I never actually ended up doing anything about this side blog when I stopped using it 6 months ago.
I donāt spend as much time on tumblr now as I did then, though Iāve been on quite a lot these past couple weeks.
Back then I started swimming on the regular for the first time in like 10 years, which in combination with finally seeking physical therapy for my joint problems became a sort of gateway into me spending regular time at the gym. Iām not body-building or anything, but Iām in much better shape. I just started specifically working on upper body strength. Iād like to be able to do 10 pull-ups without a counter-weight assist, and free handstand. Still asthmatic. Still canāt do high impact, but at least I understand that better. I finally started seeing a therapist about my anxiety and depression, and these days, I keep a physical journal, instead of screaming my woes into the void of the internet. I actually started doing that before I saw the therapist, so I showed up on day-one with notes and a bulleted list. Things got darker before they got better, and I still feel pretty shitty about my last semester, where I just scraped by. I still graduated, though, last month, cum laude, for whatever thatās worth.
Now Iām just taking the time to get at the things Iāve been neglecting for ages. Getting my 15 year old glasses prescription updated. The change isnāt as big as you might expect, and Iām still not blind. I need glasses to drive, though, and I have decided to jump back on that (proverbial) horse. My unwillingness and fear of driving is a big hurdle blocking a lot of opportunities for me. I could do a lot more work to try to maintain this pedestrian lifestyle, but I donāt want to have to make compromises when making choices moving forward. I donāt know why I was compelled to write like... an update (update!) or whatever, but thatās it, basically. Lifeās not amazing, but it sure does keep going. Short-term struggles in the past have a way of getting buried, or weathered down smooth. Hopefully Iāll be driving, gainfully employed (career relevant) and be doing hand-stands 6 months from now, and some day after that Iāll hardly remember why I got hung up on the little stuff for so long.



















