the trail leads to a burner iCloud account. whoever set this up knew what they were doing.â
âso thatâs it?â rafe snapped, slamming the folder shut. âyouâve got nothing useful? just these fucking pictures?â
robert held up a hand to calm him. ârelax, kid. this isnât the end of the road. the burner iCloud account gives us something. whoeverâs behind this has been sloppy enough to leave a trail. itâll take time, but iâll get you a name. trust me.â
âtime?â rafe scoffed, his jaw clenching as he ran a hand through his hair. âi donât have fucking time. whoever this is, theyâre already too close. theyâre watching her.â his voice cracked slightly, the frustration and fear breaking through his usual controlled demeanor.
âi get it,â robert said evenly, his eyes meeting rafeâs. âbut rushing wonât solve this. you want answers? you need to let me do my job.â
rafe inhaled deeply, trying to calm the storm raging inside him, but his hands still trembled as they gripped the edge of the table. his knuckles were white, his jaw set tight. âyou better, rob,â he muttered through gritted teeth, his voice low and dangerous. âbecause if anything happens to herâi swear to godââ
âhey,â robert interjected firmly, leaning forward and holding up a hand to steady the situation. ânothingâs gonna happen, alright? you just need to pull it together. the last thing you want is for her to notice you acting weird.â
rafeâs glare didnât soften, his mind racing with worst-case scenarios, but he listened.
âif you start acting like somethingâs wrong,â robert continued, his voice steady but serious, âsheâs gonna suspect it. and the last thing you want to do is sit her down and tell her someoneâs been stalking her. thatâll make her panic, and trust me, you donât want that.â
rafeâs jaw ticked, his frustration evident as he forced himself to sit back in the chair. âso whatâ what am i supposed to do?â he asked, his voice clipped. âjust sit here while some perv watches her?â
âno,â robert said calmly, folding his arms. âyou let me do my job, and you stay close. keep her safe without tipping her off. if the person sees you hovering, they might back off, but you canât blow this out of proportionânot yet.â
rafe exhaled sharply, dragging a hand down his face. âfine,â he muttered. âbut you better move fast, rob. i donât care what it takesâjust find them.â
âyeah, kie!â you shout from the sand, your voice carrying over the sound of the crashing waves as you watch her ride the wave with practiced ease. a wide smile spreads across your face, the warmth of the moment settling in your chest.
youâd forgotten how much you missed thisâbeing with your friends, laughing, cheering each other on like nothing else mattered. it felt like stepping into a time capsule, bringing back all the memories of when you were inseparable, when life felt simpler.
the sun beamed down on the beach, the smell of saltwater and sunscreen filling the air as jj and pope hollered from the water, their playful jeers aimed at kie. you laughed, shaking your head as you realized how much you needed this. for the first time in a while, you felt like yourself again.
you had been so caught up in the joy of being with your friends that you hadnât checked your phone in hours. it sat forgotten in your beach bag, buzzing occasionally with a growing list of messages and missed calls from rafe.
meanwhile, rafe was losing it. the anxiety gnawing at him since his meeting with robert had only worsened when he arrived at the chateau and found it empty. heâd banged on the door until his knuckles ached, calling out your name, only to be met with silence.
âfuck!â rafe shouted, his frustration echoing in the stillness as he slammed his fist against the door one last time. his chest heaved, his thoughts racing.
his mind flashed to the pictures, the ones that had been taken of you without your knowledge, and his stomach twisted. the idea that you were out there, unaware of the danger, made his blood run cold. he pulled his phone from his pocket and called you again, pacing back and forth as the line rang endlessly.
âcome on, baby,â he muttered under his breath, his free hand running through his hair as panic began to settle in. âpick up.â
you laid back against your towel, the warmth of the sun seeping into your skin as you basked in the peacefulness after catching one last wave. the sound of the waves crashing and your friends laughing in the distance lulled you into a calm you hadnât felt in weeks.
but then, your phone buzzed insistently from your beach bag, pulling you out of your moment of tranquility. with a groan, you reached over, rummaging through the bag until your fingers closed around the device. flipping it over, your relaxed state evaporated in an instant.
the screen lit up with a long list of missed calls and messages from rafe. your heart began to hammer in your chest, an uneasy feeling creeping in. rafe wasnât the type to blow up your phone unless something was seriously wrong.
you quickly unlocked it, skimming through the texts, your stomach twisting as you read them:
r <3: call me. now.
r <3: where the fuck are you?
r <3: baby please answer your phone
your pulse quickened, and your fingers hovered over the call button. whatever had him in such a state, it wasnât good.
within the first ring, rafe answered, his voice sharp and laced with urgency. the roar of his truck speeding down the road echoed in the background, adding to the tension in his tone.
âthank god,â he breathed, though his relief was short-lived. âwhere are you? iâve been trying to reach you for over two hours.â
the sheer panic in his voice made your stomach drop. âiâm at the beach,â you replied cautiously, sitting up on your towel, suddenly hyper-aware of the shift in his demeanor. âwhatâs going on, rafe?â
there was a pause, the sound of his engine filling the silence before he spoke again, his voice firm. âstay there. donât move. iâm coming to get you.â
ârafeââ you began, but his sharp voice cut through before you could finish.
âstay. there,â he snapped, his tone leaving no room for argument.
and then the line went dead.
you stared at your phone in confusion, your brows furrowing as the screen returned to your call log. your heart pounded in your chest, the unease from his urgency settling deep in your stomach.
âwhat the hell?â you muttered to yourself, lowering the phone and glancing around the beach, your mind racing with what couldâve had him in such a state. you debated calling him back, but something about the finality in his tone made you hesitate.
instead, you sat up on your knees, quickly starting to pack everything you brought with you into your bag. the unease gnawing at your chest made it impossible to sit still.
âhey, hey, hey. where you going? weâre not done here yet,â jj called out, his longboard tucked under his arm as he strolled over to where you, sarah, and kie had set up.
sarah and kie had been too engrossed in their conversation to notice your phone call, but jjâs comment caught their attention, and now all eyes were on you.
âi know, mâsorry,â you said, trying to keep your tone casual as you stuffed your towel into your bag. âmy⌠mom just called and said she needed me home, soââ your words trailed off as you caught sarahâs eyes, giving her a pointed look that you hoped sheâd understand.
jj sighed, muttering a curse under his breath as he watched you finish packing. âwell, you should tell your mom to chill,â he grumbled. âi mean, youâre with us. whatâs there to worry about?â
âyeah,â sarah chimed in, rolling her eyes as she lounged back on her towel. âyouâre with us. itâs not like anythingâs gonna happen.â there was a hint of annoyance in her tone, though you couldnât tell if it was directed at you or rafe, whom she clearly suspected was behind this.
you forced a small laugh, slinging your bag over your shoulder. âyeah, iâll let her know. but, you know how she gets,â you replied, trying to sound light, even as your stomach churned with nerves. you glanced at sarah again, silently pleading for her understanding. she gave you a slight nod, though her expression remained unreadable.
you said your goodbyes and made your way to the entrance of the beach, your stomach twisting with nerves as you saw rafeâs truck speeding toward you. the tires kicked up sand as he came to a hard stop, immediately cutting the engine and hopping out.
the sound of the door slamming echoed in the quiet, and he stalked toward you with quick, purposeful strides. his intense gaze was locked on you, his jaw tight and his chest heaving slightly.
when he reached you, he stopped abruptly, his hands reaching out to gently grip your arms. his touch was firm but careful, as if checking you over to make sure you were unharmed. his eyes scanned your face, then your body, before he finally exhaled a soft sigh, his shoulders relaxing just slightly.
âyouâre okay,â he murmured, more to himself than to you, his grip on your arms tightening briefly before he released you, though his hands lingered. âyouâre okay.â
ârafe? whatâs goingââ you began, but he cut you off before you could finish.
âyouâre gonna stay with me a couple more days, okay?â he said quickly, his words spilling out like a rushing stream. âi already asked the staff to pick up some new clothes for you and to clear out some drawers so you can keep your stuff there. if you need anything else, just let me know and Iâllââ
ârafe!â you interrupted, your voice sharper than intended, overwhelmed by his sudden word vomit and the fact that he was dodging every question. you reached up, your hand cupping his face to ground him, to stop him in his tracks. he closed his eyes briefly, leaning into your touch as he exhaled heavily.
ârafe, tell me whatâs happening,â you said softly, though your voice carried a tremor of worry. âyouâre scaring me.â
his eyes opened, meeting yours, and for a brief moment, you saw something raw, almost vulnerable. but instead of giving you the answers you desperately wanted, he pulled you closer, resting his forehead against yours.
âjust⌠let me handle it, okay?â he murmured, his tone low, almost pleading. âcan you do that for me?â
you frowned, frustration bubbling up as his vague responses only made your anxiety worse. ârafe, i canât keep letting you brush me off like this,â you said firmly, your voice trembling with both worry and anger. âyou need to tell me whatâs going on. please.â
rafeâs jaw ticks, the muscle tightening as he struggles to keep his anger in check. his patience, already worn thin, frays further when he sees the questioning look in your eyes. he steps back with an annoyed groan, running a hand through his hair in frustration.
âcan you just accept the fact that iâm trying to make sure youâre good?â he snaps, his tone sharper than youâve heard in what feels like forever. âlet me handle it, and iâll tell you once itâs done.â
his words cut, and your brows furrow as a wave of hurt flashes across your face. his sudden toneâso different from the soft, protective rafe youâve grown used toâcatches you off guard.
âwhy are you talking to me like this?â you ask, your voice quiet but steady, the ache in your chest impossible to ignore. âi just want to know whatâs going on. youâre shutting me out, rafe, and itâs not fair.â
he exhales heavily, his expression softening slightly as guilt creeps into his features, but the tension in his shoulders remains. âiâm not shutting you out,â he insists, though his tone is strained.
âi canât just sit here and pretend everythingâs fine when youâre clearly losing it.â
his eyes flicker to yours, the internal battle raging behind them clear as day, but he stays silent, his lips pressed into a thin, stubborn line. the tension stretches between you like a taut wire, and when he doesnât speak, you let out a scoff, turning on your heel to walk away.
âwhere the fuck are you going?â he calls out, his voice sharp as he quickly follows after you. when you donât answer, his frustration bubbles over, his tone rising. âget in the truck, y/n. now.â
you stop in your tracks, spinning to face him, your own frustration boiling to the surface. âare you serious right now?â you snap, glaring at him. âyou think you can just bark orders at me and that Iâll do whatever you say?â
rafe runs a hand through his hair, his jaw clenching as he exhales sharply. âiâm trying to protect you,â he bites back, his voice lowering but no less intense. âjust⌠get in the truck, okay? we can talk about this later. but right now, you need to trust me.â
you hesitate, his words lingering in the air, but the anger simmering between you doesnât fade. âtrust goes both ways, rafe,â you say firmly, turning back toward the beach path, your heart hammering in your chest.
âoh my fucking god,â you hear rafe murmur under his breath as he follows you, his steps heavy with frustration. âcan you stop walking and get in the truck, or iâll carry you,â he threatens, his voice low but serious.
you ignore him, your feet quickening as you catch sight of your friends lounging in the sand ahead. but just as youâre about to speed up, your phone vibrates in your hand, stopping you in your tracks. instinctively, you glance down at the screen.
unknown: one video attachment.
your breath catches, your blood running cold as your fingers hover over the notification. with shaky hands, you open the message and tap on the video. within seconds, your stomach drops. the phone slips from your hands and falls to the ground, the sound of the video still playing faintly.
âwhat the fuck?â you whisper, your voice barely audible as your mind struggles to process what you just saw.
it wasnât just a kiss this time. it wasnât even anything you could brush off as innocent. it was a video of you and rafe on the balcony at tannyhillâthe night you stayed over. every detail was captured, from the intimate way you straddled him to the unmistakable sounds of your shared moans as he flipped you around.
ây/n?â rafeâs voice cuts through your spiraling thoughts as he steps closer, noticing your pale expression. his brows knit together as his eyes dart to the phone lying on the ground. âwhatâs wrong?â
when rafe picks up your phone and sees the screen, his face hardens, his jaw tightening as his grip on the device turns white-knuckled. his lips part, but before he can say anything, his own phone dings with a text message.
then, all at once, the unmistakable sound of notifications starts echoing across the beach. one after the other, phones light up in peopleâs hands. heads turn down, curious gazes scanning their screens, and then the gasps begin.
a murmur spreads like wildfire, a wave of collective shock and whispered words. your breath catches as you see the smiles on your friendsâ faces fade, their eyes wide as they all receive the same notification.
you donât need to guess. you already know what theyâre watching.
tears well in your eyes, blurring your vision as your worst fear unfolds right in front of you. your friendsâ gazes lift, all of them turning to look at you with expressions of disbelief, confusion, andâworst of allâbetrayal.
your heart drops into your stomach, the weight of their stares suffocating. it feels like the entire world has stopped, leaving you frozen in place as the sound of the waves fades into a haunting silence.
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trope: rafe cameron x pogue!reader | best friendâs brother | friends with benefits
synopsis! after secretly hooking up with rafe cameron, your best friendâs brother, things were supposed to stay casualâjust sexâbut feelings got involved, and everything spiraled out of control. when a compromising video of you and rafe gets leaked and ends up in sarahâs hands, it triggers a chain reaction of pogue-kook drama, rafeâs obsessive need to protect you, and his refusal to admit heâs in love with you until youâre practically falling apart.
warnings: friends? with benefits , angst , some fluff , toxic!rafe/soft!rafe , sexual content + unprotected sex! , mature , 18+ (minors dni!)
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synopsis! rafe realizes how much he cares about you when heâs willing to put everything on the line for your safety after a leaked video gets to sarah, your best friend..
paring: rafe cameron x pogue!reader
warnings: friends? with benefits , angst , panic attack (pogue!reader) , soft(ish)!rafe (heâs bipolar ik) , sexual content + unprotected sex! , lots of praise + dirty talk , some fluff , the L word , potential stalker? , mature , 18+ (minors dni!)
word count: 7.4k
notes: this is chapter two of my nobody gets me series. click the link below to read chapter one! âĄ
to say rafe was freaking out would be an understatement. it had been days since heâd last seen you, and the silence on your end was driving him to the edge of his sanity. not a single text, call, or word had come from you. it was like youâd vanished, and every minute without hearing from you only made his frustration worse.
he sat on the edge of his bed at tannyhill, replaying the night in his head for the hundredth time. every detail, every sound, every lookâit all came flooding back, leaving him questioning everything. maybe heâd been too rough. maybe heâd misread your reactions, thinking you wanted it when in reality, you were trying to get away. the thought sent a chill down his spine.
he couldnât sleep, couldnât focus. he paced his room, running his hand through his hair, biting his thumbnail anxiously as he mumbled under his breath. every scenario raced through his mind, each one worse than the last.
should he text you again? call? or maybe just drive to your house and force you to talk to him? the idea of busting down your door crossed his mind more than once, his desperation teetering on obsession. he hated feeling this out of control, hated not knowing where you stood.
but above all, he hated the thought of losing youâof you slipping through his fingers without giving him the chance to make it right.
just then, as if his prayers had been answered, your name lit up his phone. a call.
for a moment, he stared at the screen, his heart hammering in his chest before he cleared his throat and steadied his hand enough to swipe the answer button. âhey,â he said, his voice softer than usual.
the silence on your end made his stomach churn. maybe youâd called by accident? but then, faintly, he heard itâyour voice. it was barely a whisper, rough and broken, like youâd been crying for hours.
âi need to talk to you,â you said, the vulnerability in your tone cutting straight through him.
âyeah, okay. iâll come to youââ he shot up from his bed, already slipping on his shoes, when you interrupted him.
ân-no,â you stammered, your voice shaky. âjust meet me at the beach. iâll send you my pin.â
before he could respond, the line went dead, leaving him in silence once again. he stood frozen for a moment, staring at his phone, his mind racing. then, without hesitation, he grabbed his keys and headed for the door. whatever this was, he wasnât about to leave it unresolved.
you watched as the waves crashed against the shore, the rhythmic sound doing little to calm the storm inside you. with trembling hands, you adjusted your hat and pulled up the hood of your oversized sweater, trying to shield yourself from the cool night airâand maybe from your own reflection in the water. your puffy eyes told the story you didnât want to share. if it wasnât already obvious youâd been crying for days, you wouldnât have bothered with the oversized sweater as a weak disguise.
youâve been spamming sarahâs phone nonstop, sending text after text, leaving voicemails that never got a reply. it got to the point where youâre certain sheâs blocked you. the silent treatment has been unbearable, eating away at you in a way you didnât expect.
but even worse, you havenât set foot in the chateau since it all happened. you couldnât bring yourself to. if sarah was mad at youâand you knew she wasâthen the rest of them probably were too. if she told themâand she likely didâyou doubted any of them would want to see you.
the thought of facing jj, of looking into his bruised eye and knowing how you betrayed him, kept you away. you didnât deserve their forgiveness, so you didnât ask for it. instead, you sat here, waiting for rafe, the one person you werenât sure you could avoid any longer.
you feel a presence behind you, the weight of it heavy in the air, and you know without looking who it is. the sound of footsteps crunching softly against the sand confirms it before that presence settles beside you.
rafe doesnât say anything at first, but you can feel his eyes on you, studying you, trying to gauge your mood. you donât turn to face him, but out of the corner of your eye, you catch a glimpse of his expressionâhis furrowed brows, the slight downturn of his lips, and the unmistakable concern in his features.
your chest tightens. maybe he already knew about the video. maybe thatâs why he looked like thisâlike he wasnât sure what to say but felt he needed to be here.
you swallow hard, forcing the lump in your throat down, the tension stretching painfully in the quiet. âsarah knows, rafe,â you mutter finally, your voice barely above a whisper, but it feels deafening in the stillness.
you turn your head slightly to gauge his reaction, but he doesnât give you one. his expression doesnât change, his silence heavy and unreadable. of course he doesnât reactâyou shouldâve expected that.
you sigh softly, the weight of it all pressing harder against you. âthereâs, umââ your voice cracks, and you pause, biting down on your trembling lip as the tears threaten to spill. âthereâs a video of us. before we got in the truck. and someone sent it to her.â
you roll your lips into your mouth, trying desperately to hold yourself together, but it feels like youâre crumbling piece by piece. a single tear slips down your cheek, warm against your cold, rosy skin. you donât wipe it away, too consumed by the weight of everything to care.
your chest feels like itâs caving in, the weight of it pressing down so hard it steals the air from your lungs. your breaths come short and shallow, each one more desperate than the last as if no matter how hard you try, you canât pull in enough oxygen. your hands start to tremble, curling into fists at your sides, and your heart pounds so violently in your chest it feels like it might burst.
your vision starts to tunnel, the edges blurring as the crashing waves in front of you twist into an indistinguishable mess of sound and movement. your head feels light, like youâre floating and sinking at the same time, and a sharp heat spreads through your chest and throat, making it even harder to breathe.
you press your hands against your knees, trying to ground yourself, but it only makes the dizziness worse. the lump in your throat feels unbearable, choking you as tears stream uncontrollably down your face. everything feels too loud and too bright, the sound of the waves and the faint hum of rafeâs presence blending into an overwhelming cacophony.
âhey,â rafe says softly, his voice distant despite being right next to you. you barely register the warmth of his hand against your arm. âhey, look at me. breathe. just breathe.â
but you canât. your body is out of your control, your mind spiraling into a dark abyss of guilt, fear, and panic. the more you fight it, the tighter the grip becomes, until all you can do is clutch your arms around yourself, trying to hold the pieces of you together as the panic consumes you.
rafe stands abruptly, the tension in his movements evident, before crouching down right in front of you. his hand gently cups your cheek, his thumb brushing slow, soothing strokes over your skin, an anchor in the storm of your panic.
âhey, hey, hey,â he murmurs, his voice low and steady, drawing your unfocused gaze to his. his eyes lock onto yours, grounding and intent. âlook at me,â he urges, keeping his tone soft but firm.
he takes a deep inhale, exaggerating the motion so you can follow it, then exhales slowly, motioning for you to mimic him, taking your hand and putting it on his chest. âbreathe with me,â he says, his own chest rising and falling in a steady rhythm.
your attempts are shaky at first, uneven gasps that barely resemble breaths, but you follow him. inhale. exhale. over and over. relief washes over his face as your breathing starts to regulate, the shallow gasps slowly giving way to deeper, steadier pulls of air.
âthere we go,â he soothes, his thumb still tracing gentle circles on your cheek. âgood job, baby.â the nickname slips out before he can stop it, but he doesnât correct himself, too focused on calming you.
his other hand comes to rest lightly on your knee, grounding you further, his presence unwavering. âiâve got you,â he says softly, his voice steady, as if willing you to believe it.
in that moment, as rafe watched you close your eyes, your chest rising and falling steadily again, relief softening your tear-streaked face, something inside him snapped. rage surged through him like a tidal wave, sudden and uncontrollable.
and he blamed sarah.
to him, it was her fault. she had no right to get involved, no reason to make this worse. something that was meant to stay between you and himâjust you and himâwas now tearing you apart. and all because of her.
his jaw clenched, his teeth grinding together as he thought about her selfishness, her spoiled sense of righteousness. it didnât matter that she was his sister; all he could see was the way her actions had hurt you. the way she had betrayed him.
the image of you struggling to breathe, broken and panicked because of her interference, made his blood boil. it wasnât fair. it wasnât right. and it was enough to make him see red.
and then there was that damn video.
the thought of it made rafeâs fists clench at his sides. it wasnât just about the invasion of privacy; it was about youâyour exposure in such a vulnerable moment. the idea of someone lurking, watching, and recording without your knowledge made his blood run cold with anger.
he didnât care about his own reputation, not in the slightest. all he cared about was you and the way it could hurt you, the way it already had hurt you.
rafe was determined to figure out who took it. he didnât care how long it would take or what heâd have to do to get the answers. whoever it was would regret ever crossing that line. and heâd make sure of it.
rafe gently pulls you to your feet, his hands steadying you before he wraps his arms around your shoulders, drawing you into a firm, grounding hug. the warmth radiating from his body seeps into you, calming the residual tremors in your chest. his steady breathing against the top of your head is a silent reassurance that youâre okay, that heâs got you.
âyouâre good,â he murmurs softly, almost to himself, as if trying to convince you both.
after a few moments, he pulls back slightly, his hands brushing your arms as he guides you toward the passenger side of his truck. he opens the door and helps you inside, his fingers lingering as he buckles your seatbelt, the light touch against your bare thighs sending goosebumps rippling across your skin. you shiver but donât say anything, leaning back into the seat as he closes the door.
once the truck is moving, the hum of the engine fills the comfortable silence between you. you havenât said a word since the breakdown at the beach, but rafe doesnât push. he seems to understand that the quiet is what you need right now.
he pulls into a nearby gas station, the bright lights spilling across the truck as he puts it in park. âiâll be quick,â he mumbles, more to himself than you, before slipping out and heading inside.
you sit there, watching him through the window as he grabs a water bottle and lingers near the snack aisle, seemingly deliberating. for a brief moment, you feel a flicker of something you canât placeâgratitude, guilt, or maybe just relief that heâs here.
inside, rafe grabs a pack of gummy worms, deciding itâs the safest option. he figures itâs something easy, something you might actually eat since heâs convinced you havenât been eating properly these past few days. satisfied, he starts to head to the checkout when he hears itâa laugh he knows all too well, one that instantly sets him on edge.
his head snaps in the direction of the sound, and there they areâsarah and john b, standing in the same aisle he just walked out of. rafeâs jaw tightens, a flare of anger igniting in his chest. it takes everything in him not to start something right then and there.
his fists clench at his sides as he forces himself to stay composed, but the tension in his body is undeniable as he turns on his heel and strides toward her.
âi need to talk to you,â he says sharply, his voice low but firm as he approaches sarah.
sarah visibly jumps at his sudden appearance, her startled expression quickly morphing into a glare. rafe can see the way her jaw ticks, the anger bubbling just beneath the surface, mirroring his own.
she glances at john b, offering him a reassuring smile. âiâll be right back,â she says calmly, though her tone carries an edge. reluctantly, john b stays put, watching them as sarah follows rafe to the back of the store, where the beverage aisle is quieter and out of sight.
as soon as theyâre alone, rafeâs grip tightens on the gummy worms and water bottle in his hands, his knuckles turning white as he struggles for some semblance of control. his glare pierces through sarah, the tension between them thick and heavy, charged with years of unresolved resentment.
âyou had no fucking right,â he growls, his voice low and venomous, the anger in his tone bubbling just beneath the surface, threatening to spill over.
sarahâs brows knit together, her own frustration flaring as she lowers her voice to a sharp whisper. âi had no right? rafe, you had no fucking right!â she hisses, her eyes blazing with anger. âmy best friend of all people? are you serious? you couldâve literally chosen anyone else, anyone, but no, you always have to come after my happiness!â
her words hang heavy between them, cutting deeper than she intended. rafeâs jaw clenches, his entire body rigid as he stares at her, his anger matched only by the faint flicker of hurt sheâs unknowingly struck.
âthis isnât about your happiness,â he snaps back, his voice still low but laced with venom. âthis is about you sticking your nose where it doesnât belong. you had no right to drag her into this.â
sarah crosses her arms, her glare unwavering. âand you had no right to do what you did, rafe. you knew what this would do to her, to me, to all of us. but you didnât care, did you? because you never do.â
rafe steps closer, the tension between them nearly suffocating as his voice drops even lower, dripping with bitterness. âyou think i donât care? you have no idea what i feel, sarah. none. but youâyou took it too far. that video?â his grip tightens around the items in his hands, the plastic crinkling under the pressure. âdo you have any idea what that did to her? to me?â
sarahâs arms tighten around herself, but she doesnât back down. âi didnât take that video, rafe. donât pin your shit on me,â she fires back, her voice steadier now, but no less angry. âyouâre the one who dragged her into your bullshit. youâre the one who made her a target.â
âa target? iâve been protecting her!â he snarls, his composure cracking as he takes another step closer. âyou think i wanted this? for someone to spy on us, to send you a video like that? you have no idea what iâd do to keep her safe.â
sarah laughs bitterly, shaking her head. âprotecting her? from what, rafe? from you?â her words are sharp, designed to cut, and they do. âbecause thatâs what it looks like from where Iâm standing.â
rafeâs jaw ticks, his breathing heavy, as he stares her down, trying to bite back the words that threaten to spill. âyou donât get it,â he mutters, his voice thick with frustration. âyou never did. this isnât about you, sarah.â
âno, itâs about her,â she snaps, her voice rising slightly despite her attempt to keep it contained. âmy best friend, rafe. sheâs not just some girl for you to fuck around with and forget about when itâs convenient. she deserves better than thisâbetter than you.â
the words hit him harder than he expects, but he doesnât let it show. instead, he leans in closer, his tone sharp as a blade. âand you think she needs you playing savior? she doesnât, sarah. sheâs stronger than you give her credit for.â
sarahâs face softens slightly, her anger flickering into something more conflicted, but she doesnât back down. âif sheâs so strong, then why is she breaking because of you?â she whispers, her voice quieter now but no less cutting.
rafe doesnât answer immediately, his grip loosening as the weight of her words settles over him. for the first time, he looks away, his jaw tight as he swallows hard.
sarah sighs deeply, her anger giving way to something softer, though the tension in her shoulders remains. she looks down at her shoes for a moment before lifting her gaze to meet rafeâs, her eyes filled with something he doesnât expectâconcern.
âif you really care about her, rafe,â she says, her voice quieter now, less sharp but still firm, âyouâll leave her alone. youâre just going to take her down with you.â
her words cut deeper than he wants to admit, but he doesnât let it show. his jaw tightens, his eyes narrowing as he shakes his head. âyou donât know what youâre talking about,â he mutters, his voice low but defensive.
âdonât i?â sarah counters, her brows furrowing. âiâve seen it, rafe. the way you drag people into your chaos. sheâs already hurting because of youâlook at whatâs happened these past few days! she doesnât need this. she doesnât need you.â
rafe flinches at the words but quickly masks it with anger. âand what? you think walking away is going to fix everything? you think i can just leave her and pretend like nothing happened?â his voice rises slightly, frustration creeping in.
âyes,â sarah replies simply, her tone steady but sad. âbecause if you donât, sheâs going to lose herself trying to save you. and you know that, rafe. deep down, you know that.â
rafeâs hands clench into fists, his breathing heavy as her words sink in. for a moment, heâs silent, his eyes darting away as he processes what sheâs said. but instead of responding, he turns on his heel, walking away from her and toward the checkout, his mind racing with everything he doesnât want to admit might be true.
as rafe walks toward the checkout, his thoughts are a storm of anger, guilt, and something deeper he canât quite name. sarahâs words play over and over in his head, each repetition chipping away at his defenses. if you really care about her, youâll leave her alone. the weight of it feels unbearable, but he pushes it down, refusing to let it show.
he pays for the water and gummy worms quickly, his mind far from the mundane transaction. the cashierâs bored expression barely registers as he grabs the bag and heads back to the truck. the short walk feels like miles, his chest tight with a mix of emotions he canât fully unravel.
when he gets back to the truck, he opens the door and climbs in, placing the bag on the center console. youâre still in the passenger seat, curled up slightly, staring out the window at the empty gas station parking lot. the dim light casts shadows across your face, and rafeâs chest aches at the sight of you looking so small, so fragile.
âhere,â he says, his voice softer than usual as he pulls out the water and gummy worms, placing them gently in your lap. âfigured you should have something.â
you donât look at him right away, your fingers hesitating before picking up the water bottle. âthanks,â you murmur, your voice barely audible, but itâs the first thing youâve said to him since the beach. it feels like both a relief and a dagger in his chest.
rafe leans back in his seat, running a hand through his hair as silence falls between you again. he doesnât know what to say, doesnât know how to fix this. sarahâs words linger in the back of his mind like a poison, making him question everything.
finally, he glances at you, his voice quieter than youâve ever heard it. âdo you⌠do you want me to take you home?â the question hangs in the air, heavy and uncertain, as he watches you for any sign of what you want, what you need from him.
âumâmy mom and i kinda got into this fight,â you admit, your voice small, barely louder than the hum of the truckâs engine. âi really donât want to be home right now.â your fingers fumble with the cap of the water bottle before you finally twist it open, the cool liquid soothing the dryness in your throat.
rafe glances at you briefly, nodding as he shifts the truck into gear. âtannyhill it is,â he says simply, his tone steady but softer than you expected.
soon, heâs reversing out of the gas station, the hum of the tires on the road filling the silence between you. you steal a glance at him, his profile illuminated by the dim dashboard lights. his grip on the steering wheel is firm, his jaw tight, but his expression is calmâfocused, almost protective.
you sip your water quietly, the tension from earlier slowly starting to ebb away, replaced by a strange sense of relief. for all of rafeâs flaws, he always had a way of making you feel like, in the moment, nothing else could touch you.
as the truck cruises through the dark streets, you lean your head against the window, your eyes fluttering closed for a moment. the familiar scent of leather and cologne fills your senses, grounding you more than you care to admit.
you hadnât been to tannyhill in a while, the last time being a couple of weeks ago with rafe. stepping inside now, you realize it hasnât changedâit still holds that same strange sense of comfort, despite everything. the air smells faintly of cedar and something distinctly rafe, a mix of cologne and the warm musk of the house itself.
rafe walks in behind you, the sound of his shoes soft against the hardwood floor. he sets his keys down next to the coat hanger with a quiet clink, his movements uncharacteristically calm. you glance around as you step further into the house, your gaze catching the open laptop and scattered paperwork on the coffee table. clearly, heâd been in the middle of something important when you called.
you move to the outside balcony, sinking onto the couch there, the cool night air brushing against your skin. rafe follows shortly after, standing in the doorway for a moment before stepping onto the balcony.
your eyes flick back to the coffee table through the glass door, taking in the slight disarray of his work. he mustâve dropped everything the moment he heard your voice, and the thought makes your chest tighten, your heart swelling with an unfamiliar warmth.
âyou didnât have to stop what you were doing,â you say softly, glancing up at him.
he shrugs, leaning against the balcony railing, his expression unreadable but his voice steady. âitâs not important. you are.â
his words linger in the air between you, and for once, you donât overthink them. you just let yourself feel the comfort of being here, the weight of the day slowly lifting.
ârafeââ you begin, your voice soft, almost hesitant.
âyeah?â he cuts in quickly, his response sharp and immediate, like heâd been waiting on edge for you to say something. his eyes search yours, his posture tense, his mind clearly elsewhere. sarahâs words are still plaguing him, the weight of them pulling him into his thoughts.
you take a small breath, steadying yourself. âthank you,â you say, your tone even softer now. âfor helping me through that.â
his expression softens slightly, and he takes a step closer before sitting down on the small table in front of you, close enough that his knees brush yours. his focus is completely on you now, and the tension in his shoulders eases just a fraction.
âitâs happened before,â you admit quietly, your fingers fidgeting with the hem of your sweater, âbut itâs never been thatâŚâ your voice trails off, the weight of earlier still heavy in your chest.
rafe nods slowly, understanding without needing you to finish the sentence. âi know,â he says softly, his voice steady but tinged with something that sounds like regret. his gaze holds yours, unwavering. âitâs okay. youâre okay.â
his words settle over you like a blanket, grounding you in the moment. for all his rough edges, rafe had a way of being exactly what you needed when the world felt like too much. and right now, that was more than enough.
the silence stretches between you, heavy and unspoken, until rafe finally sighs, breaking it. âi saw sarah at the store,â he says, his voice low.
your gaze lifts from your fingers, which had been nervously fiddling with the hem of your sweater. sitting up straighter, you meet his eyes, searching for something in his expression. âwhat did she say?â you ask softly.
he exhales sharply, leaning forward, his elbows resting on his knees. âi just want you to know,â he begins, his voice steady but tense, âsheâs not mad at you. sheâs mad at me.â his hand clenches into a fist, his knuckles whitening as he stares down at the floor.
âsarahâŚâ he trails off, his jaw tightening at the mere thought of her. after a beat, he continues, his voice bitter. âshe thinks iâm using you to get to her.â
the words hang in the air, and for a moment, all you can do is watch him, trying to make sense of it all. âare you?â you ask, your voice quiet but firm, your gaze unwavering as you search his face.
rafeâs eyes flicker between yours, the tension in his body palpable. his jaw works for a moment, and then he finally answers, his voice steady. âno.â
the way he says itâcalm, without hesitationâmakes you believe him. but the weight of everything else still lingers, making the air between you feel thick and unsteady.
ârafe, itâs fine. really, Iâm over it,â you say softly, trying to keep your tone light, even though it feels like thereâs a weight pressing down on your chest. âif you just want to keep it casual, then weâll leave it at that. it was the agreement in the first place, right?â
his jaw tightens, his teeth grinding together as he struggles to keep his composure. casual. the word feels like a knife twisting in his gut because itâs the opposite of what he wants.
but admitting that to you? thatâs something else entirely. he almost slipped earlierânearly spilled everything in the middle of the gas station while arguing with sarah. but here, sitting across from you, the words feel too heavy, too risky.
rafe wasnât lying when he said he wanted to protect you. every instinct in him screamed to keep you away from his world, to shield you from the darkness that followed him everywhere he went.
âitâs not that simple,â he mutters finally, his voice low, as if heâs talking more to himself than to you. his fists clench again, the tension in his body radiating outward. âyou think this is about keeping it casual? itâs not. itâs about keeping you safe.â
his eyes flick to yours, and for a moment, the mask slips completely. thereâs a raw vulnerability in his expression, something heâs been trying to keep buried. âthe way i live my life⌠itâll ruin you,â he says, his voice cracking slightly. âand i canât let that happen.â
your brows knit together, a confused pout forming on your lips that almost makes him cave. âif this is about stacy thorntonââ
âitâs not about stacy,â he interrupts quickly, his tone sharp but not unkind. his hands move to his face, rubbing stressfully as he exhales deeply. âthe reason you saw me with her that day on the golf course⌠it wasnât what you think.â
you stay quiet, your gaze fixed on him as he drops his hands and meets your eyes again. âi was trying to strike a deal with her father. cameron development is his companyâs biggest competitor, and if i can get close to stacy, he wonât see me as a threat, and i could blindside him,â he explains, his voice steady but laced with frustration, as though the situation is as exhausting for him as it is for you.
his hand instinctively finds your knee, his thumb tracing gentle patterns across it, grounding himself as much as you. âi donât want anything to do with stacy, i promise,â he says, his tone softening as he looks at you, his eyes searching yours for any sign of understanding.
the sincerity in his voice, the gentle touch of his hand, and the raw honesty in his confession make it harder for you to hold onto the frustration you felt before. âthen why does it feel like youâre always pushing me away?â you whisper, your voice trembling slightly.
his eyes shut softly, as if heâs trying to gather any remaining resolve he can muster. his chest rises and falls with a heavy sigh before he speaks, his voice low and unsteady. âbecause, babyâŚâ the nickname slips from his lips so naturally, so effortlessly, it sends a flutter through your stomach despite the weight of the moment.
âif i donât push you away,â he continues, his eyes opening slowly to meet yours, âthen i have to let you in. and i canât do that to you.â his voice cracks just slightly at the end, the vulnerability slipping through despite his attempts to stay composed.
his hand tightens its grip on your knee for a moment, as if anchoring himself to you, his thumb still tracing gentle patterns. âletting you in means exposing you to all of itâeverything iâve done, everything i am. and you donât deserve that.â his voice wavers, the rawness in his tone making your chest ache.
you stare at him, your heart twisting at his words. âbut donât you see?â you whisper, leaning forward slightly, your own voice trembling. âyouâre not protecting me by shutting me out, rafe. youâre just hurting me more.â
his resolve crumbles completely, the weight of holding back proving too much. he sighs softly, his hand sliding from your knee to gently grip your chin, tilting your face toward his. his eyes search yours for a moment, as if asking for permission, before leaning in and pressing his lips to yours in a soft, tentative kiss.
itâs not like the other times. this kiss isnât rushed or heatedâitâs careful, almost fragile, like heâs afraid it might break both of you if he lingers too long. his thumb brushes your jaw as his lips move against yours, and for a moment, the rest of the world fades away.
when he pulls back slightly, his forehead rests against yours, his hand still holding your chin. his voice is barely a whisper when he speaks. âiâm sorry,â he murmurs, his breath warm against your lips. âi just⌠i donât know how else to show you.â
âshow me what?â you whisper, your voice trembling slightly as you chew on your bottom lip, trying to steady yourself, trying to keep from closing the distance between you again.
rafeâs hand lingers on your chin, his thumb gently brushing your skin as his eyes bore into yours, raw and unguarded. he swallows hard, his voice breaking slightly as he finally says the words that have been clawing at him for what feels like forever.
âthat i love you,â he murmurs, the confession hanging heavily in the air between you. his gaze doesnât falter, watching your every reaction like heâs bracing himself for whatever comes next.
your breath catches in your throat, his words hitting you harder than you ever expected. the vulnerability in his voice, the way his hand shakes ever so slightly against your skinâitâs enough to shatter any walls you had left.
âwell, i can piece it together, iâm a big girl,â you mutter, your words barely leaving your lips before you close the space between you, crashing your mouth against his without another thought.
rafe groans softly, his hands immediately finding their way into your hair, tangling in it as he pulls you closer. in one swift motion, he removes the hat from your head, tossing it aside like itâs in his way. his lips move against yours with a mixture of urgency and tenderness, his touch igniting a spark that makes your whole body feel alive.
âwhat are you doing to me, huh?â he mumbles against your lips, his voice low and gravelly, the words almost a plea.
you smile against his mouth, the smallest laugh escaping you before you pull back just enough to meet his eyes, your hands brushing lightly against his chest. âprobably the same thing youâre doing to me,â you reply softly, your gaze flickering between his lips and his eyes.
a smirk tugs at the corners of his mouth before he pulls you back in, kissing you deeply, as if trying to make up for all the moments he held himself back.
rafeâs kisses left you dizzy, every touch, every movement pulling you deeper into him. before you even realized it, you were rolling your hips against his, your body moving instinctively, chasing the heat building between you. breathy moans slipped from your lips against his, and his hands gripped your waist firmly, guiding your movements as you straddled him.
âfuck, baby,â he groans, his head falling back slightly as he leans into the couch, his gaze flicking up to meet yours. âdoing so good fâme,â he mumbles, his voice rough with pleasure.
his words send a spark through you, making your hips move more deliberately, the friction sending shivers up your spine. rafeâs eyes never leave you, dark and hooded as he watches you attempt to bounce on him, your movements unsteady as the overwhelming pleasure takes hold of you.
âthatâs it,â he murmurs, his hands sliding down to grip your hips tighter, helping you find a rhythm. âso fucking perfect.â his praise only spurs you on, the intensity building with every roll of your hips, every moan that slips from both your lips. the world around you fades away, leaving just the two of you and the heat consuming you both.
the way you were squeezing around him had rafeâs jaw ticking, his self-control hanging by a thread. every movement of your hips sent shockwaves through him, and he was tryingâreally tryingânot to lose himself and thrust into you, wanting to keep you comfortable.
but when he couldnât hold back any longer, his hands gripped your waist firmly, flipping you so your back was splayed against the couch. before you could even process the shift, he grabbed one of the nearby pillows, sliding it under your lower back to lift your hips, positioning you for a deeper angle.
âtrust me,â he murmured, his voice rough but tender, his lips brushing against your temple as he settled between your legs.
then he started moving, his pace firm and deliberate, each thrust pushing into you with an intensity that had you crying out, your moans matching the rhythm of his movements. your hands gripped his neck for support, nails digging in slightly as the new angle sent pleasure coursing through you in waves.
âfuck,â rafe groaned, his voice low and strained as he watched your body arch beneath him. âyou feel so good, babyâso fucking perfect.â his words only amplified the heat pooling in your core, your moans turning into desperate gasps as he kept up the relentless pace, the balcony echoing with the sounds of skin meeting skin and your shared breaths.
ârafe, shitâdonât stop,â you beg, your voice trembling as your legs quiver around his waist, struggling to keep hold of him as he pounds into you. every thrust sends waves of pleasure coursing through you, your body arching into his as you cling to him for support.
he groans at your words, his eyes darkening as his hand slides up your body, finding its way to your neck. his fingers curl around your throat, applying just enough pressure under your jaw to make your head spin, the sensation amplifying the overwhelming heat pooling in your core.
âyou like that, huh?â he mutters, his voice rough and dripping with control as he watches your face twist in pleasure beneath him. âlook at you, baby, taking it so well for me.â
your eyes flutter closed as the overwhelming combination of his relentless pace and the pressure on your neck sends you spiraling closer to the edge. ârafe,â you whimper, your voice trembling, the sound barely audible over the symphony of heavy breaths and skin meeting skin.
his eyes stay locked on you, drinking in the sight of your flushed cheeks, parted lips, and trembling body beneath him. his other hand moves to press firmly on your lower stomach, the added pressure making you cry out, your back arching against the couch as the sensation intensifies everything.
âfuck,â he groans, his voice gravelly as he watches your reactions, completely entranced by the way you respond to him. âyou feel that?â he mutters, his hand pressing down just a little more. âfeel how deep i am?â
you can only nod weakly, your moans turning into desperate, breathless gasps as your body tightens around him, squeezing with every thrust. rafeâs jaw clenches, his own composure fraying as he drives you both closer and closer to the edge, his pace never faltering.
âcome on, pretty girl,â he murmurs through gritted teeth, his tone raw and commanding. âcum for me. iâve got you.â
his words are the final push, and your body shudders as the release crashes over you. your walls convulse around his cock, pulling a deep, guttural moan from his throat. the intensity has your head spinning, and your moans dissolve into gasps as he keeps thrusting, prolonging your high even as the overstimulation starts to set in.
rafeâs hand slips from your neck, his head dropping to rest beside yours, his breath hot against your skin. his pace falters as he feels his own release building rapidly. when your cunt squeezes him tightly on a particularly deep thrust, it sends him over the edge.
âfuck,â he groans, his hips stuttering as he spills inside of you, filling you completely. his grip on your hips tightens as he rides out the waves of his orgasm, his body trembling slightly against yours.
the room falls into a heavy silence, the only sounds the mingling of your ragged breaths and the faint hum of the crickets outside. rafe stays still for a moment, his forehead pressed against your shoulder, grounding himself before slowly pulling out to look at you, his eyes soft but unreadable.
âiâm sorry,â he murmurs, his voice soft, almost hesitant. âi didnât mean to be rough.â his eyes scan your face intently, searching for any trace of discomfort or regret.
you let out a soft laugh, reaching up to pull his face down to yours, pressing a chaste kiss to his lips. his shoulders relax, and he smiles against your mouth, the tension in his body melting away.
when you pull back, the wet sound of the kiss echoes softly in the quiet night, and a playful smirk tugs at your lips. âyouâre so cute,â you tease, your voice light and full of warmth.
for the first time, you see his cheeks flush a faint shade of pink, and the sight makes you erupt into a fit of laughter. rafe huffs softly, shaking his head, but thereâs a shy grin tugging at his lips that he canât hide.
âi love you, rafe,â you say suddenly, the words falling from your lips with ease, no hesitation or doubt.
his eyes widen slightly, his expression softening as he looks at you. for a moment, heâs silent, his hand brushing against your cheek. âi love you,â he whispers, his voice rough but steady, his gaze holding yours as if to make sure you know just how much he means it.
âweâre gonna be okay,â you whisper softly, your hand coming up to caress his cheek. your thumb brushes over his skin in slow, soothing strokes, your eyes locked on his.
âyeah,â rafe murmurs, his voice dark and full of resolve, âafter i kill the person who recorded you.â
your hand stills for a moment, his words making your stomach twist. you can see the tension in his jaw, the way his eyes darken at the thought, his anger simmering just beneath the surface.
ârafe,â you say softly, leaning closer to him, your tone a mixture of caution and reassurance. âthatâs not how we should handle this. i just⌠i just want it to go away. i donât want you to make it worse.â
his eyes flicker back to yours, softening slightly, though the fire in them doesnât fully fade. âno one gets to do that to you,â he mutters, his hand coming up to cover yours on his cheek. âno one gets to hurt you and get away with it.â
you sigh, leaning your forehead against his. âweâll figure it out. together. just⌠donât do anything stupid, okay?â
he doesnât answer right away, the weight of your words hanging between you. but after a moment, he nods reluctantly, his hand tightening around yours. âokay,â he finally says, his voice calm, though the tension in his tone betrays him. itâs clear heâs only agreeing to keep you at ease.
later, once youâve fallen into a deep, peaceful sleep, rafe gently scoops you up, careful not to wake you. he carries you to his bed, tucking you under the soft duvet. his gaze lingers on your face for a moment, his expression softening as he brushes a stray strand of hair from your cheek. with a quiet sigh, he turns and closes the door behind him.
but thereâs no rest for him tonight. he stalks to his office, the air around him heavy with purpose. dropping into his chair, he powers up his laptop, his jaw set as he begins sending emails and messages.
personal investigators, tech-savvy acquaintances, and anyone else who might help him track down the person responsible for the videoâyouâre not just a priority to him; youâre the priority.
each keystroke is filled with a quiet rage, his determination growing with every email sent. rafe wonât rest, wonât stop, until he figures out who did this to youâand makes sure they regret it.
nobody gets me is gonna have a part 2 right?? RIGHT??!! đ
LOL hi anon! ⥠iâve been receiving so much love from nobody gets me so yes! i do plan on making it a series. the next chapter will be called wildflower⌠stay tuned!
notes: welcome to my master list! here are all of the silly things iâve written, some being series, some being stand alones or one shots. in all of these cases, they are for mature audiences. with that being said if you are a minor please do not interact. all of my posts (unless stated otherwise) contain explicit content. you are responsible for the content you consume so youâve been warned.
this is technically a multi-fandom blog, however i do mainly write for rafe cameron/characters that drew starkey has played.
thank you all so much for the love and support! âĄ
âyouâre a fucking idiot,â kie says through a burst of laughter, watching jj attempt to shotgun two beers at once. instead of drinking, most of the beer spills straight onto the sand, leaving him grinning like it was all part of the plan.
a soft giggle slips past your lips as jj smashes the crushed cans together dramatically, then thumps his chest like he just pulled off something incredibleâeven though he couldnât have failed more miserably.
you shake your head, pointing at the two crushed cans lying in the sand. âdonât give him any more if heâs gonna pull shit like that!â you say, half-serious, half-amused.
jjâs grin fades into a mock frown, his brows furrowing as he throws his hands up dramatically. âwhat? i was just getting started!â he protests, though the beer-soaked sand beneath him says otherwise.
you roll your eyes, ready to fire back at jj, when the vibration of your phone in your hand distracts you. the name on the screen makes your stomach flip, and you bite down on your bottom lip, fighting to keep a smile from slipping out where your friends could see.
kook devil: wya?
you: beach kickback on the cut
kook devil: omw
this time, the smile wins. you glance down at the screen, the corners of your lips tugging upward despite yourself. it wasnât the first time rafe cameron had texted you late at night, asking where you were. but no one else knew that. and you werenât about to admit it to anyoneâespecially not to your friends.
friends who hated kooks with a passion. and everything, and everyone, that came with them.
âwhat are you smiling at?â sarah asks, her voice light but laced with curiosity, as she and john b stroll over, his arm draped casually over her shoulders. her amused grin only makes you more nervous.
you lock your phone instantly, still smiling but scrambling for an excuse. âmy package just got delivered,â you say quickly, trying to sound nonchalant.
sarah hums in response, the suspicion in her tone subtle but enough to make your stomach tighten. you donât notice, too busy avoiding eye contact and silently thanking the chaos that erupts when jj and pope start arguing about something ridiculous, as usual.
you knew what you were doing was wrong. so wrong, especially to sarah. if she ever found out you and rafe were hooking up behind everyoneâs backs, sheâd lose it. they all would. and not just because heâs a kook.
itâs because heâs rafe fucking cameron.
it was kind of a blur how it all started with rafe. you remember being at a partyânot sure if it was here on the beach or in figure 8âbut of course, he was there, lingering in the crowd. all night, his eyes kept finding yours, holding your gaze just a little too long.
a couple of tequila shots later, you found yourself in his truck, attempting to ride him as he fucked you senseless, leaving you a trembling mess of moans and breathless curses.
ever since that night, youâd fallen into a rhythmâfriends with benefits, if you could even call it that. except you werenât friends. not even close.
you and rafe both knew the dealâjust sex, no strings attached. it was made clear the second time you hooked up. after somehow getting your number, rafe texted you at 1 a.m. asking to meet. if it had been anyone else, you wouldâve said no without a second thought. but rafe cameron always gets what he wants.
afterward, it was rafe who spelled it out: just sex, nothing more. and you agreed, even though the words stung more than you cared to admit. you told yourself you were fine with it, hoping that maybe, just maybe, if you played along long enough, heâd change his mind.
except he hasnât.
and what really reeled you in was just the other day, you spotted him on the golf course with stacy thornton, topperâs cousin of all people. and of course he knew youâd see himâyou work the country club as a bev girl. how could you not?
still, you swallowed the lump in your throat, pretending not to care even as your chest tightened. you quietly asked a coworker to handle his table, murmuring something about being swamped, and then buried yourself in busywork to avoid the sting of watching him laugh with her.
since that day, he hasnât called or texted. not a word. until tonight.
because surely, stacy was busy.
âyo, y/n! come shotgun a beer with us!â kie and sarah call out, snapping you out of your thoughts. you force a small smile, pushing everything about rafe to the back of your mind as you stand up from the driftwood branch youâd been perched on. joining your girls, you grab a beer and do your best to play along.
as the night rolls on, the beach fills up with more peopleâkooks, pogues, and everyone in between. the music gets louder, and the air becomes a chaotic mix of laughter, shouting, and waves crashing in the background. drunk teenagers stagger through the sand, passing bottles and shots around, but so far, there havenât been any issues. yet.
but you know how these nights go. when kooks and pogues show up to the same party, trouble is inevitable. itâs only a matter of time before someone says or does something to spark it. like clockwork.
bright headlights pierce through the darkness, momentarily blinding you as a familiar truck pulls onto the beach. your stomach tightens at the sight, but you force yourself to stay calm, laughing along with your friends as if you hadnât noticed. even as the kooks around you start murmuring and shouting, announcing rafeâs arrival, you keep your eyes anywhere but on him.
your gaze flicks to sarah, catching the way her jaw tightens when she sees her older brother greeting her old friends with effortless charm. the tension is palpable. itâs no secret that sarah and rafe are far from good terms, and the thought of what sheâd do if she ever found out about you and him is enough to make your chest ache. sheâd hate youâno question about it.
and you didnât want that. not now, not ever. so tonight, with enough liquid courage coursing through your veins, youâd finally do it. youâd end whatever this thing was with rafe. it was time. it had to be.
âhey, sweetheart,â jj slurs, suddenly draping an arm over your shoulders, his familiar, lopsided grin plastered across his face. the smell of alcohol lingers on his breath, and you canât help but laugh. drunk jj was always clingy and affectionate, a far cry from his usual chaotic self.
âhow are you? you good?â he asks, his voice softer than usual, his blue eyes lazily scanning your face for any hint of something wrong.
you nod, patting his knee where it rests against yours. âiâm fine, jay. what about you? having fun?â
he grins wider, squeezing your shoulder as if to reassure you. âalways. especially now that youâre here.â his words are lighthearted, but his presence, warm and grounding, makes the knot in your stomach ease just a little.
âdonât start something you canât finish, maybank,â you tease, your tone playful, something thatâs always been a part of your dynamic with jj. it was harmless, never anything more than friendly banter. jj was like a brother to you, and you both knew it.
his smirk widens, a mischievous glint in his eyes. âoh, i always finish what i start,â he shoots back, his voice dripping with mock confidence. the comment makes heat rise to your cheeks despite yourself, and you nudge his side with a laugh.
ârelax, jj,â you say, still grinning, but he just laughs along with you, clearly enjoying your reaction.
then his tone drops, more conspiratorial now, as he leans in closer. âcan i tell you a secret?â he slurs, his voice low and exaggeratedly serious.
you play along, tilting your head toward him as he cups a hand over his mouth like heâs sharing classified information. âiâm so drunk right now,â he whispers dramatically.
a laugh bursts out of you, louder than you intended, as you push him off of you. âno shit, jay,â you say through your giggles, watching him sway slightly before laughing along with you. moments like these made everything feel lighter, even with the weight of everything else hanging in the air.
suddenly, the laughter dies in your throat as a familiar voice cuts through the noise, instantly tightening the tension in your shoulders. âi wanna laugh too,â rafe drawls, his tone sharp and laced with something dangerous.
your head snaps up, and sure enough, there he is, standing a few feet away with his hands casually stuffed into his pockets. but his stare is locked on you, unwavering, intense. your stomach churns as you quickly look away, pretending not to notice.
âwhat are you doing here, rafe?â sarah asks, her voice cold as ice, glaring at her brother like she wanted him gone before he could stir up trouble.
he shrugs nonchalantly, though the slight clench in his jaw betrays his calm demeanor. âwell, last time i checked, you donât own the beach, sarah,â he retorts, his tone sharp enough to cut. the sunset casts a fiery glow on his face, highlighting the tension in his features. heâs angryâat what, you donât know, but itâs obvious.
sarah opens her mouth to snap back, but before she can, jj suddenly stands to his feet, his drunken bravado kicking in full force. âwhatâs your problem, man?â he slurs, his voice rising as he steps forward, shoulders squared like heâs ready to fight.
your heart pounds in your chest as the energy shifts sharply, the tension coiling tighter with every second. itâs like the whole beach can feel it, the calm before the inevitable storm. you glance around nervously, noticing the kooks starting to make their way over, drawn by the brewing conflict like moths to a flame.
what had been your comfortable little corner with your friends now feels suffocating as more and more people gather, the divide between kooks and pogues growing thicker with every step they take. rafe doesnât move, his stance unbothered but his eyes flickering with something unreadable as they dart between jj and you.
you can hear your friends muttering behind you, tension spreading like wildfire. this wasnât going to end wellâyou could feel it in your bones.
john b, ever the peacekeeper, steps in with a steady hand on jjâs shoulder, giving it a calming squeeze. âhey, bro, take a walk,â he says softly, his tone measured, trying to de-escalate before things spiral further.
but jj shakes his head, his expression twisting with frustration. ânah, nah, nah,â he says, shrugging john bâs hand off. his voice is louder now, sharp and angry, fueled by alcohol and pent-up resentment. âiâm so tired of these fuck-ass kooks ruining our fun. everything was fine before they got here.â
he turns to rafe, his eyes blazing with defiance. âso answer the damn question, rafe. what the fuck is your problem?â
the words hang in the air, cutting through the murmur of onlookers as more kooks and pogues close in around you, their postures rigid and ready for whateverâs about to unfold. the tension is suffocating, thick enough to choke on. your stomach twists as you glance between jj, whoâs practically vibrating with anger, and rafe, whose jaw is locked, his eyes dark and unreadable.
rafe suddenly lets out a low, humorless laugh, shaking his head like he canât believe what heâs hearing. he swipes a finger under his nose, his signature tell that trouble is coming. before anyone can react, he steps forward and throws a punch, his fist connecting squarely with jjâs jaw.
the sound of the hit echoes over the beach, silencing the chatter and gasps from the growing crowd. jj stumbles back, catching himself before falling, his hand flying up to his face as he spits blood into the sand.
âyouâve gotta be fucking kidding me,â john b mutters, stepping between them instinctively, trying to keep jj from lunging forward. but jjâs already shaking with rage, shoving john b aside as the crowd erupts around you.
the once calm beach party turns chaotic, the tension finally snapping into chaos, and youâre frozen in the middle of it all, unsure of what to do as your heart pounds in your chest.
mayhem erupts around you as everyone starts shouting, the noise almost deafening. jj and rafe are swinging at each other, fists flying with raw anger. john b and topper try to break it up, but their own simmering tensions (sarah cameron) boil over, and soon enough, theyâre throwing punches at each other too.
âalright! alright!â you, sarah, and kie yell, your voices cutting through the chaos as you rush in, desperately trying to pull the four boys apart. itâs a mess of flailing arms, insults, and drunken fury, but with the help of the other pogues and even a few kooks who seem equally tired of the drama, you finally manage to separate them.
jj stands a few feet away now, chest heaving as he wipes blood from his lip, glaring daggers at rafe. rafe, meanwhile, is being restrained by two kooks, his jaw tight and his eyes locked on jj like heâs ready to go again at any second. john b and topper arenât much better, breathing heavily and throwing venomous insults back and forth as theyâre held apart.
you step back, your heart still racing as the crowd buzzes with murmurs and tension, the air thick and electric. this was far from over, and you could feel it.
âyeah, stay the fuck off our side of the island!â jj yells, his voice sharp and unwavering as the kooks start retreating. rafe lingers, of course, making direct eye contact with you. his gaze burns, but you glare right back, your frustration simmering beneath the surface. whatever you needed to say to him was definitely happening tonight after the shit he just pulled.
âtake jj to the chateau. i think thereâs a first aid kit in the bathroom,â john b instructs kie and pope, his tone calm but firm. they nod, each grabbing one of jjâs arms to help guide him away. jj, still riled up, mutters under his breath about how much of a pussy rafe is, his words slurring slightly from the drinks and adrenaline.
sarah walks over to you, concern etched across her face. âhey, you okay?â she asks gently. her voice is soft, but the sincerity in her eyes almost undoes you. you nod quickly, blinking back the tears threatening to spill over.
âyeah, iâm fine. just anxious,â you respond, your voice steady enough to sound convincing. itâs not entirely a lie, but itâs far from the whole truth. sarah offers you a small, understanding smile, her hand rubbing your arm soothingly.
âcoming?â she asks, gesturing toward john b, whoâs waiting for her a few feet away.
âi think iâm just gonna head home,â you say, your voice a little rushed. âmy mom textedâshe got off work early, soâŚâ you let the excuse hang in the air, hoping itâs enough.
sarah nods slowly, her eyes flickering with a mix of understanding and suspicion. âjohn b and i can walk you,â she offers.
âno, itâs okay. i kinda need a moment,â you reply quickly, your voice firmer this time. you hold your breath as her gaze lingers on you, studying you for a beat too long. but thankfully, she doesnât press it.
âokay, babe,â she says finally, her concern softening into a warm smile. âlet me know when you get home, yeah?â
you nod, watching as she walks back toward john b, the two of them eventually disappearing into the growing shadows. only when theyâre far enough away do you exhale, the weight of the night pressing heavy on your chest.
with one last glance at the party starting to settle back down, you turn and walk in the opposite direction, knowing exactly where youâre goingâand who youâre going to face.
you make your way over to the truck, its headlights dim now but still parked exactly where he left it. crossing your arms over your chest, you lean against the back door of the truck, waiting. itâs quiet here, tucked away from the rest of the beach where no one can see you.
the sound of approaching footsteps pulls your attention, and there he is. rafe cameron, calm and collected as ever, despite the chaos he caused. heâs holding a red solo cup against his cheekbone, the faintest shadow of a bruise forming. but even so, you have to admitâhe doesnât look nearly as bad as jj does. of course he doesnât.
his eyes meet yours, and for a moment, neither of you say anything. the tension between you is thicker than ever, the air heavy with unspoken words. you take a deep breath, preparing yourself for what you came here to do.
âi canât see you anymore, rafe,â you say, finally breaking the silence. your voice is firm, but you can feel the ache behind the words, threatening to betray you.
rafe doesnât move. instead, a small, almost smug smile quirks at the corner of his lips. âget in the truck,â he says, his tone low and even, like itâs not up for debate.
your brows knit together, your frustration bubbling up. did he not hear you? or worse, did he just not care? âno, rafe,â you snap, shaking your head. âwhat you did todayââ you pause, letting out a sharp sigh as the memories replay in your mind. your gaze shifts over his shoulder to the road, watching cars pass by, their headlights a welcome distraction. âyou hurt my friends,â you continue, your voice quieter now but still steady. âi care a lot about my friends. and that shit you pulled back there?â you point toward the spot on the beach where the chaos unfolded, the tension still lingering in the air. âwasnât cool.â
rafe follows your gesture with a glance, his expression unreadable. but when his eyes flick back to you, thereâs something in themâsomething dangerous, something unshaken. he doesnât respond, just waits, like he knows youâre not finished yet.
âwhy would you do that?â your voice cracks despite your best effort to keep it steady. the words hang heavy in the air, and you curse softly under your breath, furious with yourself for letting your emotions bubble over. you promised you wouldnât let him see you like thisâwouldnât give him the satisfaction of seeing you cry. but now, the tears are pricking at the corners of your eyes, threatening to spill.
rafeâs face doesnât change, his jaw tight but his expression otherwise calm, almost detached. itâs like heâs weighing his words, deciding what to sayâor if heâll even bother answering at all. the silence feels suffocating, the weight of everything unsaid pressing down on your chest.
âare you fucking him?â rafe finally speaks, his voice low and steady, but the accusation behind the words hits you like a slap. you stare at him, wide-eyed, like heâs just grown three heads.
a laugh of disbelief escapes you as you shake your head, running a hand through your hair to keep yourself from losing it. âare you serious right now?â you ask, your voice teetering between anger and shock.
âare you?â he presses, his tone sharper this time, his eyes locked on yours, unrelenting.
âoh my god,â you mutter, another laugh bubbling out, this one laced with frustration. âis that why you did that? you think iâve been fucking one of my best friends? are you shitting me, rafe?â you shake your head again, the absurdity of the accusation almost too much to handle.
he doesnât flinch, doesnât back down, his gaze still burning into yours like heâs waiting for you to crack. but you donâtâat least, not yet.
âwell, since weâre just accusing each other of shit now,â you say, your voice sharp as a knife, âhowâs stacy doing?â your eyes flicker between his, and just like you predicted, his confidence falters. thereâs a momentâa flickerâwhere his gaze drops, and you pounce. âi assume she was busy tonight, right? that why you texted me?â
âwhat the fuck are you talking about?â rafe snaps, his chest rising and falling heavily as he steps closer, his frustration spilling over.
âoh, donât give me that shit, rafe,â you fire back, crossing your arms tightly over your chest. your eyes dart away from his, landing anywhere but on him. âi saw you at the country club,â you continue, your voice cold, the memory still fresh.
his jaw tightens, but he doesnât say anything, and the silence only fuels your anger. âand even then,â you add, spinning back to face him, your words cutting like glass, âwhat if i am fucking jj? what is it to you? youâre the one who said no strings attached, right?â
you see the way his nostrils flare, his jaw clenching so tightly you think it might snap. his eyes darken, and you know exactly what heâs thinkingâthe thought of jj seeing you the way rafe has, touching you, hearing the sounds you make. itâs killing him. but he wonât say it. not out loud.
âyouâre mad, rafe,â you say, your voice quieter now but still firm. âbut you donât get to be. not after the rules you set.â
you push past him, deciding you were doneâdone with the accusations, the games, all of it. but, of course, you donât get far. rafeâs hand closes firmly around your wrist, yanking you back toward him with enough force that you stumble. before you can steady yourself, you collide with his chest, the hard press of muscle against you taking your breath away.
his lips crash against yours without warning, rough and demanding, pulling a shocked gasp from your lips. the intensity of it sends a jolt through you, but itâs not enough to freeze you in place. your fists fly up, pushing hard against his chest, trying to shove him off.
ârafe,â you manage, your voice muffled against his lips, but itâs like he doesnât even hear you. instead, your resistance only seems to fuel him, his free hand sliding up to wrap around your neck, not too tight, but firm enough to hold you there.
his lips move hungrily against yours, his breath hot, his grip unwavering. you can feel the frustration, the anger, and something else tangled in the way he kisses youâsomething you canât name, something overwhelming. your heart races, torn between wanting to fight and the way your body reacts instinctively to his touch.
you hated it. hated how easily your body betrayed you, handing itself over to him without a second thought. and the worst part? rafe knew it too. he always did.
he used it to his advantage every time, just like now. the second your resistance began to falter, the tension in your fists loosening as your body instinctively softened against his, that familiar smug smile tugged at the corners of his lips. he could feel itâthe way your resolve was slipping, the way the pull between you was overtaking every logical thought in your mind.
the familiarity of him started to seep through, clouding the anger that had burned so brightly just moments ago. rafeâs grip on your neck relaxed slightly, his fingers brushing your skin like he had all the time in the world, as if he wasnât the reason youâd wanted to end this in the first place.
and god, you hated him for it. but you hated yourself even more. no matter how much you told yourself to walk away, to end it, your body always seemed to betray you the moment his hands were on you.
before you even realized what was happening, you were in the back seat of rafeâs truck, straddling his lap. his hands gripped your hips with bruising force, guiding your movements as you instinctively rolled against him. the friction of his hardened, clothed cock pressing against you sent shivers up your spine, a traitorous whimper slipping past your lips.
his breath was hot against your neck, his lips brushing your skin as he let out a low groan of satisfaction. you hated how easily he got to you, how the anger you felt just moments ago melted into something entirely different. but no matter how much you wanted to stop, your body moved on its own, craving the familiarity of him, the intensity only he could give you.
his hands move from gripping your hips to trailing up your back, his fingers deftly finding the string of your bikini top. with a quick tug, the knot unravels, and the fabric falls between you, exposing your chest to the cool night air. the intimate sound of your breathing mixes with the muffled noise of the distant beach party, but all you can focus on is him.
rafe wastes no time, leaning in to pepper kisses across your chest. each press of his lips ignites a trail of goosebumps on your skin, the sensation making you arch closer to him. his mouth finds one of your hardened nipples, pulling it into his mouth as his hand cups the other, his fingers teasing and rolling with practiced precision.
a moan slips from your lips, filling the still air around you. rafe hums in satisfaction, his hot breath fanning against your sensitive skin. his grip on you tightens as he continues, clearly intent on drawing every reaction out of you that he can.
âfuck, i missed you,â he breathes, his voice low and ragged as he pulls back just enough to let the words slip past his lips. before you can even process them, his mouth is back on you, his lips and tongue working their way across your skin, pulling a broken whimper from your throat.
you shake your head weakly, your fingers gripping his shoulders, trying to ground yourself. âno, you didnât,â you whisper, your voice trembling, the words more of a desperate plea than an accusation.
rafe pauses, his lips hovering over your collarbone. his hands tighten their hold on your waist, pulling you impossibly closer as he meets your gaze, his blue eyes blown out. âyes, i did,â he mutters, his tone firm, almost defensive, before dipping his head back down to kiss you again, as if he could erase the doubt you so clearly feel.
with one hand, he makes quick work of the button on your shorts, pulling them down just enough to give himself better access. his hand slips past the waistband of your bikini bottoms, his fingers brushing against your heated skin. the low groan that escapes his lips when he feels how soaked you are sends a jolt of heat straight through you.
ânot surprising,â he mutters against your lips, his voice thick with smug satisfaction.
you gasp, your head falling back slightly as his fingers glide through your folds, gathering your arousal before starting slow, deliberate circles against your clit. the sensation sparks through you, making your hips instinctively rock against his hand, chasing the friction.
rafeâs smirk deepens as he watches you, his free hand gripping your waist tighter to keep you steady. âthatâs it, pretty girl,â he murmurs, his voice low and gravelly, dripping with control. âjust like that.â
a moan escapes your lips when his fingers pick up their pace, his breathing becoming heavier against your neck. âthink that pogue could get you to cum like i can, huh?â he taunts, his words cutting through the haze of pleasure. before you can respond, his fingers dip into your entrance, filling you to where you feel the cold metal ring wrapped around his finger, while his thumb presses firmly against your clit. the double stimulation sends a shockwave through you, your hands fisting his shirt as you struggle to stifle the moans threatening to spill out.
you bite down hard on your lip, trying not to give him the satisfaction he craves, but itâs so hardâhe knows your body too well.
âi know he can,â you finally manage to retort, your voice breathless but defiant. the second the words leave your mouth, you see itâthe flicker of rage that darkens his eyes. his movements grow rougher, more deliberate, as if heâs determined to make you eat your words.
you sob out a moan, your body trembling as his pace remains relentless, refusing to give you even a second to catch your breath. âthe fuck he can,â he growls, his voice low and feral, watching with a smug satisfaction as you struggle to keep yourself upright. his smirk deepens as he leans in, capturing your lips in a bruising kiss, all teeth and desperation, swallowing your broken cries.
your hands cling to his shoulders as waves of pleasure crash through you, your body arching into his touch. his fingers work you expertly, his movements precise and unyielding as he pushes you closer and closer to the edge, your breaths coming out in ragged gasps.
âcâmon, baby,â he murmurs against your lips, his voice rough and dripping with desperation. âlet me hear you.â his words send a shiver down your spine, and you feel yourself teetering on the brink, unable to hold back any longer.
you feel yourself start to convulse around his fingers, your body trembling as a broken cry tears from your lips. the waves of your orgasm crash over you, leaving you breathless and weak. rafe keeps going, his fingers guiding you through every pulse of pleasure, not stopping until your body begins to twitch with hints of overstimulation. but thereâs no tenderness in itânot that you deserved any, not after what you said.
your earlier comment still burned in his mind, fueling a fire in his chest, the thought of you with jj maybank making him see red. it wasnât about trustâit was about possession, and rafe couldnât stand the idea of someone else touching what he considered his.
without warning, he grabs your waist and flips you around, pressing your head against the leather seat, your ass in the air. your shorts and bikini bottoms are gone in one swift motion, leaving you completely exposed. you barely have time to react before you hear the sound of his zipper, his own clothes hitting the floor of the truck in a mess.
âyou wanna talk about jj?â he growls, his voice low and dripping with frustration as he positions himself at your entrance, the heat of him pressing against you. âletâs see if youâre still thinking about him when Iâm done with you.â
before you can process his words, he thrusts into you without warning, burying himself to the hilt in one swift, punishing motion. the stretch is overwhelming, a cry slipping from your lips, quickly muffled as you press your face into the seat.
rafe doesnât give you a moment to adjust, setting a relentless, eye-rolling pace that has your body jolting with every thrust. his hands grip your waist tightly, pulling you back to meet each snap of his hips, his frustration evident in the way he moves.
âyou feel that?â he mutters, his voice rough and breathless as he leans over you, his chest grazing your back. âthatâs all me. no one else, you hear me?â his words mix with the sound of skin against skin, every syllable driving him deeper, leaving you a trembling mess beneath him.
you nod dumbly, unable to form words as your body reacts to his every movement. a gasp tears from your lips when his arm snakes around your neck, pulling you upright slightly and holding you firmly in place. the pressure makes your head spin, amplifying every sensation coursing through your body.
the truck fills with the obscene sounds of wet slaps and desperate moans, each one louder than the last. your cries mix with rafeâs rough groans, the intensity between you reaching a fever pitch. you briefly thank your lucky stars that his truck has fully blacked-out windows, shielding this mess of tangled limbs and raw need from prying eyes.
rafe moans in your ear, his voice thick with possession, his breath hot against your skin. âall mine. no one else gets to have you like this.â his pace never falters, every thrust pushing you closer to the edge again, leaving you gasping and trembling under his control.
just when you think the pleasure is close to consuming you whole, rafeâs fingers snake down between your thighs, finding your clit with infuriating precision. he rubs quick, tight circles, the added sensation pulling a choked cry from your lips as your body jerks in response.
your arm flings back instinctively, your hand finding the back of his neck, clutching onto him desperately as if heâs the only thing keeping you upright. his breath is hot against your ear, ragged and uneven, matching the force of his thrusts.
âfuck, baby,â he groans softly, his voice laced with satisfaction as he feels you trembling against him. âyouâre gonna cum, arenât you?â
ârafeââ you moan, your grip on his neck tightening as the overwhelming mix of sensations sends you spiraling, your body teetering on the brink. every snap of his hips, every movement of his fingers, pushes you closer, the pleasure crashing over you in waves as you fight to keep from collapsing back into the seat.
your body trembles uncontrollably as the wave of pleasure crashes over you, your walls tightening around him with a vice-like grip. rafe grunts, his breath ragged and uneven as he feels you squeezing him, the sensation tipping him over the edge.
âshit,â he moans, his voice low and strained, giving one last stuttered thrust before he stills, his release spilling into you. the warmth of him floods your core, the weight of his body pressing against yours as he rides out his high, panting heavily into the crook of your neck.
the air in the truck is thick, the only sounds now the mingling of your heavy breathing and the faint hum of the world outsideâso distant it feels like it doesnât even exist. rafeâs hand loosens its hold on your hip along with the arm around your neck, his thumb lazily brushing your skin as he finally starts to come down.
rafeâs forehead, damp with sweat, rests against your shoulder for a moment as he catches his breath. Slowly, he pulls out of you, leaving you trembling and weak-kneed. Sensing it, he carefully guides you to sit on the seat, his touch surprisingly gentle now, as if trying not to shatter the fragile silence between you.
but it doesnât last long. the haze starts to lift, post-sex clarity hitting you like a wave. your heart poundsânot from pleasure anymore, but from the weight of everything that just happened. you donât look at him, donât say a word. instead, you scramble off the seat, your eyes scanning the floor of the truck as you rush to gather your clothes. the humid air clings to your skin, suffocating you, making it feel like the walls of the truck are closing in.
ây/n,â rafe starts, his voice softer now, but you donât respond, just shake your head. You tug your shorts on with shaky hands, your bikini top still tangled in your grasp as you turn your back to him, your only thought being how fast you can get out of this damn truck.
as soon as you adjust your bikini top, youâre scrambling for the door handle, slipping out of the truck as quickly as you can. the door slams shut behind you with a loud thud, cutting off the heavy silence inside. rafeâs voice calls after you, his tone somewhere between frustration and confusion, but you donât look back. you donât even slow down.
his words echo faintly in the humid night air as you trudge across the sand, but you block them out, your heartbeat pounding in your ears.
you hated yourself in this momentâreally hated yourself. how could you be so weak? jj was probably back at the chateau right now, an ice pack pressed to his bruised face, joking it off like he always did. meanwhile, you were here, tangled up with the very person responsible for putting him there.
it made your stomach twist. you felt pathetic.
the guilt gnawed at you, making every step away from that truck feel heavier, like you were sinking further into something you didnât know how to escape. you wrap your arms around yourself, the night air cold against your skin, and silently vowânever again.
as you step into your home, the soft glow of the television catches your eye. your mom is asleep on the couch, the faint sound of some late-night show playing in the background. you pause, the sight of her peaceful face tugging at something inside you. quietly, you grab the nearest blanket and drape it over her, tucking it gently around her frame before turning off the TV.
you make your way to your room, your body heavy with exhaustion. pulling out your phone, the screen lights up with countless missed calls and textsâall from him. rafeâs name stares back at you, the words call me back and where did you go? flashing among the messages. with a sigh, you open the contact and quickly silence his notifications. blocking him would feel too final, too harsh, and you know it wouldnât stop him anyway. rafe knew where to find youâwhere you lived, where you spent your time, even your favorite food spot. blocking him would only provoke him further.
you drop your phone on the bed and head straight for the bathroom, turning the shower dial as cold as it would go. the icy water hits your skin like needles, but you welcome it, hoping itâll wash away everythingâhis touch, his words, the feeling of his hands on your body.
but no matter how long you stand there, no matter how hard you scrub, the memories resurface, unrelenting. the way he looked at you. the sound of his voice. the pull he always had on you. you press your forehead against the cool tile, biting back the emotions threatening to overwhelm you.
how did it get this far?
the muffled vibration of your phone stirs you from sleep, the name sarah đ lighting up the screen. groaning, you fumble for the phone and press it to your ear, voice still thick with sleep. âhellââ
âis it true?â sarahâs voice crackles through the static, sharp and tense, jolting you fully awake. your eyes shoot open, the confusion and dread hitting you all at once.
âsarah, whatââ you begin, but she doesnât let you finish.
âgot it,â she says curtly, and before you can protest, the line goes dead.
you pull the phone away from your ear, staring at the dark screen as if it could offer you answers. confusion twists in your chest, but then you see itâa new message notification from her.
your hands tremble slightly as you unlock your phone and click the message. the screen shifts to a video file, sent from an anonymous number. you hesitate, the dread creeping up your spine like ice, but you press play.
the blood drains from your face as the video begins. itâs youâyou and rafe. the footage is grainy, but itâs unmistakable. you see yourself pressed against the back door of his truck, his hands gripping you as you melt into the heated kiss. the angle shifts slightly, shaky and invasive, capturing the moment he pushes you inside the truck. and thenâcut.
the video ends abruptly, leaving you staring at the black screen, your heart racing so hard you can feel it in your throat. you drop the phone onto your bed, your blood running cold as the weight of it crashes over you.
someone had seen. someone knew. and now sarah did too.
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synopsis! every winter break, you and your childhood best friend zachâs families plan the annual trip to your familyâs cabin in the mountains. but when an accident happens, a guilt-ridden zach is willing to do whatever it takes to make you feel better.
paring: zach maclaren x fem!reader
warnings: childhood friends to lovers , zach accidentally hurts reader , mentions of bruising , angst , lots of fluff (zach is so hopelessly in love with you it hurts) , sexual content + unprotected sex! , fingering , mature , 18+ (minors dni!)
word count: 8.2k
notes: todayâs post is a long one but bear w me pls i had to edit so much of it :(
âcan you grab the spare?â zach calls from the back of the range rover, tugging the luggage out of the trunk.
stepping out of the car, the icy air hits your face like a slap, the sudden chill turning your nose pink and making your cheeks tingle.
âfuck, itâs freezing,â you mutter under your breath, hurrying over to the pile of rocks near the cabin door. your fingers, already stiff and trembling from the cold, fumble as you dig through the stones, searching for the fake rock with the hidden spare key.
finally, you find it and unlock the door. you and zach waste no time rushing inside, flipping on the furnace and switching on the electric fireplace. warm air begins to spill into the room, cutting through the biting chill.
âjesus, itâs brutal out there,â zach says with a laugh, dropping the suitcases by the front door.
âi know,â you reply, rubbing your hands together for warmth. âi donât get how our parents do it when they get here first.â
your gaze sweeps over the cabin, familiar and cozy even in its current state of disarray. a small smile creeps onto your face as memories flood back. by the time your family usually arrives, the maclarens have already set everything upâlights twinkling, garlands hung, the whole place transformed for the holidays.
but not this year. this year, you and zach got here first. being in college has made it easier for the two of you to make the trip, especially since itâs only a short drive from campus. with your parents tied up at work, they wonât arrive for another two days, leaving you and zach to settle in and prepare the cabin yourselves
zach seems to read your mind as he heads toward the storage closet under the staircase. âthe moms mentioned something about the decorations being in here,â he says, pulling open the door.
he starts rummaging through the piles, expecting to find boxes labeled xmas. instead, his hand lands on a stack labeled snowboarding gear. a small smile tugs at his lips.
âguess the decorations can wait,â he says, pulling out the boxes. turning to you, he raises an eyebrow, and you meet his look with a knowing nod. âget dressed.â
you glide across the flat, powdery snow after hopping off the ski lift. the cold air nips at your cheeks, leaving them rosy and warm beneath your baby pink goggles. when you finally stop at the edge of the slope, you tug the goggles up onto your helmet, panting softly as mist forms in the cold air.
zach approaches behind you, stopping at your side. you look up at him, your eyes bright with excitement. âhi,â you say, your breath still catching from the climb.
âhey,â he replies, chuckling softly, his voice warm and steady. he feels something tighten in his chestâyour voice, your smile, the way you look at him. if only you knew how effortlessly you could bring him to his knees.
but he would never say it. not to you. not when it could risk the friendship youâve built over years.
youâve been inseparable since second grade, when zach worked up the courage to ask for your help mastering the monkey bars. you were the only one who could make it all the way across without falling, and heâd admired you ever since. now, here you areâstill together, still tangled in a friendship that means everything, even if it sometimes feels like it could be so much more.
zach isnât sure when his feelings for you started to shift, turning into something he couldnât quite name but couldnât ignore either. maybe it was that afternoon when he was twelve, bedridden with a nasty cold, and you showed up unannounced with a thermos of homemade chicken soup. the soup had been borderline inedibleâtoo salty, with mushy noodlesâbut the gesture had warmed him in a way heâd never forget. of course, heâd eaten every last bite and told you it was perfect.
or maybe it was on his fifteenth birthday. heâd always treated his birthday like any other day, never one to make a big deal of it, but you didnât see it that way. while he was out, you snuck into his room and filled it with many presents and blue and black balloonsâhis favorite colors. heâd walked in, startled by the effort youâd put in just to make him smile, and something about it stuck with him.
or maybe it was the night he ended things with his first long-term girlfriend at seventeen. her problem had been youâthe closeness you and zach shared, the bond she couldnât understand. sheâd wanted him to choose, and it wasnât even a question. when you found out, you didnât say âi told you soâ or press him for details. instead, you showed up with a bag of junk food and a stack of movies. you stayed the whole weekend, laughing, crying over sappy scenes, and talking until the early hours of the morning about your dreams and futures.
in every timeline, in every version of his life, zach knows heâd choose you. over a girlfriend, over a best friend, over anyone.
a soft click pulls zach from his thoughts. glancing down, he sees you already strapped to your snowboard, your goggles perched perfectly on your face. you reach up, offering your hand for help. with barely any effort, zach pulls you to your feet, earning a giggle that tugs at his chest more than he cares to admit.
âi donât think iâll ever get tired of this view,â you say softly, taking in the snow-draped mountains and the endless horizon of white and blue.
zach crouches down, fumbling slightly as he straps himself into his board. his fingers falter when he glances up at you. the way your smile glows as you take in the sceneryâitâs more breathtaking to him than the view itself.
âyeah,â he murmurs, his voice quiet. âme either.â
you turn to him with a playful glint in your eye. ârace you down?â
zach chuckles, shaking his head as he secures his last buckle. âno.â
you blink at him, brows furrowing. âwhy not?â
âbecause,â he says, standing and stretching, a smug grin tugging at his lips, âiâll smoke you so fast itâll almost be sad.â
you scoff, rolling your eyes at the playful jab, but the spark of competition ignites instantly. zach knows you well enough to see it too. before he can say another word, you tug your goggles down, lean forward, and launch yourself down the slope, your speed kicking up a flurry of snow in your wake.
âcheater!â zach yells after you, his voice echoing through the mountain air.
your laughter rings out, light and carefree, as you pull your face cover up to shield yourself from the biting cold. with a determined grin, zach pulls down his goggles and takes off after you, the race already on.
the descent starts smoothly, the rush of cold air whipping past your face as you carve through the snow, the thrill of the slope igniting your competitive streak. you glance over your shoulder, spotting zach gaining on you. heâs fastâfaster than you expectedâand his determined grin sends a surge of adrenaline through you.
you try to pick up speed, leaning into the next turn, but your edge catches an icy patch. it happens so quicklyâa sharp jolt, your balance slipping, and suddenly, youâre tumbling. the world tilts, snow sprays into the air, and before you can even react, you collide with something solid.
or rather, someone.
zach.
the two of you go down in a tangled heap, his snowboard slicing awkwardly into the snow as he tries (and fails) to stop in time. his arms instinctively wrap around you as you both slide a few more feet before finally coming to a stop in a soft bank of powder.
for a moment, everything is still.
you blink up at him, stunned and breathless, your goggles slightly askew. zachâs face hovers inches above yours, his cheeks flushedânot just from the cold.
âyou good?â he asks, his voice laced with concern, though his lips twitch into a small smile.
you canât help but laugh, the absurdity of the moment catching up to you. âyeah⌠i think so. you?â
he nods, chuckling now too. âwell, i wasnât planning on eating snow, but at least i cushioned your fall.â
you roll your eyes, shoving at his chest lightly as he helps you sit up. âcushioned my fall? you practically tackled me.â
âonly because you fell first,â he counters, his grin widening.
despite the snow seeping into your clothes and the ache of your tumble, you find yourself laughing again. zach stands, brushing snow off himself before offering you his hand. as he pulls you up, you notice his gaze lingering just a little longer than usual, his smile softer now.
just as the rush of laughter and adrenaline starts to fade, a sharp, sudden pain slices through your side, stealing the breath from your lungs. you gasp, instinctively clutching your side. âouch.â
zachâs smile vanishes, his brows knitting together in concern. âwhat? whatâs wrong?â
âi donât know, iââ another sharp pang makes you wince, doubling over slightly as you shuffle off to the side of the slope, out of the way of other snowboarders. your hands fumble to tug off your gloves, urgency overriding the cold.
you shove the gloves into zachâs hands without a word and begin unzipping your snow jacket, pulling up your thermal layer to investigate. you crane your neck to look, but the angle makes it impossible to see whatâs wrong. the pain is sharp and unrelenting, leaving you wincing as you try to figure it out.
âcan you see anything?â you ask, your voice tight.
but zachâs expression answers before he says a word. his eyes widen, his face draining of color as he steps closer, urgency in every movement.
âoh shit,â he mutters, already crouching down to get a better look.
âintercostal muscle strain,â the doctor says, her tone calm but firm as you sit up with a wince. âyouâre very luckyâit couldâve been a fractured or broken rib, and that wouldâve been far more painful than what youâre feeling now.â
you nod slowly, wincing again as you pull your clothes back down over your bare torso.
âitâs nothing serious, thankfully,â she continues, scribbling something onto a notepad. âbut youâll need to take it easyâno snowboarding for at least a week.â
you groan dramatically, throwing your arm over your eyes in exasperation, only to regret it instantly as the ache in your side flares. you hiss through your teeth, lowering your arm gingerly.
the doctor hides a small smile at your frustration. âget plenty of rest, and take two 500mg Tylenol every 4â6 hours to help with the pain,â she advises. âfor the bruising, you can pick up some arnica gel or aloe vera at a pharmacyâitâll help with the inflammation.â
zach, whoâs been quietly standing at your side the whole time, finally speaks up. âso no snowboarding at all?â
ânone,â the doctor confirms, looking at you pointedly.
zach lets out a quiet sigh of relief, grateful nothing was broken, though the guilt still gnaws at him. that tumble had cost you a week of your vacation, and the thought that he played a part in it made his chest ache.
his hand rests idly on the edge of your pillow, his mind clouded with regret, when he suddenly feels your fingers brush against his. his gaze shifts to yours, and he knows immediately that youâve read him like a book.
the doctor steps out, a knowing smile tugging at her lips. sheâs seen the unspoken bond between the two of youâsomething that everyone else seems to notice, even if you and zach havenât admitted it to yourselves.
âiâm so sorryââ zach starts, his voice heavy with remorse, but you cut him off with a gentle shake of your head.
âit wasnât your fault, zach,â you say firmly, your voice soft yet steady. your fingers trace small patterns on the back of his hand, grounding him. âthere was no way to stop that fall from happening, or for you to avoid crashing into me. it was just⌠one of those things.â
zach looks down at your intertwined fingers, the tension in his shoulders easing slightly.
you smile, swinging your legs carefully over the edge of the bed to stand. âthough i do wish you hadnât elbowed me so hard in the process.â
your playful jab makes him groan, dropping his head into his hand. âyouâre never going to let me live that down, are you?â
ânot a chance,â you tease, grinning as you test your balance on your feet.
his guilty expression softens into something lighter, his lips quirking into a small smile as he watches you. âfair enough,â he murmurs, his tone filled with a mix of relief and something deeper he doesnât quite let himself say.
as per the doctorâs advice, you and zach stopped at a nearby pharmacy on the way back to the cabin, picking up some arnica gel for the swelling and a bottle of tylenol. zach had insisted on carrying everything, even as you rolled your eyes and tried to insist you were fine.
back at the cabin, heâd gone into full caretaker mode. now, you were nestled on the couch in your favorite pajamas, surrounded by fluffed pillows, a warm blanket, and fuzzy socks. zach had even turned on your favorite comfort show, leaving no detail overlooked.
in the kitchen, you could hear him speaking quietly with your parents on the phone. the tone of his voice was calm and reassuring, though you caught a few words here and there about âkeeping an eye on herâ and âfollowing doctorâs orders.â
âyeah, I will. alrightâyeah, sounds good, Iâll let her know. oh- okay. bye.â
zach ended the call, setting his phone down on the kitchen island before heading over to you with a water bottle, a couple of tylenol pills, and a snack bowl balanced in his hands. he plopped onto the couch next to you, a small laugh escaping as he handed you the items.
âlet me guess,â you started, mockingly, âmake sure sheâs actually taking the pain meds and donât let her go snowboarding no matter how much she begs.â
zach laughed, shaking his head. âpretty much. theyâre just worried about you. it took a lot of convincing to stop them from dropping everything at work and driving straight to the hospital.â
you took the water bottle and pills, rolling your eyes as you scanned the label. âthis is bullshit. i feel fine. it doesnât even hurt that much anymore.â
zach raised an eyebrow, unimpressed. âdonât lie. i can hear you cursing under your breath every time you move too fast.â
he twisted open the water bottle and popped open the tylenol, handing them back to you with an air of exaggerated patience.
âi can open my own stuff, you know,â you grumbled, though you took both from him.
âsure, you can,â he said, leaning back against the couch with a smirk. âbut this way, i get to feel useful. so, humor me.â
you roll your eyes but oblige, popping the pills into your mouth and washing them down with a gulp of water. for the rest of the afternoon, you and zach fully embraced the art of laziness. you binged several episodes of your comfort show, made your way through the entire snack bowl, and eventually ordered pizza, which arrived just as the last crumbs of chips were devouredâall within four hours.
the warmth of the blanket, the soft hum of the TV, and the exhaustion from the day caught up with you. before you knew it, your eyes drifted shut, the drowsiness overpowering. when you woke, it was to the gentle sensation of zachâs fingers absentmindedly scratching your scalp, the rhythm soothing and familiar.
blinking groggily, you realized your head was resting on his chest. you froze for a split second, then relaxed as the memory of shifting there for comfort came back to you. his chest was sturdy, warm, andâwellâperfectly positioned to avoid putting pressure on your sore side. at least, thatâs what you told yourself.
âhi,â you croaked, voice raspy with sleep.
âhey,â zach replied softly, a small smile tugging at his lips. his hand paused in your hair briefly before he added, âyou need to put the arnica gel on your bruise.â
you groaned in protest, burying your face further into his chest like a stubborn child. the vibration of his laugh rumbled beneath you, warm and familiar.
âcâmon,â he coaxed, leaning forward carefully so you werenât jostled, reaching for the small container of arnica on the coffee table. his other arm stayed around you, steadying you as he sat back.
with a reluctant sigh, you pushed yourself off him, grumbling as you lifted your pajama shirt just enough to expose the bruised area. even with the pain dulled from the meds, the stretch made you wince, and you let the shirt drop again with a frustrated groan.
âcan you help me put it on?â you asked, rubbing the sleep from your eyes.
zach hesitated for a beat, the question catching him off guard. you didnât notice, but his adamâs apple bobbed as he swallowed hard, the proximity and intimacy of the request making his pulse quicken.
âyeah, of course,â he said, his voice steady despite the way his heart raced. he unscrewed the lid, squeezing a small amount of the gel onto his fingers before looking at you. when you nodded, he shifted closer, his movements gentle and deliberate as he applied the gel to your side.
his touch was careful, almost hesitant, as if afraid of hurting you. âlet me know if it stings,â he murmured, his voice quieter than usual.
âitâs fine,â you replied softly, your eyes closing again as the soothing coolness of the gel and his careful touch eased the ache.
zachâs jaw clenched, the muscle ticking as he worked the now-warmed gel into your skin. the rhythmic motion of his fingers was steady, but inside, his composure was unraveling. there was something undeniably intimate about this momentâyour quiet, fluttering reactions every time his fingers brushed a new spot, the way your breath hitched when he applied just the right amount of pressure.
his fingers moved instinctively, lifting your shirt a little higher to cover the edges of the bruise, and thatâs when he saw it. the small, delicate tattoo just below the curve of your breast.
divine feminine.
the words seemed to stare back at him, burning into his mind as his breath hitched. he swallowed hard, his hand pausing briefly before continuing, slower this time. zach could feel his body reacting in ways he knew it shouldnât. his chest tightened, and he bit down on his bottom lip, trying to keep himself grounded as warmth pooled low in his stomach.
then you let out a soft, unintentional moanâa mix of pain and relief as his fingers brushed over a particularly tender spot. the sound, quiet and fleeting, sent a chill through him. he froze, inhaling sharply, his hands momentarily still against your side.
your eyes fluttered open, hazy with the remnants of drowsiness. âiâm sorry,â zach murmured, his voice tight.
concern crosses your features as you began to sit up. âzach, itâs fine,â you said, misinterpreting his sudden apology. âit didnât hurt. i promise.â
but that wasnât it. not at all.
no, zach wasnât thinking about the gel, the bruise, or even the fact that he mightâve applied too much pressure. his thoughts had plunged into dangerous territory, spiraling with images he couldnât suppress.
he was imagining you making that sound againâbut for entirely different reasons. how your breathless moans might sound against his ear as you writhed beneath him, your body arching into his as you begged for him to let you cum.
how you might look with your face pressed into the pillows, gripping the sheets, gasping his name in broken cries as he pounded relentlessly inside you from behind, squeezing tightly around him, his hands gripping your hips firmly but gently, guiding you to him.
zach blinked, forcing himself back to the present, his chest rising and falling with uneven breaths. he dragged a hand through his hair, quickly standing up and mumbling something about needing a drink of water, leaving you puzzled and slightly concerned as he practically fled to the kitchen.
you stood up, muttering a low curse under your breath as the ache in your side flared. despite the pain, you followed him into the kitchen, determined to figure out what was wrong.
âzach,â you called softly, your voice breaking the quiet. he didnât turn, his back to you, shoulders tense as he stared down at the empty glass in his hands.
stepping closer, you positioned yourself in front of him, standing just beneath his gaze. even then, he refused to look at you, his jaw clenched tightly.
âzach,â you repeated, your fingers gently brushing against his cheek, cupping it to force his eyes to meet yours. the warmth of your touch was almost unbearable for him.
âdonâtââ he mumbled, voice low and strained, his gaze flickering to the side as if avoiding yours could somehow mask the turmoil written all over his face.
but you saw it anywayâguilt. raw and unfiltered, pooling in his dark eyes and spilling over in the form of unshed tears.
âzach, what is it?â you asked, your voice soft, barely above a whisper in the still air.
he blinked hard, his breathing uneven as he struggled to hold himself together. the weight of his thoughts pressed heavily on his chest. you trusted him, leaned on him when you were in pain, and here he was, betraying that trust in the worst wayâfantasizing about you.
the images haunted him. he couldnât stop the shameful loop of memories from late nights in his dorm, where he would close his eyes and imagine you in ways he couldnât admit aloud. he would picture you on top of him, trying to adjust to his size, your brows furrowed and lips parted in quiet gasps. how you might bite your lip to stifle your moans, only to collapse onto his chest when you came undone, breathless and trembling.
but those were just fantasies, fleeting and far removed from reality. they werenât supposed to bleed into a moment like thisâwhen you were hurt, vulnerable, and looking at him with those wide, concerned eyes.
he squeezed his eyes shut, his voice barely audible. âyou were hurt because of me, and iâi canât stop thinking aboutâŚâ he trailed off, shaking his head as if trying to physically dispel the thoughts. âitâs not right. iâm not right.â
you frowned, your thumb brushing against his cheek in a soothing gesture. âzach, talk to me. whatâs going on?â
he hesitated, his chest rising and falling as he wrestled with himself, unsure if he could say the words that would change everything.
âhey.â your voice was firm yet gentle, cutting through the silence. zachâs eyes opened, hesitantly meeting yours.
âitâs me,â you said, your tone softening. âyou can tell me anything, zach. you know that.â
he chewed the inside of his cheek, his jaw tightening as he tried to muster the courage to speak. âiâm so sorry, y/n,â he began, voice heavy with guilt. âi feel awful about what happened todayâabout you getting hurt. and then youâre here, trusting me to help you, and iâmâŚâ he trailed off, sighing deeply as he covered his eyes with his hand. âiâm trying so hard to control myself, and itâs not okay.â
your brows furrowed as you processed his words, trying to piece together what he meant. the hesitation in his voice, the way he avoided your gazeâit all felt so unlike him.
then, as your eyes flickered downward, you noticed it. the unmistakable bulge in the fabric of his sweats. your breath hitched in realization, a soft gasp escaping your lips before you could stop it.
zachâs hand remained firmly over his eyes, his posture rigid as if bracing himself for your reaction. the room felt impossibly still, the weight of the unspoken hanging heavy in the air.
you reached up, your fingers wrapping gently around his wrist, pulling his hand away from his face. zach resisted for a moment, but when he finally let you guide him, his eyes met yoursâhesitant, filled with embarrassment.
you offered him a small, reassuring smile, one that melted the tension in his features ever so slightly. without a word, you leaned in, your lips brushing softly against his in a kiss that was both hesitant and deliberate.
his brows furrowed, his body frozen for a split second, caught off guard by your sudden boldness. but then, as if a switch flipped, he responded, his hands instinctively finding your face. his touch was firm yet gentle, cradling you as he pulled you closer, deepening the kiss.
it was tender and charged all at once, a silent confession spilling between you both without the need for words. the kitchen, the guilt, the tensionâit all faded into the background, leaving just the two of you, wrapped up in the moment you hadnât realized both been waiting for.
your small hands gripped the sides of his sweater near his waist, anchoring yourself to him as his tongue slipped into your mouth without warning. the sensation sent a shiver down your spine, a soft gasp escaping your lips. every movementâevery stroke of his tongue against yours, every firm tug of your hairâset your senses on fire, unraveling emotions youâd worked so hard to bury.
of course you liked zach.
you always had.
the realization hit you like a flood, overwhelming and undeniable. you had tucked those feelings deep into the corners of your heart, afraid of what would happen if zach ever found out. you couldnât bear the thought of ruining what you had. but the truth was simple: your heart had always been his.
you loved him.
zach pulled back suddenly, breaking the kiss as both of you panted for air. his forehead rested against yours, his breath warm and ragged. âwait, waitââ he murmured, his voice low and unsteady.
you whimpered softly, a needy sound you didnât mean to let out and his cock twitched at it. âzach, please,â you whispered, desperate to feel his lips on yours again, the taste of him still lingering.
he smiled softly, brushing a quick kiss against your lips that left you craving more. âi know, mâsorry, baby,â he murmured.
the nickname made your stomach flutter, sending a warmth through you that had nothing to do with the cozy cabin. you sighed, tilting your head to look up at him, waiting for the words that you knew were coming.
zachâs face was conflicted, his brows drawn together as he avoided your gaze for a moment. âi canât believe iâm saying this⌠but we canât tonight,â he admitted, chewing on his bottom lip in that pained way he did when he was struggling with something.
you groaned softly, the disappointment evident in your expression. your eyes softened as you saw the genuine concern etched into his face.
âi donât want to hurt you even more,â he continued, his hand brushing lightly against your side. âand it could make your injury worse.â
âzach,â you whined, leaning your forehead against his chest, squeezing your eyes shut. âweâll be careful,â you pleaded, your voice soft and hopeful.
you tilted your head back up, your big, pleading eyes locking with his. you knew exactly the effect they had on him, and for a second, you saw him falter. his jaw tightened as he exhaled a shaky breath, clearly battling with himself.
zach let out a defeated sigh, his resolve crumbling as he crouched down and effortlessly lifted your legs around his waist. the sudden motion made you giggle, clinging to him instinctively. âi win,â you teased breathlessly, a triumphant grin spreading across your lips.
his only response was a sly smirk before pinching your ass, making you squeal in surprise. âcareful, or i might change my mind,â he murmured, his voice low and teasing as he carried you to the bed.
the soft mattress welcomed you as he laid you down gently, the warm glow of the electric fireplace casting flickering shadows across the room. the heat of the moment mirrored the cozy warmth surrounding you both.
zach slid between your thighs, his hands gripping your hips as he settled there, his aching length pressing against you in a way that made your heart race. neither of you hesitatedâyour lips collided in a fervent kiss, all hunger and passion, as if this moment had been years in the making. which it was.
your fingers found their way into his hair, tangling in the soft strands as you pulled him closer. his lips moved against yours with a desperation that mirrored your own, each kiss deeper, more intoxicating, than the last. it felt as if the rest of the world melted away, leaving only the two of you in the crackling warmth of the cabin.
âgod, you have no idea how much iâve wanted this,â zach murmurs against your lips, his voice a mix of hunger and longing. your response is a soft moan, quiet but fervent, that makes him press even closer.
he trails a series of slow, teasing kisses down your neck, each nip and suck prompting a sweet, aching arch from your bodyâuntil a sudden twinge in your side makes you wince. zach notices immediately, pulling back, concern flooding his eyes. âyou okay?â
you nod, forcing a soft smile while trying to mask the lingering pain. youâve waited too long for this moment and the last thing you want is for him to stop.
he studies you for a second, as if assessing whether youâre truly good, then sits back on his legs. âalright,â he says, voice calm but resolute, âthis is how itâs gonna go, then. you canât move. at all.â
your brows draw together, half-expecting him to crack a grin. but he doesnât. heâs serious, his gaze unwavering.
âif you move,â he continues, his voice dropping lower, âor try to, iâll stop.â
you swallow, the weight of his words and the gentle authority in his tone sending a surge of arousal low into your belly. you bite the inside of your cheek, eyes fixed on him, already imagining how youâll manage to keep still under his touch.
âokay,â you whisper, voice steady but laced with anticipation.
zachâs fingertips skimmed over the outside of your closed thighs, his touch feather-light yet deliberate, as if savoring the moment before taking it further. you watched him through half-lidded eyes, heart thrumming in your chest. with patient care, he began to slide your pajama pants down, revealing your baby blue lace underwear.
his throat worked over a hard swallow as he took you in, jaw clenching and pulse thrumming hot beneath his skin. he could feel himself respond immediatelyâhis cock straining against the softness of his sweats. you saw the way his eyes darkened, how that gentle composure threatened to unravel.
without a word, he eased the lace down as well, leaving you bare before him. instinctively, you kept your thighs pressed together, a final barrier of modesty even as your cheeks warmed. he paused, taking in the sightâthe subtle flush on your skinâletting the tension in the air stretch taut.
his gaze flickered up to yours, intense and wordless, the warm glow of the fireplace painting both of you in golden hues that made everything feel dreamy and far removed from the outside world.
âperfect,â he whispered, the single word washing over you, making your skin prickle with a delicious heat. it was as if he saw you in a new lightâsomething delicate and cherished. you felt the flush rise all the way from your chest to your cheeks.
he worked on the buttons of your top with gentle care, careful not to brush too roughly near your bruise. his eyes softened the moment the fabric parted, revealing the tender, discolored skin along your ribs. it was more than just concern written in his featuresâthere was affection, regret, and a silent promise to be gentle.
before you could protest or reassure him, his head dipped down, pressing a series of soft, reverent kisses to the bruise as he eased the top off you, leaving you bare. you shivered under the weight of his tenderness, the careful attention making you feel impossibly close to him.
his fingers drifted lower along your navel, the sensitive skin prickling under his touch. he nuzzled his head beneath your jaw, encouraging you to tilt your head and grant him better access as he breathed slowly, evenly, his warm breath fanning over your throat. just as you began to surrender to the sensation of his lips on your neck, he slipped his hand further down, exploring the softness between your legs.
the first gentle slide of his fingertips through your slick folds made your jaw slacken, a quiet gasp escaping. gathering your wetness, he began to trace slow, deliberate shapes over your clit, drawing you into a heady rhythm that set every nerve alight. your body instinctively wanted to rise to meet his touch, but each time your hips started to rock forward, heâd slow his pace, lifting his gaze to give you a knowing, pointed lookâreminding you of your earlier agreement.
the unspoken rule was clear: no moving. you had to let him lead, to trust him completely. caught between sweet frustration and delicious anticipation, you let out a shaky breath and let him guide your pleasure, your heart pounding in your ears.
âshitâyouâre soaking,â zach groaned, voice low and strained as he picked up the pace of his fingers. each curl and slide drew out soft, breathy whimpers that spilled from your parted lips. he wore a look of intense concentration, as though memorizing every sound you made.
without warning, his middle finger pressed at your entrance before slowly sinking in, earning a strangled moan that made him nuzzle deeper into your neck. âgod,â he breathed, voice muffled against your skin, âyou feel so good.â you tightened around him reflexively, and he groaned, the vibration of his voice sending sparks along your spine.
straightening up, he shifted to sit back on his legs, changing the angle and giving himself a better view. he guided your knee down flat against the mattress, not just for his eyes but to ensure you couldnât easily arch into his touch. a high, keening moan tore from your throat as he curled his finger inside you, hitting that perfect spot that sent tremors through your thighs.
you fought the urge to lift your hips, remembering his warning. still, your body trembled with the need to move, to push deeper into that intoxicating sensation. zach noticedâhow could he not?âand it fueled the dark satisfaction gleaming in his eyes. he knew you were on the edge, knew how badly you wanted to give in.
meanwhile, his own restraint was wearing thin. he was hardâachingly soâand the slow, deliberate way you clenched around his finger nearly did him in. but he held back and added a second finger, pulling a sharp moan from you. if you couldnât keep still now, how could you handle all of him inside you? this was a test of sorts, a delicious torment, and he was savoring every second.
he felt the way you clenched around his fingers, each flutter and squeeze like a plea for release. your hand gripped his wrist, desperate and trembling, but his pace never wavered. âgonna cum for me, angel?â he asked, voice heavy with anticipation.
you nodded frantically, wordless cries tumbling past your lips as he kept hitting that perfect spot inside you. the pressure built swiftly, stealing your breath, until you shattered around him. your vision went white, the world narrowing down to nothing but the pleasure he wrung from your body.
he guided you through it, not stopping until your muscles started to twitch with the first hints of overstimulation. finally, he slowed, easing you down until your body relaxed beneath him, trembling and sated.
with deliberate slowness, he withdrew his fingers, eyes locked on yours. you watched as he brought them to his mouth, his gaze never leaving your face. he sucked on the digits, tasting you the way heâd imagined a thousand times, letting out a deep, appreciative groan. the warmth of his breath on your skin, the soft glow around you bothâeverything felt charged and intimate, humming with the understanding that nothing would be the same between you again.
zach tugged his sweatshirt off in one smooth, hurried motion, the fabric barely brushing his skin before it landed somewhere on the floor. the urgency in his movements was unmistakableâhe was desperate to feel you against him again. every nerve in his body was alight, the ache of wanting you growing more intense by the second.
with a quick push, he lowered his sweatpants and boxers together, freeing himself in one swift motion. the sight of him made your pulse stumble. he was hugeâimposingly soâand the thought of taking him in had your breath catching in your throat. you tried to keep your expression neutral, but the widening of your eyes gave you away.
zach noticed. a hint of a smirk ghosted his lips as he settled himself between your thighs, his length resting hot and heavy against your abdomen. leaning down, he caught your mouth in a kiss that was both tender and all-consuming, as if he needed to show you how much he wanted you, how badly he craved this moment with you.
âitâs okay, baby,â he murmured against your lips, voice low and reassuring. âweâll make it fit.â he pulled back slightly, just enough to watch your face as he guided his tip to your entrance. he gave himself a few slow pumps, as though trying to ease the ache and calm the racing of his own heartbeat.
your breath caught again, excitement and nervous anticipation mingling as he hovered there, every second swelling with tension and promise.
he pressed forward slowly, a careful, deliberate push that drew a ragged gasp from both of you. his forehead hovered just above yours, the soft brush of your lips more an exchange of breath than a kiss, and you tangled your fingers into his hair, gripping gently as he eased himself deeper. small, shallow strokes let you stretch around him, adjusting inch by inch.
your eyes fluttered shut, overwhelmed by the dull ache that signaled your body opening to him. he paused when he was fully sheathed, giving you time to accommodate his size. your breath caught as his pelvis brushed against your clit, sparking a low moan from your chest. then he pulled back just enough, pushing forward again to repeat the motion, sending soft ripples of pleasure through you. each gentle thrust replaced pain with gathering warmth, and you felt your body relaxing, welcoming him fully as a quiet whimper escaped your throat.
soon, the discomfort faded entirely, leaving only the sweet, humming pleasure of his movements. once he sensed the tension melt from your muscles, he began a steady, more confident rhythm. a subtle shift in angle, and before long, he had your legs wrapped around his waist, granting him deeper access. the pace picked up, each thrust punctuated by the soft slap of skin and echoed moans that drifted through the room.
you couldnât hold back a curse at the intensity of it allâhis body pressed to yours, filling you so completely, his breathing mixing with yours in frantic, needy staccato. it was raw and intoxicating, the two of you lost in the moment, in each other.
âmm, sâ so deep,â you whimpered, voice catching as you glanced down between your bodies. the sight of him disappearing into you with each thrust made your stomach flutter, your walls gripping him tightly.
zachâs breathing turned ragged, trying to maintain enough control to keep you safe and comfortable. but the temptation was too strong, and he gave a particularly sharp thrust, testing your reaction. you yelped, not in pain but in startled pleasure, and he felt you clench around him in response. encouraged, he repeated it until you were left hiccuping between sobs of bliss, every stroke drawing you closer to that sweet oblivion.
âi know, baby,â he murmured, voice thick with need. leaning down, he braced himself and brought his hand between your bodies, fingers finding your clit. he stroked firm, fast circles, determined to send you over the edge first. your nails raked along his shoulders, your breath hitching with each spiral of sensation. the coil in your belly tightened, ready to snap, as he coaxed you closer and closer toward that shattering release.
ââzach,â you warned, voice thin and strained. his response was a low, desperate moan, fingers and hips working in tandem, never giving you a momentâs respite. every thrust felt deeper than the last, his fingertips circling that swollen, sensitive spot until you were on the verge of unraveling completely.
âcâmon, baby,â he coaxed, voice rough and urgent. âsoak me. i wanna feel it.â his pace quickened, hips snapping forward, and you gasped as a wave of pleasure hit you hard and fast. your walls clamped down around him, body arching, a silent scream caught in your throat as you were hurled headfirst into bliss.
zach kept moving, guiding you through the aftershocks, his cock dragging through your pulsing muscles as you trembled beneath him. your moans tumbled into whimpers, every nerve still singing with overstimulation. your fingers curled into his shoulders, breath coming in ragged gasps. âplease cum inside me,â you begged, voice shaky and raw, desperate to feel him follow you into that world of sensation.
you felt him stiffen, his rhythm faltering as he pressed closer, every breath hot against your ear. with a low, guttural moan, he finally let go, hips rolling gently as he filled you, warmth spreading with each soft pulse. you could feel it, the tension draining from his body, leaving both of you weightless and sated.
his forehead dipped into the crook of your neck, lips pressing languid, grateful kisses against your skin. he was careful with his weight, mindful of your injury and the tenderness in your body, as both of you lingered in the lingering glow. your breaths intermingled, still coming in soft, uneven gasps as you drifted down from that blissful high.
after a moment, he slowly pulled out, making you both hiss quietly at the sensitivity. he rolled onto his side, immediately reaching for you and covering both of your cooling bodies with the duvet. you shifted to face him, still a little breathless, your eyes meeting as he pressed a gentle kiss to your forehead.
âhi,â you managed, voice husky and soft, a small, contented smile curving your lips.
a quiet laugh escaped him, his arm moving soothingly up and down your back. âhey,â he replied, voice deep and warm, as if speaking in a secret language only the two of you understood.
âi donât think i told you this earlier butâŚâ you begin, voice soft and cautious as you search for the right words. âiâm all in, zach.â your heart is pounding in your ears, and youâre pretty sure he can feel it where heâs pressed close to you under the duvet.
zachâs eyes soften, a gentle smile curving his lips. the slight crinkle at the corners of his eyes gives away his relief. you draw a shaky breath, forging ahead. âi feel like you know youâve always been it for me. or even if you didnât, i did. youâre my endgame.â
youâre watching him carefully, looking for any flicker of doubt or hesitation, but all you see is the same warmth and affection youâve been craving for years.
he doesnât say a word at first, just leans in and kisses youâslow and deliberate, a silent promise pressed softly into your lips. then he moves along your cheek, brushing your skin with tender pecks, and keeps going until youâre giggling, trying to squirm away from his playful assault of affection.
when he finally pulls back, both of you breathless with laughter, he meets your gaze head-on. âiâve always loved you, y/n,â he says, voice steady and sure. âyouâre it for me.â
your heart swells, and you think youâve never been happier than in this very moment, wrapped up in his arms, secure in the certainty of what comes next.
for the rest of the night, you and zach drifted in and out of conversationâthose familiar, meandering chats that never really needed a pointâpunctuated by soft laughter and sweet nothings murmured into the darkness. in the quiet spaces, you made love again and again, as if making up for all the time lost.
the next morning, you woke to find the bed empty. you stretched, the slight ache in your side a warm reminder of the day before. slipping into zachâs sweater and a pair of sleep shorts, you followed the glow of holiday lights out of the bedroom. as you reached the upstairs landing, your eyes widened at the transformation: the entire cabin, from the top floor down, was strung with festive garlands, sparkling ornaments, and twinkling lights.
a fond smile curved on your lips as you descended the stairs, drawn toward the kitchen by soft clinks and muffled curses. rounding the corner, you spotted zach at the stove, his back to you, clearly wrestling with some culinary experiment. âmorning,â you said, leaning your elbows on the island.
he turned quickly, an anxious frown on his face. âdid i wake you?â he asked, only to relax when you shook your head. you slipped behind the island to join him, his arms sliding around your waist as you took in the sight of eggs and batter, a haphazard attempt at breakfast. âwanted to surprise you,â he murmured into your hair. you giggled, pressing a kiss to his cheek in thanks.
âgood morning, baby,â zach said softly, smiling down at you.
just then, the front door swung open. in came both sets of parents and a handful of siblings, chatter and laughter echoing off the wood-paneled walls. âhello, hello!â your momâs voice rang out. before you and zach could step apart or even explain yourselves, she rounded the corner into the kitchen. the scene she found: zach nuzzling your neck, you murmuring about how sweet he was being, both of you bathed in the soft glow of holiday lights.
you froze, cheeks flushing, while zachâs arms tightened protectively around you. your families, already grinning from the doorway, seemed more than pleased to discover the truth youâd both been too shy to admitâuntil now.
âalright, i called it! everyone cough it up!â avery, zachâs little sister, crowed triumphantly. your families groaned in unison, each one reluctantly digging into their pockets to hand over five dollars. avery quickly amassed thirty bucks in her palm, grinning from ear to ear.
you and zach exchanged a look, trying and failing to stifle your laughter before pulling apart and greeting everyone properly. you embraced each of them in turn, still a bit stunned to see them all here a day early. the cabin brimmed with the scent of pine, hot chocolate, and something baking in the ovenâwarmth and comfort encapsulated in one cozy scene.
for the remainder of your winter break, you and zach reveled in that feeling of family and togetherness. your days filled with laughter echoing off the wooden walls, good-natured bickering with siblings over board games, and playful teasing from your parents that had both of you blushing more than once. above all, there was the gentle thrill of reaching for zachâs hand under the table, catching his eye across the room, and feeling love wrapped around you like a warm blanket against the cold outside.