𝐀𝐁𝐘𝐒𝐌𝐀𝐋.

i need a father. i need a mother. i need some older, wiser being to cry to. i talk to god but the sky is E M P T Y.

she can't help but feel a sense of amusement as she watches him try to mull it over and piece things together. his questions cause a slight grin to appear. she loves it when people ask about the bar's origins because it always leaves her with a fun choice: tell the truth or give an outrageous lie. tonight she chooses to lean a bit more into the truth simply because his vibes intrigued her.

he hasn't attacked or threatened to smite her yet, so the nephil took that as a good sign. in fact, he seemed amused with her, which was something that she hadn't expected. still, mags refused to let her guard down or relax in his presence. past experiences had told her that she couldn't afford to do such things, especially in the presence of the man himself. "blame your celestial children. i'm not really fond of divine beings because of them."

were there divine beings out there who wouldn't try to murk her on sight? possibly. sadly, she hasn't really had the chance to meet them. perhaps the big man could start to turn that around. "at least you admit it. points to you on that one." the halfbreed shifted slightly in her seat before leaning forward a bit. "since i have you here, i'm going to ask a question i've been wondering for a while: what did the nephilim do to deserve being on both heaven and hell's hit lists? i have wanted nothing more than to live my life in peace and at every single turn, i've been prevented from doing so. if it weren't for your angels, i'd more than likely still be living a happy life married to one of the most amazing men that i've ever met. but because of the actions of a few however many thousands of years ago, i've been hunted since i was an innocent child."

what do you label your muse as, and how do they label themselves? is there a difference, and if so, why?

has your muse’s understanding of their own identity changed after realising they aren’t cishet, and do you see it developing further in the future?

when did your muse first realise they’re attracted to the gender(s) that they are?

when did your muse first realise they’re not attracted to the gender(s) that they aren’t?

when did your muse first become aware that they’re not cis?

when did your muse first become aware that their gender identity isn’t within the binary?

how public is your muse about their gender / sexuality / romantic attraction?

is your muse out as lgbtq+? how specifically and in what situations, if that varies.

how much does your muse’s gender identity and presentation differ from one another? is this a source of issues, or does the relationship between the two feel natural?

how does your muse feel about not being cis or straight? are they content with it, proud, ashamed? would the situation be the same if the culture or surrounding support systems were different?

have there been other meaningful people of the same or similar identities in your muse’s life that they’ve looked for support or understanding from? how did that go, and was the impact positive or negative in the end?

what are your muse’s feelings towards stereotypes relating to their identity? do they affect their self-image, or how they perceive others?

was your muse ever in denial about the matter? do you have any examples of specific instances where it was particularly obvious?

has your muse had feelings or experiences that seem to / do conflict with their identity? are these general knowledge? does it alter how others see them, or how they see themselves?

if the thing that originally caused them to realise / start the chain reaction to realising they weren’t cishet had not happened, how much longer would it had take to end up here?

do they consider to ‘always have been’, or do they see the phases in their life before coming out as ‘back when i was [cis/straight/allo]’?

how are their feelings towards pride and related phenomenons?

how does their family feel about the matter? friends? coworkers?—and does their thoughts matter to your muse?

what’s your muse’s relationship with the current state of their body?

what are your muse’s feelings towards the culture of romance and sexuality as it pertains to their identity?

if you can’t see the symbol send kiss.