My wings are clipped

Brody?

[backs away, still nervous] H-hey…

B-brody please...[sniffs]

I'm the alpha now.

Brody?

o-okay..

[walks into their room, scared of how Brody will react] Hey. [smiles lovingly to him, getting closer]

Brody?

…you didn’t before…

I promise I won't please. I want to see you.

Brody?

You’re gonna hurt me…

No. I would never hurt you...You know I can't hurt others...I heal remember?

Brody?

J-just around…

Can I see you please? I miss you.

Sebaddison // What a mess

“Good.”  Sebastian nodded, and then ran a fond h and through Addison’s hair.  :I know you would take James back if you could.  But… don’t say that to Brody ok?  He’s sensitive.  And I’m not wasting this chance with Blaine. In fact..” He made himself comfortable in his ruined chair.  “I have to really focus on Blaine right now.  I want him to get better.  So… I won’t be sleeping around like I normally do.  And I’ll be here a lot. I just want to be there in case he needs me.  I know you’re used to me… neglecting you.  I’m just telling you up front.  It’s going to happen for a while.” 

Addison sighed some, looking at his hands. He didn't want to think about that, about James coming back. "I don't think I've ever really told him about James. I wouldn't know how to...I won't hurt Brody. I just get tired of him always thinking he has to protect me. I mean, I'm the angel here." he let out another sigh, finally having said the one big thing that had him upset with the human. Turning up to Sebastian, he nodded. "I figured but even this is enough for me to live with..if thats all I get. He's your mate so do what you need to do."

Whyy

*Giggles and shakes his head.* Not when I have the talons out. I just look…ugly. *Sighs and leans down to kiss the tip of Addison head.* But it doesn’t matter now.  *licks his slit* I want you.

[shakes his head] One I like your giggle and two...you're never ugly [gasps for a quick moment and hums some] Hmm I want you too...

Sebaddison // What a mess

Sebastian smiled sadly, “I don’t know what’s harder.  Letting them go and trying to move on with your life or letting them go and getting them back so damaged that you don’t know them anymore.”  He swallowed hard and stroked a hand over Addison’s hair.  Addison loved physical affection.  “You told me.  I remember about James.  Now I get it.  I honestly don’t know how you survived.  I felt… it was bad.”  he smirked, “this doesn’t get you out of your talk with Brody.  You owe him.” 

Addison leaned, into his touch. "I don't know but you have a second chance with him. Don't waste it. I care for Brody so much but if I had another chance to have James back, I don't know what I'd do." he closed his eyes some and nodded. "I'm not trying to Sebastian, I will talk to him and make this up to him." Addy looked up to him for a moment.

Whyy

*Shakes his head* Not really. Lacy made me an Angel for a few days…it was amazing. *Smiles to himself as his fingers trace the Addisons hips* 

[grins, touching his cheek softly and kissing him] I bet you were beautiful but you're beautiful as you too. [licking his lips and shivering at his touch]

Sebaddison // What a mess

Sebastian’s brow furrowed in confusion.  Addison had taken him all wrong.  “I’m not telling you to force anything on anyone Addison.  Do what you want.  He’s your… boyfriend.”  With a sigh, Sebastian went to sit in his ruined, duct-tapped chair.  “Addison.  Relax.  Sit down.  You make me nervous when you act like I’m about to hit you.  Have I ever hit you?”  His eyebrows went up in question.  “You should know that when I took you in, Brody made me promise to never give you away.  He said he’d go too.  Not that this was a selling point because there are days when Brody makes me want to take aspirin and go back to bed.  I swear he asks so many questions, it’s like he’s twelve… anyway… I agreed to his terms and I’m not giving you away.  I’m not…” he chewed his lip thoughtfully trying to pick his words carefully.  “I’m not really the master I should be right now and how can I take care of three slaves when I can’t even get my own head on straight.  I think… I think I’m still dealing with Blaine’s death.  Even though… he’s here.  I thought… that I was dead too.  It felt like it.  Did any of that make sense?” 

Addison nodded. "Sorry, I know you're not and i know you won't hurt me. I'm just so jumpy lately and scared. I don't feel like me." he rubbed his hand up and down his arm. At his master's word, Addison sat on the floor, his head on Sebastian's knee. Addison listened to him, taking it all in. He didn't know some of that and as he finished talking, Addy nodded. "Yeah, I know what you mean. I've lost a mate too remember? You felt that way because he's part of you and you of him. I wish I had gotten a second chance with James."

Sebaddison // What a mess

Addison was always so quietly affectionate when it came to Sebastian, the angel was always sneaking kisses onto his cheek.  “For who?  Blaine?”  He shook his head thoughtfully.  “No that’s ok… he’ll come around or he won’t.  I have to cut the guy some slack… I mean he died.  You know?  That’s hard enough to deal with without me adding my bullshit needs to his.”  He shrugged but he really was worried about Blaine to the point of heart burn.  Sebastian honestly didn’t think he could take much more emotional baggage and maybe he needed a break or something.  “Then stop.”  He shrugged, “Stop hurting the person you care about the most.  I think ignoring them is worse then treating them badly.”  Sebastian bit his lip.  “You need to do something for him.  Like a date.  Or… I don’t know.  Take him flying maybe?” 

Addison nodded. "Well yes, you told me about that thus I thought maybe he should eat. Nothing was going to be forced on him. But as you wish master." His wings till hung low showing his emotion. When Seb snapped at him, he jumped and looked at him in slight fear, something he never did with the wolves. Addy nodded and moved away from him some. "I was going to master. I'm sorry if I upset you so much, please don't be mad. Please don't give me away."

Sebaddison // What a mess

“It could be me..” Sebastian said curling the wire to the wet vac up around the device so it could be stored.  “I cut my hands and bled all over the carpet… hence the need for cleaning it.  But I heal.  Maybe I was still a little cut on the inside.  Unless Angels have a talent for getting rid of dried blood.”  But there was no more blood on the carpet, so that was odd.  “Ok.  That’s done it.”  He wheels the supplies back out to the hallway so the staff can get them later and then shuts the door.  He then goes to the thick curtains and pulls them shut again.  “Blaine can’t be in here with the light… so.  I have to close these again.  Have you talked to Brody yet?  I mean properly? You’re all he ever talks about…” 

Addison shook his head some. "I don't really know if it works like that." He too saw that the blood was gone from the carpet. As he nodded, Addy smiled and kissed his cheek again. "Okay well would you you like me to go get you anything for him?" At the mention of Brody, his wings fell. "Yeah we talked but I don't know if I'm in the doghouse or not. I really do hate how much I hurt him."