trashy artblog

yeah i’m a corny bitch, yes their names are mike (michael) and ginny (virginia), and they are twins. i have a lot of headcanons for this, but i can’t list them all here. that being said:

their mother is some anonymous woman out in juneau... a few years after jesse got to alaska and started reforming his identity, he finally started to get more sexually confident. (at that point in time, he'd not really had sex in a while. trauma and all.) one time, he's visiting juneau, and he walks into a bar. because he's more confident in himself, he trusts himself to drink, and then he meets a woman. she's a redhead -- completely different than jane and andrea. they end up having excellent sex, and he drunkenly gives her his second cell phone number. he got a call a couple of months later from the redhead -- she's pregnant. he offers to pay for the abortion, but turns out she's somewhat anti-abortion, and sort of wants to have the kids. he goes out to juneau and stays with her for a while and it becomes rather apparent that she wasn't that nice of a person, just pleasant enough for a one night stand. furthermore, she really doesn’t seem to be a suitable person to take care of kids, and they talk about putting the kids up for adoption. eventually jesse decides, close to the date, that he wants the kids, both of them, and so he takes them.

before the twins are born, jesse builds them a bassinet of pinewood. he makes it extra wide so that he can lay both of them next to each other

jesse’s a fantastic dad. for a while before the kids were born, he was completely petrified, thought he would fuck them up. but then he has two babies in the house and he's awake all the time trying to take care of them by himself and all he can think about are his kids nonstop and then he no longer has time for all that fear.

inevitably, the kids still have some problems growing up. after all, both ginny and mike are well aware that their father is deeply traumatized. jesse feels rather guilty, esp. because mike takes after him and his mental health problems -- also, mike is a compulsive caretaker. ginny is surprisingly well-adjusted, but she has her moments.

ginny is a really smart kid, top of the class type. she gets into a big university on scholarship, and she's a feral feminist, like she's just really on top of all that. jesse and mike don't get it fully but they support her. mike, on the other hand, is a quieter type. at one point, he travels through the country. eventually he comes back home to his dad and learns the craft and then lives there the rest of his life.

aaannd here’s a story about how they find out about jesse’s former identity. because fuck it. i like making emotional things:

he wouldn't say much. he'd keep a cover story during their youth, because they might be too young to keep it a secret. whenever they ask about his scars he makes up a different funny bizarre story

he keeps thinking about how he'd explain to them when they got old enough but ginny finally confronts him at 17. it's really obvious that he'd had some sort of life before all of this, and occasionally, jesse would usually drop some kind of hints. for example, he said he got mixed up in a lot of shit when younger, it's clear he's a rehabilitating addict. some of his older art had some odd subjects, y’know. that crap. anyway, ginny didn't piece everything together, but she was really direct about it, said that she was going away the next year to college and if jesse never told her, maybe she'd consider not coming back. it wasn't a serious threat, but it finally pushed jesse to tell both her and mike.

ginny was kind of quiet, listening intently. she'd suspected something, but this is insane. no wonder her dad never told her. mike on the other hand is kind of in shock, and finally after jesse finishes his story, he freaks out. "you can't expect us to believe all that!" and all (imagine flynn when marie told him about walt). ginny grabs him, and tells him to calm down -- the story's true, she believes every bit of it. it's too crazy to be a lie. she forces mike to huddle next to her on the couch and both of them spend a while in silence as jesse goes to make some coffee for them. she looks up "jesse pinkman" on her phone, and both she and mike go down the rabbit hole from there.

s1 jesse:

a couple years into hrt

keeps her hair kind of long, hasn’t really figured out how to maintain it

can get kind of wary and cautious on the streets. she passes extremely well, but there’s still a very strong fear of being outed as trans

walt manipulates her using validation. he didn’t know jesse was trans back in high school, and only found out at the start of brba. jesse only started to come out to more people after highschool, anyway

s2 jesse:

jesse and jane are lesbians i will die on this hill

got vaguely jane-inspired bangs

she’s livin’ her best life... actually sort of happy and comfortable and confident in herself, though still closeted to a strong degree. jane is the first real partner she’s had in a long time due to insecurity

you know that one gay picture of a girl sitting on another girl and doing her makeup? that

s3 jesse:

snake

long hair because she’s been too busy grieving jane to cut it

sad but kind of mean about it. when hank punched her, jesse was so angry she threatened to add hate crime charges against him even if it meant outing herself to the world at large

early s4 jesse:

kind of a divergence from canon, attire-wise. she’s embraced a feminine party aesthetic instead of a masculine one

she’s baring more skin than she’s comfy with, especially in a dangerous setting. it’s a self-destructive impulse

she got a side shave and a septum piercing. she starts wearing eyeliner, too

later s4/s5a jesse:

cleans up her look so she matches all the other criminals around her

goes for something more masculine. she’s feeling more comfortable in expressing herself that way, though not enough to fully shave her head

mike genuinely respects jesse’s gender, unlike walt. (kaylee appears to be a similar age in both bcs and brba, so a fun little headcanon i have is that she’s a trans girl on puberty blockers)

butch time 😎

late s5b jesse:

looks like a mess, always

this is just canon

hair’s growing out, she’s got those dumb overgrown undercut hair tufts. marie put her hair up like that as a female bonding activity

i love marie

compound jesse:

these are nazis. besides being racist, they are also violently transphobic

it’s painful to imagine. i’d say that the short hair jesse has in this pic is because the nazi’s chopped it off to make fun of her. but... that’s painful

while hrt can slow facial hair growth, it may not completely stop it. without maintenance, jesse’s unfortunately growing some beard hair back in

life sucks massively that’s all i can say

el camino/ms. driscoll jesse:

new identity time! her new ids all have her correct gender and name on them

she’s gonna forge a new path for herself...