Joy

mimmo thinks he’s unlovable mimmo thinks his life is doomed and he would only bring trouble to the people he loves so he doesn’t let himself get close to anyone lest of all he’d ruin them too. and then simone doesn’t leave him alone. simone tells him loving him is easy. bc mimmo spent his entire life thinking of himself as nothing more than a low life whod never make anything of the time thats been given to him he thinks of himself as someone the good people should stray from so howd he feel when a good person like simone told him FOR ME LOVING YOU IS EASY ???? HOWD HE FEEL WHEN SOMEONE HE CONSIDERED TO BE THE EPITOME OF GOODNESS AND KINDNESS LOOKED AT HIM AT HOW BROKEN AND MESSY AND UNSALVAGEABLE HE WAS AND HAD THE NERVE TO TELL HIM LOVING HIM CAME EASILY. WHAT DID HE FEEL. LOVING SIMONE IS EASY FOR HIM AND IT’S SO OBVIOUS BECAUSE SIMONE IS SUCH A GOOD PERSON SIMONE BOUGHT HIM FOOD WHEN HE WAS HUNGRY SIMONE COVERED HIM AND TOOK THE FALL FOR HIM WHEN HE DIDNT HAVE TO SIMONE WAS THERE WHEN HE NEEDED A SHOULDER TO CRY ON SIMONE WAS THERE WHEN HE WAS SCARED FOR HIS LIFE SIMONE DIDN’T LEAVE HIM ALONE EVEN ONCE WHEN HE NEEDED HIM SO OF COURSE LOVING SIMONE IS EASY. WHATS EASIER THAN LOVING SOMEONE AS KIND AND GOOD AS HIM? BUT WHAT HAS HE DONE FOR SIMONE OTHER THAN MESS UP HIS LIFE? NOTHING. SO HIW CAN SIMONE SAY THAT LOVING HIM IS /EASY/ HE DOESNT UNDERS TAND. HE DOESNT UNDERSTAND HE DOESNT UNDERSTAND AND HE DOESNT HAVE THE GUTS TO ASK HIM BECAUSE WHO IS HE TO SPIT IN THE FACE OF THE ONLY GOOD THING THATS BEEN GIVEN TO HIM? WHAT IF BY ASKING HE’D MAKE SIMONE REALISE IT WAS ALL A MISTAKE. HE WANTS TO BE SELFISH FOR ONCE