Sometimes I forget I have my statcounter and that was interesting to go back and see. Enjoy the show ✌🏻

Since you’re here I just want you to know it saddens me I never got back to the relationship we had. That I felt betrayed at the darkest point in my life. Write me off. Quietly snub me when I’m in the same room. But don’t say I never loved you. That I wasn’t there when you needed it the most. I can’t say the same. And I won’t say I was always there best version of myself and could’ve done things better. The balls no longer in my court. I’m free from that darkness and I won’t wallow in it any longer.

So sick of being cheated on by people that treat me like shit. Recovering from PTSD has been the hardest thing I’ve EVER done and getting breadcrumbed with info about my ex’s new relationship stings so badly. He tortured me. He stole my self worth and so much from me. I had to leave the gym today because I nearly broke down in tears looking at my body in the mirror. I wish I never met this person. Whatever higher power made it so that I spent 4 years being severely mentally and physically abused is pretty messed up. I want to be happy and love myself.

I hate dating and people and men and sometimes myself and I am also simultaneously trying to be a better/more positive person (which I also hate trying to do).