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Thank you ily

Sup tumblr! It’s been a hot minute. I’m 56 days sober & living in spokane now. Life is starting to get great again. 2 months ago I was at my lowest point. No job, no car, no home, just got dumped, addicted to heroin, all the above. Now I have a roof above my head, going to an interview next week, have enough money for a decent car, I’m not doing so bad anymore. For anybody getting their life together, please keep going. I was a hopeless cause. But after checking myself into treatment, I see now that things could be so much worse. Please consider rehab if you are going through it. Especially if you have decent insurance. There are so many options, some places may even give you a scholarship (although it’s rare) please just take the initiative. I love you. Please keep going. You are so worth it. With love, Acryliic.

So she’s officially broken things off with me and there’s no way of fixing things. I have officially fucked our relationship up. but I did offer to go to treatment for 30 days, I offered to go to therapy and see a primary care doctor and I would get on SSRIs if that’s what I needed even though I’ve tried them before. I’ve been on Lexipro, Zoloft, and a third one I can’t remember the name of. I did everything I could to get her back. She want to 90 days of treatment even though I’ve just been on Suboxone and I’ve been over 40 days clean off heroin at this point. With one relapse in there. Idk man it sucks losing the girl I wanted to spend the rest of my life with over something so minuscule. I’m sorry I lied but I didn’t continue denying it when you confronted me a second time. I know I should have been honest up front. But I forgot. I was so fuckjng barred out. And I told her that & she doesn’t believe it cause she doesn’t trust me. I gotta stop writing this and listen to some madvillany & Bladee. (Yes hate on my music you 1 person reading this) love you have a wonderful night:)