cicada @acicadahumsitsplea - Tumblr Blog

hi, you can call me ci !

what’s your best secret? you can trust me

im a minor! 15-17, I mention my exact age at times but don't want it in my intro

pronouns?: yes. literally any i cannot choose and do not want to sort this out rn. gender apathetic sorta. I’m plural and other system members have their own preferences btw

—-i’m taken <3 @som3thing-0r-the-0ther—-

my askbox is open! I love asks!

DM’s are open to mooties <3

I appreciate tone tags!

DO NOT TRY TO INVOLVE ME IN SYSCOURSE I WILL CRY AND THEN BLOCK YOU (i do not owe you nor anyone an explanation :) (yes i am endo friendly)

I do in fact hate myself and am very self deprecating and self destructive, i appreciate comfort but have a really bad relationship with recovery. caring for myself is difficult (practically don’t harass me over this, if we’re moots you have semi permission i will tell you to fuck off if it gets too much)

this acc is occasionally suggestive so i recommend if that bothers you to block the tw suggestive or cw suggestive tag + my tag #ci is kinda a freak

I’m agnostic but was raised in the Catholic Church, i like religious themes and aesthetics but have some minor religious trauma and stuff so please be respectful and do not preach at me <3 (I can be a little teethy around religious topics but im trying to work on it)

this is a vent/diaryesque acc (Jirai Landmine Adjacent) triggering topics will be discussed and interacted with (I usually put TWs but no guarantees please take care of yourselves, PLEASE BLOCK DO NOT REPORT)

i vent like a lot (sorry y’all)

I’m not ED tumblr I am just someone with a blog who happens to have an (undiagnosed) ed, I use tw’s and currently I don’t post much about it

suspected OSDD, suspected anorexia nervosa.. i have ZERO diagnoses despite being in therapy because my family would make my life even more hell if even the faintest whiff of me being fucked up reached them

i (well... we i guess) have a chronic migraine disorder so i (we) whine a lot about that T-T

I am very anti AI but pro AI addiction recovery (aka if you used AI in the past or are trying to quit I do not judge you harshly)

I’m pro-recovery but I’m not exactly trying to recover right now (am currently clean from sh tho so like yay?!)

Headmates, text colors and their blogs

-Zinnia (she/her) p.s. I usually use this shade of text my blog is @zinniasbeneaththecosmos

-Roscoe (he/him) I usually use this text color and my blog is @there-must-be-more

-Lavender (they/them) I use this shade of text my blog’s @you-are-getting-very-sleepy

-Seraph (xey/xem/xeir) i'm not allowed to have a blog yet

-Glyph (short for Hieroglyph bc of my typing style, will accept any variation of my name atm though that might change!) (umm pronouns r whatever, still haven't figured that out) my blog is @ta-hieroglyphica!

DNI (i also block very freely and sometimes it’s just not personal)

pedos, zoophiles, MAGAs, Trump supporters/defenders, ICE supporters/defenders, transphobes, homophobes, hateful people, mainly NSFW accs, people trying to convert me (im agnostic and do not need an internet stranger trying to change me), transids,

people/beings under 13! (I’ll probably block you just for my comfort, stay safe out there, the internet is not a safe place to be sharing your age that young!)

fauxcest/incest enjoyers

warnings

over 21 are on thin ice…

make me uncomfortable and I will block you (i am a minor)

darkship content accounts are on very thin ice

i’ve tried sharing and i’ve tried caring and i’ve tried putting out

tags & tws & credits below the cut

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ta-hieroglyphica

my blog Is so Cool u all want me to succeed 👁️ am successmaxxing

thememedaddy

the moon is full

but my mood’s down low

my heart says yes but my chart says no

#a cicada hums its tune #lyric post #mommy long legs #Insincere lyric post #Spotify

oh heads up seraph will likely get pissed at you if you refer to xem by anything other than xey/xem/xeir pronouns

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zooophagous

I have been a sheep caretaker for like two days and already I'm like. Wow. I get it.

I get why these were some of the earliest mammals to ever be domesticated. They look up to humans with this sort of dumb but all at once innocent and pure and trusting expression. They're happy to see you. They follow you around. They like to be rubbed under their chins. Maybe its just some latent Scottish highland shepherd DNA I still have in me but I look at my sheep charges and suddenly I see why the love of God for humanity is so often described as a shepherd and his sheep. I'd fight a wolf for these guys. I'd go way the Hell out of my way for them. I'd carry their young for miles on my own back.

upward-bound

nearly 80k reblogs and how many of you eat lamb

zooophagous

The ancient shepherds I'm referencing also ate lamb lol

👁️ feel like vomiting but it's o k. the nausea will pass.. right?

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wallcrawlerx

I had enough of august.

September move your ass.

fastfouriertransformer

my lips are all cracked and bloody who wants to kiss me

awkwardbrunettegirl

who tf calling my phone lol 😂😂

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chronic migraines.

the bane of my existence.

p a i n

ow

is this song about me/silly. anyways as a fellow chronic migraine haver 👁️ feel ur pain. can u find a dark or quiet space/ do u have medications that help u?

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acicadahumsitsplea

y'all don't know how lucky u r 🐝cause 👁️ could have ended up with emoji or some bs as a name but instead Ci's childhood obsession w/ Ancient Egypt gave me Hieroglyph.. if u think my name is weird U R RIGHT but it could be SO MUCH WORSE :)

zeta-finnish

huh.

wait what's this about-

acicadahumsitsplea

👁️'m a system and so 👁️ showed up yesterday & 👁️ picked a name 🐝cause me and Ci r not the same, my name's Glyph like Hieroglpyh (Hiero meaning sacred place or temple) or Glyphos (meaning inscribed or carved)

#cicada reblogs

y'all don't know how lucky u r 🐝cause 👁️ could have ended up with emoji or some bs as a name but instead Ci's childhood obsession w/ Ancient Egypt gave me Hieroglyph.. if u think my name is weird U R RIGHT but it could be SO MUCH WORSE :)

#glyph breaks containment #a cicada hums its tune #hm maybe we all Need emojis..#👁️ don't think colored text is accessible is it..#👁️ dont think that 👁️ have any screen reader using followers but accessibility is important...#hm 👁️'ll think on that

orpheuslament

can i express any genuine wants & desires or will i be tortured & killed

Hii, good morning when you see this. How are you my angel?

hope its o k that 👁️ answer this.. Ci’s still really quiet it’s a little eerie. & like well 👁️m here. 👁️ don’t really know how 👁️ am tbh 🥹. Hope ur day’s been going well, how r u?

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there's a photo of me from march, with my mom when we were traveling around my birthday and.. i look pretty? i look happy i look alive. that's so weird. there are possibly no other pictures of me of any similar age to what i am now other than that one where I look... happy. and i remember being happy... vaguely.. I remember the two migraine days during that trip and I remember blocking some stupid guy who dared to text me happy birthday when I was having the best week of my life. the best week of my life how stupid does that sound? it was before I swapped to matches. Which is funny because my first matchbox was one I got from a bar in that city, the food was good but i didn't eat much. I wasn't eating much. even on my birthday. I just.. couldn't. in a city, getting my ear pierced like i'm stamping myself with the moment instead of the metal. like devoting that moment to the feeling. the lady who pierced my ear had the biggest smile and the softest voice. she was happy. I was starving and having panic attacks every night and burning my hands in hot tea but i was happy. that's crazy to me because now, i eat more then i did during that stage, i've been clean for at least a month not that i've been tracking it at all, and im fucking miserable. i had less memories then though. I wonder if that was even me then or if it was Zinnia. might have been both of us... I remember being unable to think about It. unable to remember then. she has that effect on me, softening. makes life a little more bearable to have so much wonder bleed from her into me, makes time a little less scary when you can't remember the dark. what i'm trying to say is that i hated myself then and i hate myself now but it wasn't the same. for a week, in some pitfall i was at my lowest, and now that's the last moment that stood out to me. march. daffodils wilting just a day after they bloom. getting callbacks and thinking maybe i can do this. maybe i could want to live enough to live trying to do something i love. maybe i can work hard enough. I don't feel that way anymore. I guess it's good to know I felt it at some point.

#a cicada hums its tune #ci thinks #ci here #cicada diaries #long ass post sorry chat #tw ed implied #tw sh implied #tw vent #tw nostalgia

so.. 👁️ didn't go to sleep, just read an entire book. then did the whole staring at myself in the mirror bullshit. something's off and 👁️ can't tell what it is.. something's just so slightly off & at the same time none of this feels like mine. wonder.. if we keep fragmenting or finding new headmates.. how long till people stop respecting us? that's an awful thought isn't it tho? because no matter how many #'s a system has we've never felt that way about them. and 👁️ don't personally care in a sense that 2 be respected doesn't exactly matter 2 me. 👁️ have a fair bit of ego in me and don't give a flying fancy 99.98% of the time. but.. the rest of us? 👁️ think they care, it makes me feel bad for.. becoming. can 1 unknowingly fake this? am 👁️ just accidentally making a mockery of other systems?

#glyph breaks containment #a cicada hums its tune #tw vent #system vent

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