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I miss all my friends on here!! My life is so different since I last stopped by here. My son (I love saying that!) is almost two years old! I met thom Yorke finally in December of 2022! He was so nice and I told him the concert was my first concert since becoming a mom. He asked me how old he was (6 months at the time), and he said to enjoy it because they grow up so fast. 🥰🥲 he’s right. Tom and Jonny signed my record, Tom skinner did not. I’ll check back in in a few years!

i spent my two days off at my sister-in-laws house, she’s very sick with thyroid related conditions...she’s lost a lot of weight. My sister in law is around the same age as my own parents; anyway, I just want for the people in my life to be healthy....I don’t see manny get too teary eyed often and I know how hard it was to see his sister dealing with so many complication...I’m at my parents house right now trying to help my parents go through their things. There’s this closet in my house with all my brothers things. I need to throw it all away, my mom already agreed to let me do it, after 9 years...I think she just would like me to keep his eyeglasses. I just can’t help myself and start looking at his things and paperwork and I can feel this feeling churning inside of me, I just feel like I’m throwing all his dreams away. I dunno...I’m really in an ok place with all that in the past, but seeing madi in the hospital really brought out all these feelings I haven’t felt in a long time...

My cousin got released from detainment near the border and she's in California with my uncle a few towns over and I'm going to see her on Thursday and I'm so excited to meet someone I can call my family!!!

I have a small pea sized lump in my armpit that you can't see but you can feel, and its kinda hard, and it doesn't hurt and I haven't had a fever or anything and I'm freaking myself out on the internet , someone pls tell me I'll be o.k.... :-)

im learning how to open up again

Ive been working still in retail life, nothing new, but I've been applying to gigs for the past two months and I finally heard back from americas got talent in December, and I got to work as a production assistant for two days in early January I think? It was fun!! I saw a lot of talented folk while hearding talent to the shows producers. I'm also in a screen writing class and I'm working on writing a feature film, so, that's nerve wracking but I really like my class and teacher! Also, im maybe going to Italy in April! I have a place booked in Florence, and Siena. I just have to find a place to stay in Rome and then get a flight with my credit card reward miles. I'm going with manny :^)

heidy you are one of the rare truly sweet lovely humans right down to the core. how do you do it in this economy ... and in this world . i love you w/ all my heart